I believe I experienced that last night, the tearing down of the wall (the beginning of). I think the split ran way deeper and wider in my life than what I could anticipate by reading this description.
From my journal:
…all of a sudden it was just like flipping a switch. I went really deep, my mind went quiet and my body relaxed in ways I havent felt in a long time, I was pretty aware of every little tension and able to remove it and let go.
At that point I entered a blissful, ecstatic, profound state in which I floated for what it felt an impossible amount of time to calculate. Later after the experience I corroborated it was about 30 minutes.
I cant remember when exactly, but I had this strong voice inside saying to myself “Im me again, Im back” or something on those lines, cant remember the words, but the implication was one of no longer being fractured, split.
Today I woke up and everything is going in slow motion and I feel pretty relaxed.
Havent tried hero yet however since starting the new ST1 KB. I’ve found myslef stretching a lot more throughout the day and at random. Went to the park today just to do body stretches/movements and ground myself in the grass. Qi gong type excersices seem to be on mind lately.
Good catch, I must have missed that in the copy. That must be part of what’s been operating for me in the latest loop. Even though that’s ST1 and my latest loop was ST3, I’ve been alternating between ST3 and the earlier stages regularly.
For my part I had a similarly indescribable experience last night involving looking with increasing levels of intensity/concentration into different areas of the body seeking the more subtle levels lying at the foundation beneath everything else. Much like some of my other recent experiences I kept being drawn back into the internal experience despite my tendency to externalize towards information gathering and the distractions of the outer world. Not 100% sub produced, but aided by it.
My body feels so good, I pause often an feel again, what a beautiful gift.
slowly over last 10 days my gaze changed from invasive to Apreciative, I saw a woman today with a very tight skirt and her legs looked sooo good I wanted to look away in shame but I didn’t-I forced myself to look, relax, appreciate, show her my appreciation and then all of a sudden I wanted to make her legs more beautiful with my touch, I want to make them glow even more. I don’t need to take anything from her
And then it hit me : Sex is good-my Sexuality is good
Instandly a canal in my sacral opened and pure goodness is spiraling like a turbine out of my body since then. It’s activated in positivity now.
The selfrestrictment ended.
Now I am ready to finally make connections with women.
The lake is warm now
Then on my way home I stopped by the bar the one girl I realy like works, I came in waved at her like a child and she jumped away from all customers and grabbed my hand in a very lovely way,it was the first time we touched. I can not imagine that she is single but I will ask her next time. After 1 hour I left and she grabbed my Hand very lovingly again.
On the walk home I had farts of fears of loosing myself in her and giving her control - so I stayed in the state of fear and then saw myself pulling myself out of her and create a bubble around us. the bubble is made out of - I create a good time with you, I take this in my hands.
The fear is gone and I feel a relaxed fundamental confidence - I can do it-time with me is good, it’s in my hands
@qOS From all the data, sharing and reviews of users from old Khan Black, due to the difficult as well as lack of proper knowledge about nature of energy cultivation, what are
The potential difficulties, recons of each new Khan Black stage
What actions, methods users can actively do to reduce or minimize the recon and difficulties of each Khan Black stage?
Of course beside reduce listening time and start with micro loop, the difficulties and preventive methods are more for the energy cultivation results and nature of Khan Black
@BlissAdventurer — results vary from person to person, and qOS won’t summarise what other members reported on the original Khan Black. The new version was fully rewritten, so this covers what each stage works on, where it asks the most of you, and what you can do about it.
Across all four stages
Khan Black works by direct feel and needs no outside practice. It is designed to be used on its own or within a recognised cultivation tradition under qualified instruction, and combining it with energy methods from outside recommended practice is not advised. Reconciliation on any title is mostly inner change that has no outlet yet, so the remedies are practical. Take one small action a day in the direction the stage points. Use hard physical exercise when the energy runs restless. Protect your sleep. Keep a short journal so you can see what is shifting. Run the stages in order, I to IV, and start with Stage I whatever your history, because the first direct acquaintance with the essence happens there.
Stage I: Ignition of the Inner Flame
This is the heaviest stage. It clears sexual shame, performance anxiety, numbness and old hurts, and that clearing can run heavy for a few weeks. PEACE is the recommended partner, because it settles the nervous system while the ground is being cleared. Do not run Stage I beside another heavy clearing stage such as Khan Stage 1. Each is built to have a whole cycle’s attention, and together they compete for it, so neither settles. If you build a custom on the Stage 1 Core, go easy on healing modules, since the core already does the clearing.
Stage II: Tempering of the Currents
Stage II asks your body to carry more. Appetite, sleep and physical resilience tend to drift toward what the deepening needs. Follow that drift: go to bed earlier when you feel like it, eat food that sustains you, and train. Legacy of the Spartan or Spartan: Apex Warrior pairs well here. Give Stages I and II their full time before you stack Stage III with anything.
Stage III: Forging of the Primal Force
The usual misstep here is trying to hold the energy by force, using rules learned elsewhere. Kept energy should feel calm, full and clear. If it feels restless, stirred or heavy instead, ease off and let it settle rather than pushing harder. Give your energy a direction: name the day’s work, whether that is a project, a training session or a hard conversation, and put your energy behind it. Choose your evening input on purpose as well, for example a walk or a real conversation in place of the scroll.
