@James That isn’t your smile? It should be.
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Hmmm, seems to be working that’s all I can say. 🕵🏿♂️
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What was your first loop like?
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For the first time the subliminal script works almost immediately. Pain in the chest but feeling freer and happier.
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I’ve noticed you talk about this a lot, not in depth due to personal details of course but it’s something that’s clearly in the front of your mind.
Maybe this is something you should journal and/or reflect upon with your use of this title so that you can finally let go of how you grew up - as it seems to me like you’re to focused on what happened to you (the old story) rather than the present/future.
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Day before yesterday I played a loop.
Yesterday night, before falling asleep, my mind drifted into various scenes from the past, from my early years. These scenes I believe, have played a major role in shaping how I am today.
Unfortunately, in all the scenes that automatically popped up, I was either drowning in shame or choking in fear. From a helpless 3 year old hiding under the sheets when his parents were fighting, to a 4 year old Pre-Schooler who always settled for the last toy that was left on the table, to a 5 year old Kindergartener who couldn’t stand up to a bully half his size.
I think the first scene played the biggest role and the latter scenes sealed the boy inside a Doom cycle.
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The recon is not bad at all, almost non existent
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Just yesterday you popped into my mind. A fleeting thought, but I was wondering how you are doing.
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You are no longer that kid
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First time I used this I had heart pain, most likely my heart chakra clearing stuff I’d assume, and I was pretty irritated
Now I listened to it for the second time 30 minutes ago and this time I experience a sense of anxiety
So the recon is pretty solid
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Heartsong & LBFH are suitable for heart chakra clearing.
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@James To add to this, within the past year I’ve learned a lot about grieving the past. I think for some of us we truly haven’t come to terms with our past. It always haunts us because we weren’t given the space to express how unfair it was, hurtful, disappointing, etc without being shamed. We just got told the classic American response of pull up the bootstraps and go make money to fix your problems, man up. Intellectually we understand what happened and how it impacted us, but we didn’t learn to process it in a natural manner.
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I feel inner child has ways to process it and there are adult ways. We are always taught to be the adult way and the inner child gets neglected. This leads to build up of harsh emotions and bitterness etc. Without a healthy way to vent them they can continue to stick into your adult life.
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True, true, true. 
I listened to 5 minutes this morning, and I felt it quickly. I felt my body getting warmer, like Phoenix was scanning for tension and trauma links. It hung on a good 30 minutes.
The main thing I notice this morning is a subtle challenging of personal standards and “safe” norms. In other words, things I’ve used to deny reality. That constant denial keeps me in fear and anxiety since…I know, everyone knows…the truth will come through eventually, even if we want to avoid them.
And Phoenix seems like a tool to cut past these hindrances to growth. (The only con in listening today is I’m at the end of my cycle. Washout starts tomorrow. Freedom is addicting.)
I’m listening to an instrumental song now where my mind’s searching for high school memories, as I’ve lived here that long. I’ve not had that harsh burning in the chest like some have mentioned, but I sense it “heating up”. More to come, for sure.
I’d like to thank all the men and women who have shared their experiences here so far. It reminds me I’m not alone, and I don’t need to be.
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I really wish to come back to this title when I have low stress around, it has left an imprint on me.
That makes me happy!
Hope you’re doing well
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Not being able to apply that thought in life