I got laid a few days ago and it didn’t feel like the way I thought it would feel. To put it in perspective, it had been a long long time since having sex. Its not that I couldn’t get sex, its that the opportunity came up where women would invite to have drinks with them and such but I either didn’t go or couldn’t or better yet didn’t know how to escalate to get there. This time around things just happened fast and we were having sex but wasn’t as satisfying as I thought it would be. I was kind of disappointed in myself because I could have done better. The sex was average but finally broke my spell of no sex that had lasting for a long time. No way I could’ve achieved this without my stack.
I’m starting at a lower place than most because I lack the foundation to get the results one would expect but still getting results especially a week into my washout
People seem to trust me way more
giving me things, going out of their way to give me something
I noticed if I talked to a woman and maintain my dominance intentionally, it turns them on very fast
Like I was training this one lady who I didn’t know, but we got to talking and while talking I held strong eye contact without showing any submissive and it felt natural, and she started touching me. Every woman who I talk to, I’ve noticed, seems to do this, more obvious when I’ve known her for a while. They sense like this dominance about me.
Online has been successful too, been getting numbers left and right but most either live far away, not attractive enough or just flake on the date.
I’ve been way hornier than usual and porn use has gone up but trying to stop it because I want to get rid of this bad habit for good. I feel like it’s draining all my mental, physical and spiritual energy.
The other thing I noticed is mixing QTKS and name embed feels off compared to using QTKS alone. When I used QTKS alone, I felt confident completely, like no recon nothing, when I added my name embed that I was running for 4-5 ,months recon hit…but everything seems to be coming together slowly but smoothly.
While writing this, I matched with a woman close by and seems like we might be meeting this week. It seems like she might want me to clap her cheeks who knows…will see how things lead
Neediness is down but still there. I found myself getting jealous over a coworker and realized that I was being dumb about it, this one coworker of mine who likes me, I thought was having sex with my other coworker without any basis of proof. But still I sense that jealousy deep down that is still lingering, I want to get rid of it but it’s tough because I realize that I have so many insecurities still that I need to work on asap.
I self sabotage when I see success because deep down it messes without my homeostasis which sucks because I wish my new normal was having successful with women and in life in general. I guess I have to embrace being uncomfortable