Very stackable. Should synergize quite well.
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Ok, in the beginning I thought the my healing was acknowledging the toxicity I had in the relationship, but now I understand it’s the opposite.
Now, when I think about my ex, I don’t miss her anymore, I understand that she not only cheated on me, but she was also a very very bad partner.
She treated me very poorly and I couldn’t see it because I was so in love.
I now understand that my toxicity was only a reaction to her toxicity.
And even still, my toxicity is not even real, i was manipulated by her to believe that I’m the toxic one.
I see it so clearly now that I think to myself, how did you stay with her when she treated you like this?
I had a false image of her in my mind but it’s not reality it’s fiction.
Now when I see the truth I feel no love towards her and I will not miss her anymore.
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Focused on emotional healing. Which will – by the very nature of healing the emotions – extends to other things.
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It’s already in the backend. If you’re waiting to order a custom, go ahead and use the existing core. We’ll update the image shortly.
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So I was feeling kind of angry minutes ago… I lay in bed and closed my eyes.
I asked inside:
Where is the feeling located? My attention went to my chest.
What is the actual emotion Im feeling? I instantly felt sad and some tears appeared.
Is this feeling connected to someone else? A person appeared in my mind.
What though or idea is connected to the sadness and that person? A belief about not being loved became clear.
After each answer the feeling got stronger, right after the last one the feeling disolved and I became peacefully silent.
Sadnes and anger are gone.
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Officially fallen victim to the hype.
Bought it, ran it.
The instant calm is fascinating. I’ve got a bit of a cold, been moody the last couple of days, detaching from this feeling is quite something.
I also get better into writing (fun projects), this inner distance helps an awful lot. (Normally I would just stream stuff and sleep now.)
Music is even more carrying the mood than it normally does.
It would be a great addition to E:E! (first impression though)
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It’s been a full day now after running a full loop.
I fell asleep faster than expected last night and slept a couple of hours past my alarm. Unusual. Was super groggy after waking so sleeping deeper. Also unusual.
I took a 2 1/2 hour nap today, which I usually do not do. I am getting a lot more rest since running.
For decades I have struggled with tension and pain in my shoulders and neck. It is usually where I hold my stress. Most nights I have my son give me a shoulder and neck massage because my tension is like iron bands in my neck which usually gives me a lot of pain in my neck during the day. So most days I am in pain (one of the reasons why I have been running a Paragon Complete custom focused helping me with healing neck / head issues along with stress, which I have been running for about six months).
Well today I have almost no tension in my neck and shoulders. No pain. I even went swimming in a river today which would normally create more stress and pain in my upper back through to my neck and head. I feel more relaxed and pain free than I have been since I was in my twenties (I’m 54). Just simply incredible.
I know now that I hold my emotional trauma in my upper back to neck and I feel safer in my own body. Never understood this until running this sub. And have only ran it one time so far.
These are the kind of results that are basically life-changing and it’s almost hard to comprehend. I will give it more time but so far I have never had such incredible results after running one loop of anything. GLM had different results but it too was one of the best first loop results I’ve experienced until now. So you definitely are on to something profound here in my opinion.
I am running a Love Bomb custom along with Regen btw.
Thank you so much for creating this. At this point I do not plan on removing this sub from my stack ever! 
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Based off of my initial read of this SP, it seems to me that this title would pair well with Emperor: The Executive.
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You deserved some profound relaxation, bro 
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The song is looping in my head still. But the sadness is replaced with a sense of…purpose?
Like, yeah I love the girl, and even if I’m never man enough to be with her, she’s the one on my mind as I build.
Like…a muse? My personal Helen of Troy. Big difference is if I go for her, nobody will stand in my way.
For now, though, I build.
EventuallyI’ll put aside my reservations about Heartsong and stack with this beauty.
Running some HS now.
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Today I dealt with an incredibly unpleasant customer and being put in a position where I couldn’t give her the answers she wanted because it was escalated to higher ups and I had no say.
Was I calm cool and collected about the interaction? Not really. However what I did notice, it didn’t stick with me. Normally emotionally charged situations like that hit me in a few phases. The activating event and almost running on autopilot, the post event attempt at calming, and the aftershock. The aftershock is when I get effects like fatigue, dehydration, tension, headaches, etc. I still felt drained from the situation and upset, but it felt like it didn’t hit as deep as it usually does.
Second event for today I went to go pick up meds at the pharmacy and they told me it was backordered and they had no idea when it would be available. I only had 1 more dosage left so I felt panic set in. I got home and then called up another local pharmacy to see if they could transfer the rx since they had the medication in stock. Earth shattering execution of something I know, but in all seriousness something like this usually would have me go into a doom spiral and procrastinate. Instead I took action despite feeling like I was screwed.
For only one 30s loop I’m pretty impressed with how some of this was executed automatically.
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I imagine the resilience part of this sub to be integrated into Aegis Initiative : Survival Instinct
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Did a loop last night.
