It’s really inspiring to see your results on a Primal Ascension custom. Had made one of my own with Qv1 but had to abandon it for more urgent goals. Will definitely have to return to it one day (and remake it in Q+ when that tech happens).
Will follow your journal closely. Here’s to your success!
Thank you, best of luck on your journey as well.
Went to the gym and killed it for a good 90 minutes. No matter what inner resistance I faced, I pushed past my limits during every single part of the workout. I was relentless in pushing myself further (thanks furious ascent and Fenrir). I even caught myself growling a couple times while lifting.
My sexual urges have dropped to near zero, the inner gasoline module is designed to not only increase one’s sexual energy and make it more potent and concentrated, but also help them transmute it. Looks like this is happening on autopilot for me. As extreme as my sex drive can become this is honestly pretty shocking. I was expecting to have to struggle and not be able to concentrate fully for at least the first week or two while adjusting to the increased sex energy load, but no urges to speak of whatsoever. I can tell the energy is still there though because of how hard I’m able to push and get things done, speaking of which…
Emotions unfettered, It’s having an unexpected effect on me in two ways. It’s supposed to make one’s emotion more intense, but I find for me, it’s making them flow smoother and faster, and so I’m able to focus more on the things I’m doing and not waste a bunch of emotional energy by being bogged down by things like irritation, etc. This is leading to increased productivity and quality of work for me. I am enjoying my emotions more though, I can definitely say that. The 2nd effect is that my emotional control has at least doubled in less than 24 hours. I can literally shift my mood in under 10 seconds effortlessly. Any emotion I feel that doesn’t serve me in the moment is quickly processed and transmuted into a more helpful one. It’s been a dream of mine to attain emotional mastery for years and I’m finally gaining what feels like the last bit of power over my own mental and emotional states that kept eluding me. I’m not very emotional to begin with and have decent control but now it’s a breeze.
I know exactly how you feel.
Lovely journal, please keep it up!!
I will eventually run Primal aswell and I am already looking very much forward to it!
It truly doesn’t disappoint, and thank you.
Know I’m updating a lot but a lot is happening. I basically just confirmed the Panther module works and I executed it so smoothly that I didn’t realize what happened until about a minute after the event was over.
Don’t know what it is but a lot of foreign women have been manifesting for me. 3rd one in the past 5 weeks eve since I started ascension and primal. Maybe cause right now that’s the beat source for me to find sweet and feminine women. Anyway, I stepped out of the house to do some business. Within an hour I ran into a woman from Germany who is gorgeous, sweet, feminine, and has a positive vibe.
We spoke for a bit and I’m the type that feels out a person’s energy while interacting before I decide to open up socially. I started getting a hunch that she liked me because of how she kept gazing at me while we spoke. To test her, I would stop talking for a few seconds while looking elsewhere. I could see her staring at me from the corner of my eye, waiting for me to say something to keep our interaction going. The times where I sat in silence comfortably, it would take her less than 10 seconds to grab my attention and start talking to me again.
She mentioned how she just got to the United States and was looking for friends. We talked a bit more and before I ended the conversation I got a huge burst of energy in my chest. I then heard my subconscious tell me to get her number. For a moment I was just gonna say no but before I could finish my thought, the panther module kicked in and I exchanged numbers with her on auto pilot, saying I’d show her around and joking a bit to make sure the interaction ended on a high note.
She got excited, gave her my number and she immediately called me to make sure it was right and that I had her number. We’re currently texting now.
Not long after we parted ways, I switched locations. As I walked into a store, I had a woman who was having a conversation with another man completely turn away from him and spin around to follow me with her eyes as I walked past them. Literally turned her whole body around. I pretended not to notice, don’t know who dude was but damn that was disrespectful lol.
When I left the store, a married couple was coming in. The husband went a separate direction to go grab a cart. The wife kept walking straight towards me while we held intense eye contact, like we were going to fuck on the spot. I had to get outta there before I got myself into trouble.
While I walked around the store, i had one guy randomly apologize for getting in my way, even though he was hardly near me. I also had a strange stare down with another man. He didn’t look angry and I think we kinda just stared at each other trying to see what the other wanted or if we’d say anything to one another, weird.
