Need RAM to carry out pet project, so additional purchases this month, and will have to wait 
Busy day entertaining guests. More when Lunar New Year comes.
Estimate that I’ve had ~ two cycles of my ASBR-Limitless custom, including a break during family troubles, and now a break again.
To some extent, I can already feel the loss of ASBR’s fame aspect, though I couldn’t manifest it well to begin with.
Feels like I have very limited results from Limitless, the main result being speaking out more, but can’t say I noticed improvement in any aspect of intelligence.
I was way less productive in this combination than ASBR-Spartan, but shit happened.
Overdrive I still credit for the result last Nov.
Synergy: At the Top:
- I’m riled very easily, so can’t feel the Lion IV and Total Nonchalance aspects much.
- When listening to it, I keep noticing hunches and slouches and correct them. Although ASBR is said to have posture correction, I didn’t notice it previously, so I believe this to be Alpha Body Language. It’s not default posture yet, so I have to keep correcting.
- I can feel Rogue to some extent, in that I catch apology/guilt reflex and go “whatever fuck that”. Which feels good. The be-prepared-to-offend-people does kick in, especially in the last temperamental week. Ebon Maneuver has not helped with this self-destructive tendency, and to some extent I feel justified to not to meekly put up with shit. But it took that recent QL3 listen to channel the anger more effectively.
I have Synergy: Iron Law in the custom, but definitely not more composed under stress. Well, last week when I was advised to keep my cool:
And I’ll have to learn to apply this in spades.
As always feel the loss of Fearsome and Limiting People Remover.
Rest I’ll keep private.
What to replace this? I can do Emperor to replace ASBR. For replacing Limitless, I have a positive memory of QL3 last year and the abrupt listen last week gave very good trailer effect, but also a heavy head that night since I just jumped right back in. But unlike KB I’m reluctant to rerun through the full QL, especially with the experience of old nerve pain during QL1.
The thought back from when I first started ASBR: Maybe I need less cognitive improvement and more removing things that take up space in my head. Focus, maybe, if I attribute last Friday’s foosball performance to QL3.
KB1 continues to keep me warm, it’s been a rainy month so far.
Aside from current subs, noticed better intuition again, but either in rather pointless stuff, like checking my phone at the exact moment a message shows up, or in Cassandra-lite stuff, like feeling the need to leave ASAP, get held back and suddenly rain starts.
KB1:
Did an intent-related exercise last night. Woke up this morning feeling particularly depleted in my solar plexus.
Decided to full-loop KB1. 5min in, the area stopped feeling depleted. 10min in, it grew and is still warm.
That was two years ago.
I know two colleagues at my grade left this month. One had shared with me her own unpleasantries with the younger staff.
Teammate leaked that another two tendered.
KB1 15min on Thursday night.
Perineum heat flashes today.
Company had a photoop (what we call ‘wayang’ in our slang) to show the team’s hard work and cutting edge tech, so intensely staring at .bashrc while running AFL++ on assert(c == ‘a’) 
Somehow that has been more tiring than a normal workday, snoozed upon reaching home.
Intuition: Took a seat on the bus and the thought of smokers came to my mind even though it didn’t smell. Few stops later a crowd boards and a heavy-smelling person picked the seat next to me.
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Another tiring day visiting. Holidays are not rest days.
Happy Lunar New Year
Washout for Jan cycle
Now I’m SO hungry for Asian food!
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Exhausted from four days of family gatherings. But a lot of good food.
February:
Khan Black 1 → Khan Black 2
Stark Black → Emperor Black
KB2 3m30s. Surge of warmth. I shall find more creative ways to describe it.
15min of KB2 no problem.
EmpB: Feeling the return of narcissism self-esteem.
Woke up with the opposite of yesterday, old recon of feeling powerless regarding anything outside my skin.
The feeling of powerlessness passed but can feel it beneath the surface now and then.
Meanwhile, what was trying to use a new open-source tool became trying to fix a new open-source tool…
Something more light-hearted:
Lesson learned, don’t run Emperor Black at 11pm and look at code afterward.
What happened?
Stared at it into the night