- fell asleep quickly. It usually takes me at least 30 minutes to fall asleep, not last night
- The nervous system, fascia relaxation is on another level.
- I was having intense neck pain on one side of my shoulder for about two weeks. It’s gone right now just straight up disappeared.
- the inner stillness feels soothing.
- i woke up 2 hour earlier than my usual time, but I’m completely rested.
- it feels like a complete spa experience my entire musclar system is flexible than usual. The sub completely loosened my body.
Will pair this with EE and Khan 3.
A little passage from Psycho Cybernetics book:
During the last days of World War II someone com-mented to President Harry Truman that he appeared to bear up under the stress and strain of the presidency bet-ter than any previous President; that the job did not appear to have “aged” him or sapped his vitality, and that this was rather remarkable, especially in view of the
many problems which confronted him as a war-time Presi-dent. His answer was, “I have a foxhole in my mind.”He went on to say that just as a soldier retreated into his fox-hole for protection, rest and recuperation, he periodically retired into his own mental foxhole, where he allowed nothing to bother him.
Your Own Decompression Chamber
Each of us needs a quiet room inside his own mind—a quiet center within him, like the deep of the ocean that is never disturbed, no matter how rough the waves may be-come upon the surface
Do yourself a favour and get this sub. You’ll probably save 1000s of dollars.
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Today after a new loop, I was seating in my secret garden. There was a movie screen. And projected on this screen were elements of grief. From bright colors full of emotions I transformed them in black and white with total detachment, then they became ashes and disappeared. I feel free !!
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This. You won’t even believe me when I say this when a betrayal trauma from a relationship affected not only my romantic side but also significantly my education and career side of things. Often manifested as confidence and self worth/esteem issues, lack of trust etc. that caused me to be fearful of things.
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I’m feeling things I don’t normally (or easily) feel. I’m in a conundrum. Because for me, I’m in a new spot in healing. I’m asking for some imput.
I started my 2nd cycle of running my Phoenix/LB custom Monday of this week. It hit quick, where I considered starting doing 2 rest days since it’s pushing harder now. It must have finally kicked through some barriers. And that’s very positive since being “stuck”, a conscious survival choice, has been a default of mine for years.
And between a mix of Furious Ascent’s influence of “why not?” and Phoenix showing old painful beliefs during my workday (lots of tears), I did a 3 minute loop of Regeneration 2 nights ago, instead of Phoenix.
Tonight is my listening night for Phoenix. My “problem” is that I’m still feeling effects of Regeneration.
My conflict is that Regeneration is still allowing good, healthy, and desired beliefs and feelings to surface. Not fear driven stuff. I’ve been looping in that belief that “If I feel bad or uncomfortable during healing, then it’s GOOD. This is how healing works”
And writing that brings up tears while writing. Regeneration is allowing me to feel like I’m a kid, that this is good, that I’m SAFE, and that everything is going to be ok. I’m allowed and even encouraged to heal. To feel. To just…BE.
And I feel foolish, knowing “MORE, MORE, MORE, MORE HEALING”–isn’t meeting every need of mine. That poor reasoning is why I’ve been making customs bringing in LB and relational needs and wants. I’ve been hiding in the healing world a number of years.
I’ve just wanted to feel ok…with myself. I’ve rarely, rarely felt that. Like knowing I was safe making my own choices. Not being owned by fear.
Yes. I’m in conflict. Usually I’m seeking other’s validation to make my choices. Embarrassing admission for a man who’s 50+.
And Regeneration is relaxing my emotions. It’s allowing me to breathe emotionally. And also…I’m feeling (and still allowing) pangs of guilt and FEAR, born of rehashed thinking in some healing communities, on and offline.
I think I know what I’m gonna do tonight. Am I wrong for wanting the freedom and relaxation of Regeneration? Feeling “unstuck” is a beautiful thing.
(It took almost an hour to write this. My 2nd alarm just went off. Thanks for reading)
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I just reread this. The sideways cultural belief that living in internal stress non-stop is “good for you” has been experienced, definitely. That encouraged me to hide way back in my 20’s. I remember visiting a seminary and possibly being a priest. I was fortunate since I talked with an old deacon during a visit, and he probed my thinking. I just saw the church as safe, and I was seeking a hideout. He didn’t force me to see it. I just felt safe enough to admit the truth.
Feeling “safe” is underrated.
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I’d go all in on Regen, especially if the thought of healing meant being on an exhausting treadmill for all of your life. That “inner chill” effect, when stressed is some kind of miracle.
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The way I see it is you have to practice and become comfortable with relaxation and peace. Those of us who have lived amped up or in pain, that’s our comfort zone. It’s natural when you seek to move out of that your mind throws all these questions and doubts if that’s the right decision. That’s the defense mechanism to keep you in what’s known. As odd as it sounds sometimes it takes courage to step into the unknown of that constant feeling of things being ok.
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