Amazing journal man, just like the other ones! I know you have run emperor or customs based upon it for a long time, but did you feel that the personal power part has stayed with you?
Thanks man. Yes I’ve run every version of emperor since v3. I’d definitely say the personal power aspect has remained with me through it all. It does seem to cool down a bit if I go more than 4 days without running a sub, but it’s still there when I need it.
Taking a quick break from the grind, figured I’d update.
Went to get an oil change this morning and all the males in the place treated me with the utmost respect and even seemed eager to socialize with me. Compliments everywhere and they were fully attentive towards what I had to say. Right before leaving I was chatting it up with a couple guys and when I had to go, they looked like they were being abandoned on the playground lol. They may have wanted to exchange numbers, idk.
Got stares from women as usual but one in particular eyed me hard the whole time I was there. I wasn’t attracted to her though so no approach this time.
Today my social skills are flawless. Despite my usual misanthropic mindset I’m actually enjoying socializing and being more towards the extroverted side of the spectrum today.
Not gonna lie, I also had a surprise occurrence where one dude blatantly told me that he was bisexual out of nowhere. He then stared at me to gauge my response. All I could do was stare a bit awkwardly, then proceeded to say “….ok…”. Not sure what he expected there.
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Don’t know how but I forgot to mention that my general swagger and confidence levels seem to be increasing by the hour today and I’m automatically transmuting negative emotions into positive ones. For example, fear and insecurity into courage and grand self-esteem.
I also just got 50% off my meal from the cashier for no apparent reason. We just had a quick and light hearted conversation. He must be in a great mood lol.
The team at subclub might have built this thing a bit too well lol. My subconscious is sending me signals that it’s already getting a little bored because it’s easily processing, storing, integrating and executing the script (which it’s proving several times a day for the past 3-4 days.
I am aware that this is potential reconciliation, which I have to say; this subliminal for me, is easily the most powerful, congruent, fast acting and results producing sub program I’ve ever run. No other subliminal has even come close to matching this thing’s performance level and consistency. Consider the fact that I’ve used at least 4-5 programs a year for the past 4 years. That’s saying something.
Reason I have a hard time telling if this is recon is because I do get bored easily when I feel like I’m mastering something too quickly. I rather keep going though. If I could get such powerful and profound changes within just 3-4 days then there’s no sense in sabotaging such a good thing.
I’m also thinking that because the DEUS module is in here, it would serve me well to keep going and get even faster, stronger and more profound results, until the instructions and guidance in this sub become 2nd nature.
2 loops a day with at least 3 hours between loops had worked wonders. The changes are integrating so fast that they’re starting to feel natural. I’m gonna try adding a loop per day next week so that’ll be three. I’ll be taking the weekend off to let things “settle in” of it hasn’t fully already.
Note to self, don’t do more than one loop in a row (unless you plan to stay awake afterwards). Played 2 loops in a row and felt literally everything doubled. Personal power, primal energy, confidence and swagger, etc. However, going back to sleep screwed me up. Woke up damn near dead. At least now I know how to better utilize the program. Do no more than 1 loop overnight unless I’m staying up afterwards.
Been hella busy the past 24 hours. Yesterday was the first of two rest days before I start the next cycle. It seemed like up to a certain point my stress levels were rising because I wouldn’t give into the urge to run my custom on a rest day. Took a considerable amount of mental effort to fight through the recon. It cleared for a few hours but then came back in a different form.
All the supreme confidence, swagger, inner strength and masculinity I’ve been feeling this past week didn’t totally fade but it was greatly diminished. It’s almost as if id never run my custom in the first place. Now that I think back on it, this might’ve been a subconscious attempt to convince me that I needed to run the sub again on an off day. I might’ve given in if I weren’t so busy. Taking one more day of rest and then it’ll be 3 loops daily for 5 days on, followed by next weekend off.
Did 3 loops overnight but right when I fell asleep so I had time to recover before I woke up. Still woke up tired but was able to get up and moving relatively quick. Basically played no games about preparing myself for the day and got my home in order prior to staring work, speaking of which I had to put my, or rather the department Manager in check (I consider myself my only manager so I’m careful about how I use terms and titles when referring to others, in order to avoid even subconsciously giving someone or something power and authority over me.) She can take my response how she wants, won’t change how I operate one bit. It was professional but stern and came from a place of truth in order to address her complaint.