Stage IV: The Crucible Combined
Stage IV runs without supervision, so the work is to stop checking each morning whether it is working. It develops over seasons. If illness or an old habit sets it back, pick it up again without shame and carry on.
The new KB1 has a strange type of recon that is different from recon that I experienced in the past:
A type of recon where I look back at past sexual experiences and where I am grateful for the made experiences and where I choose to keep only the positive sides of the things that happened.
Where I am mentally sending love and sexual energy to the people who were involved back then and wishing them well for their future.
Also knowing that one day I will meet their souls again either way.
There is this strange type of appreciation for the past which I didn’t usually have when reconciling past experiences.
Whereas with the past type of recon, I was just angry and frustrated and wishing for everyone to go eff themselves.
PS:
Current stack since the last 30 days:
KB1 (3 min) + HS1 (3 min) + WB (1 min)
This looks more like self-reflection and healing results than recon.
For personal, self-forgive and self-love can heal the self. When involving with others, sending love and sexual energy is the way to heal the situation between involved parties. The healing is cured for the people in the past then carry to the current moment too.
How will the recon show up on KB stage 1? Emotional, sexully insecurity, heavingness etc?
Does it having scripting around morality, feedback is people feel it creates a niceness , or kindness in them. I had that experience as well. It creates a kind of ‘softer’ ness -why is this?
Will KB in any way smooth out sexual energy or edge? Like Wanted takes away sexual charge or has it more in connection while Khan and Wanted Black create more polartiy and sexual tension. Is KB1 more likely to do the former or the later?
Don’t know whether it’s KB itself, or the subs I’ve been running with it, but I’ve been finding some real nuggets online in articles and out of copyright works on material relating to Western tradition equivalents to the Taoist practices. I know I’ve gotten good manifestation results in that respect with other subs too (for literary material and other obscure resources), but it feels like the quality is going up, or maybe my subconscious is just zeroing in on the material I need to forge my own best system to work with the body’s energies.
For instance, I’ve been able to confirm of the early Rosicrucian systems that taught (and still practice in some cases) the regeneration, several who wrote or taught about it in English and German were adamant that the student should start with the lowest parts of the body, feet up to the knees, and not work the higher centres until later, which is in agreement with the Yasen Kanna and the heel breathing sayings. That and a bunch more regarding aspects of the practical teaching and its history ended up landing in my lap to expand my appreciation for the methods I already have for the billion and oneth time and connecting the golden thread of some of what went on during the revival of the 1800s and in the centuries prior to it.
Without waffling on, the quality of the manifestations is way up there, but also the physical experiences recently (including lower dan tien waking up more, and enhanced PNS control) have been pretty interesting. Seems to be bringing results a lot faster than the older version ever did.
How will the recon show up on KB stage 1? Emotional, sexully insecurity, heavingness etc?
Does it having scripting around morality, feedback is people feel it creates a niceness , or kindness in them. I had that experience as well. It creates a kind of ‘softer’ ness -why is this?
Will KB in any way smooth out sexual energy or edge? Like Wanted takes away sexual charge or has it more in connection while Khan and Wanted Black create more polartiy and sexual tension. Is KB1 more likely to do the former or the later?
This version of KB in a way feels softer than the previous one, I think because of the regulation scripting and adaptive scripting it feels less edgy and in your face, more of a gradual unfolding in my experience.
Sometimes I realise it’s working strong from the feedback I receive from people around me in public, the attraction it creates and the inquiring looks are very obvious and reminds me I carry that quiet fire within, we know how we all like staring at the soothing warmth and light of a burning fire.
Ps: I met a lady giving free qi gong classes outdoors and she noticed me from the energy I give off and came over to share that with me, I since attended one of her guided classes that lasted 1.5 hours, it felt very long but it was very powerful, spending that much time in a somewhat still position doing slow movements was challenging but super powerful, I’m going back Saturday.
Today I expirience discontent while standing next to the girl I like. She works at a bar in the night so instead of ignoring the states that come up I change the location to outside, searching a corner and let it come up fully.
The discontent changed into fear of abandonment, so I am standing there and let this come fully at me. I realized that this time - next relationship will bring out what’s realy not in order with me and I can’t get around - only one way to go-through.
But there is power now in me to stir this into a direction I like, also confidence and assure of myself that I can reach my goals. And then I nearly laughed about it, if there wasn’t this part👇
(I am pairing kbst1 with my WDB, LB, IC custom and I have such brutal pain in my heart since yesterday, Lovebomb is working seriously )
So in the end I accepted my states-inner alchemy turning adversities into strength is exactly what is happening.
I knew it was to early to connect with her-I want that my heart is full of love instead of pain, I want to enrich someone’s life not burdening her as the safe haven in my life.
I’m having the same issue with this version of KB Stage 1 as the previous one, it’s so good that I’m not sure when I can switch to Stage 2!!!
Part of me is very eager to experience Stage 2 but Stage 1 is so nurturing and it’s supporting a base energetic level that is very helpful that I just can’t let it go.
After 3 weeks of kb1 30s to 90s loops, there is a steady reservoir of energy in my base. I am well received wherever i go. People just can’t stop looking at me.
My voice has a certain magnetic quality to it, even my eyes have a glow
I’ve lost interest in porn. And when i feel aroused itz easier to control the energy.
