2025 - Foundation

Journals - Major Programs
#61

Monday - Asc/LBfH 5 min each
Thursday - Asc/LBfH 5 min each

What an interesting week.

1- Not heard a peep from my neighbours since I confronted them on Monday.
2 - The 6-year long debt I’ve been paying back, I finally completed it.
3 - The SEO project I’ve been investing in for a year - guy I’m running it with has advised that I won’t have to invest much longer, that there will be some cash coming my way soon.
4 - The Canadian woman who broke up with me and triggered a collapse in my life has moved to my country and messaged me yesterday. Not heard a peep from her in 5 years+. I feel no urge to respond.
5 - Was able to confide one of my deep ‘shame points’ with a friend, who was totally nonjugemental and understanding.

-something- is happening lol

Will need to speak to someone in my life about some stuff that has been weighing me down with guilt/shame and where it is practically/ethically correct to speak with them, I’ve been avoiding it in order to protect myself, but I look forward to resolving it when I feel a bit more stable.

Medications are slowly kicking in, still going through adjustment phase… won’t see full benefits for several more weeks.

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#62

Interesting results, will keep an eye on your journal :mechanical_arm:

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#63

Sunday - Asc/LBfH 5 min each
Wednesday - Asc/LBfH 5 min each

Possible outer results:

1 - Kid on a bike said “Good morning sir” very respectfully as he rode by
2 - Medical receptionist at GP practice, cute young lady, was showing signs of attraction to me.
3 - Random guy on the street asked me for a cigarette, then gave me his hat in thanks :rofl:
4 - Housemate told me about a free chair and is helping me to get it from their friend’s house (good, as mine broke a couple weeks ago and I’m borrowing someone else’s)
5 - Friend gave me some lemon balm

Guy who gave me his hat was a natural Khan. I felt the encouragement of that masculine strength. I wish I’d had that kind of influence growing up. I feel like access to that power would help me massively.

Experiencing the guilt/ocd stuff around the situation mentioned in my previous message.

Working on being the observer to that.
And on shifting beliefs.
And on mentally preparing myself for that conversation.

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#64

Saturday - Asc/LbFH 5 min each
Tuesday - Asc/LBfH 5 min each

Washout until next week.

Gifted a new office chair. It’s super comfy.

#65

Was gifted a book to read.

One thing is for sure - I’m receiving a lot of gifts since starting LBFH.