More importantly, I forgot to mention this in my last update but a combination of modules in my current custom are driving me more than ever; to evolve myself not just as a man, but a multidimensional being altogether. It’s for this reason that I designed what will be my next custom, but it’s going to be large and cost a good penny (gonna have to be 2 parts) since I seek to have it do so much. Coincidentally, the new SAGE IMMORTAL title just dropped and surely will be included in my next custom as one of the cores, since it greatly aligns with the next objective of my evolution.
Being or becoming just a man, alpha, emperor, etc just isn’t big enough a goal for me. There is great power in being these things and I feel they’re necessary to help me get to my final “inner destination”, thing is, they are just pit stops along my journey of development. I truly see that now and have come to realize why becoming these things by themselves would quickly fizzle out my motivation when I imagined them.
I seek to understand and master, myself and reality, and discover what my place is here in all of creation. Getting to know, love and incorporate my primal and “darker side”, is the final pit stop before my priority becomes multidimensional evolution.
I of course will still be running my current custom and seeking to get the most out of it that I can before I move on.
Taking an off day unexpectedly. Yesterday recon had me pretty much ready to knock someone’s head off. I was still pretty aggressive for a good part of my morning until my subconscious had the social calibration scripting within the Primal core bubble up and advise me that going forward, it’s best if I carry myself with a sense of “dynamic dominance”.
Sometimes I’m Social interactions for quite a few years, I’ve noticed I have often been either a bit too aggressive or sometimes even slightly more passive than I should’ve. Being that I’m someone who’s proud of how far I’ve come with being assertive, I still sometimes tend to mess up when it comes to being such. So from now on instead of just reminding myself to be assertive, the mantra is dynamic dominance, my own version of assertion.
Dynamic dominance is a concept I had hit me out of nowhere. It’s defined by basically the dynamic part of the philosophy (or social strategy) being that I can adjust my level of intensity based on who I’m interacting with in order to help guide the interaction in the most positive way possible. Doesn’t mean that if I’m dealing with someone timid that I’ll act soft or timid myself, just means that I may adopt a more relaxed demeanor overall with said person or group. That’s also where the dominance part comes in, rather I’m expressing my smoother side, or my electrifying one (I’m a living spectrum), the goal is to maintain as much dominance as possible, that way even if I am coming across relaxed, it’s still with a demeanor of being authoritative and confident, basically dominance without aggression (yes that is possible).
Of course if I just feel like expressing myself one way or the other, I’ll do that unapologetically no matter what the occasion or circumstance, but I see this dynamic dominance concept being a fun one to play with consciously for now.
Emotions unfettered truly getting stronger, or rather I’m executing it quite well with profound results being seen quickly. Even under very emotional situations I keep great control over my emotions, despite how deeply I can feel them.
While going to get something to eat yesterday, I walked into a restaurant and the entire staff acted weird. The cashier seemed like he was scared to say the wrong thing while we interacted, and called me sir more times than I can count. His coworkers kept staring at me like I was from another planet, and his Manager stared me down like she wanted to make a kid right in the restaurant. She had an intense feminine glare. I payed it no mind as I didn’t find her attractive but it’s not because she wasn’t good-looking, I just was too damn hungry to care at the time.
Think I’ll be taking a 2nd rest day in a row. Recon can quickly build up with this sub but it’s fairly easy to deal with, especially if I give myself a couple days to rest.
Also had two small incidents in Walmart while shopping. One woman pointed something out to me about the checkout line (she was also a customer). She was about 25 ft away and it was kind of loud so I had to project my voice. When I did, a lot of ppl turned and looked at me like I yelled at her. Something like this happened a few weeks ago too. She didn’t take offense, just guess my voice was very powerful and caught everyone’s attention. She instantly showed signs of submission upon hearing my response, but it wasn’t my intention to come off in any particular way. The occurrence from a few weeks back in the same walmart happened in a similar manner when someone accidentally skipped me inline because he didn’t know where the line ended. This happened while I was still on the main store versions of Ascension and Primal. I simply got his attention and pointed out where the line was in a casual way. He reacted like he was scared to anger me and like I wanted to fight him; although I was pretty chill in the moment. A woman in front of me stared at me like she was waiting to see if I would escalate the confrontation into a fight but there was no need for that.
2nd incident from last night in walmart happened around 5 minutes after the first. An older woman came and opened a register since it was late and the store was backed up with customers waiting to check out. She was pleasant to deal with and even let me know that she opened up the register just so I could get out faster. But ,she did it in a way where she didn’t seem to want anything from me, she just wanted to show kindness.
Today, really the past few days, I’m feeling very anti social and I’ve also been super tired. Even caffeine is hardly working to keep my energy up. I don’t want to interact with, or even be in the same building as another human being, not even my own family. I’ve also been mostly nonreactive towards acts of kindness or concern shown by others. Even when they’re being nice, ppl are just annoying the hell out of me by their mere presence. I’ve also mostly been ignoring the women that I’ve been talking to as well. I haven’t even wanting to be out and about to conduct business either. Today is a rest day so we’ll see if a loop tomorrow will help balance out whatever is happening beneath the surface. One last point is this, this custom has helped me identify how paranoid I’ve become as far as trusting other people as well.
Accidentally took a rest day yesterday but all good. All the recon ended up passing me by and i was astoundingly social. Favors and positive social interactions all day. Stares from women of all kinds, especially this one smokin hot latina at a bar, but…didn’t act on that since I was with a lady friend. By friend I really mean one of the women i’m talking to. At that same bar, there happened to be a guy there that likes my lady friend (that particular one) and I caught him staring at me out of jealousy a couple times before I stared back at him. The stare was unconsciously; one that I haven’t given in quite a while, one where I’m sure to let you know that if you want trouble from me, you’ll get it. That was the last time he even looked in our direction.
We hadn’t seen each other for about 2-3 weeks since she went out of town and got back over a week ago. She thought I blocked her number for some reason and seemed genuinely concerned that I wasn’t hitting her up. She decided to call me up yesterday and said she wanted to treat me to lunch. On my way to her house though, she got a little irritated and besides herself. I decided since I was going to pick her up anyway, that i’d confront her face-to-face instead of starting something on the phone. 10 minutes passed by and once I got there, she immediately gave me a gift (souvenir from her trip), and apologized for her bad attitude before I could even address it, she in fact apologized a few times for it during the few hours we spent together.
So here are the highlights of what I noticed about her behavior (which although she apologized, I was sure to still tell her that it’s unacceptable):
She called me “babe” way more than usual.
She kept wanting to grab my arm and have me escort her everywhere we walked.
*She kept wanting me to shop with her and go places, almost as if she were trying to find an excuse just to spend extra time with me.
She made 2 jokes and a comment about having my baby, and showed me a picture on IG of a little girl, stating that’s what “our child” would look like. 
She was eager to buy me whatever I wanted and even bought my daughter a couple small and thoughtful gifts, she thought it was hilarious when I playfully told her that I’m aware that she’s auditioning to be a Stepmother.
LOLLL! Good one, bro! Hilarious!
Lol thank you.
Main updates is that my lady friend is falling for me FAST. It’s like on days we don’t speak, her attraction for me multiplies and she’s acting more feminine and even closer to being “in love” every time we interact.
Not bragging here but this is the LEAST amount of effort I’ve ever put in with a woman that I dated or entertained for more than a few weeks. Yet she seems to be falling for me just as hard and fast as women from my past back when I used to pull out all the stops.
On another note I’ve become more irritable than ever, and no I don’t think that’s reconciliation, but rather emotions unfettered showing it’s strength. I’m able to control it but it’s a work in progress to master my anger. I’ve definitely been more confrontational and even a bit argumentative for a few days now.
I’ve also randomly had ppl tell me I put out good vibes, especially women. And finally, my sexual urges have pretty much evaporated over the past week. Initially the increase in sexual energy from the inner gasoline module made me have higher libido and I put it to use if you know what I mean. Now though, I have to damn near force myself to even get aroused. I felt this process happening gradually after the initial libido burst, but now it seems the control and transmutation aspects have really taken hold. Crazy how Evry time I achieve something I’ve had on my goal list for years, it’s anti-climactic. My sexual self-control has increased more in the past month than it has in the last 17 years.