I see. Thank you.
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Well I woke up in a good mood and literally within 10 minutes had a growing sense of great anger. Right now I feel pissed for no reason. This feeling is exactly what I experienced with past versions of emperor, but it could also be recon from my stack as a whole so I’ll try taking the next 2 days off instead of running anything today. I may have to consider once again setting emperor aside and just adding EOG back; therefore sticking to a pure wealth stack like I originally planned.
When this happens with me , the reason is very clear (I am not living the script ultimate goals) it’s that simple and didn’t need to be more complicated (if you are Living or moving toward the script goals ) you will feel anticipation and positive expectations.
Even when I have I’ve still experienced anger of this sort. I don’t think it’s that I’m not doing anything productive but just the fact that I’m not there yet. I felt a similar anger when running my custom with ascension in it but not to the same degree.
In any case. I had breakfast and meditated and the the recon has passed. I feel happy as shit now.
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Was having emotional ups and downs for a couple hours and was tired. I’m good now that I ate lunch. I’m starting to wonder if these alpha programs have the effect they do on me because I’m a naturally irritable person. I have a chill demeanor in real life but some days I walk around like I’m a living time bomb, and this is before subclub. Been like this since I was a kid, despite any emotional healing I’ve already gone through.
Emperor and all other alpha programs may have to just be occasional use tools for me personally. I don’t mind a bit of “darkness” in my demeanor but it seems after a couple days I get pushed too close to the edge for my liking. I never mind being dominant, assertive and sometimes even aggressive but it’s always like a seething rage is created within me which makes it tough to even be comfortable in my own head.
Not blaming any programming specifically, just trying to rationalize why I keep having this reaction to them, and this type of stuff occurred before subclub too.
Well GLM ZP is out…damn it Saint and fire lol. Since I’ve removed EZP I’ll be trying it in a couple days when I’m supposed to run programs again.
Not sure if it was the emperor or mogul aura but women in general at work have been very playful and or touchy with me today. They’re Comfortable as hell getting physically close even if I don’t know them. I keep getting Hella stares from them too. Also, one female coworker wished me a happy new year before she left, and i know she has a crush on me. In front of everyone she blew me a kiss and I accidentally blew one back. It happened without me even consciously deciding to do it.
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Update:
Noticed everyone treating me like a VIP after I came back from my lunch break. Stares from women continued. One in particular I found very sexy and when she was near me, I felt our auras interact, almost as if they were intertwining and I felt myself becoming energetically aroused by her presence. I can tell she’s attracted to but has to play it cool since she’s a supervisor. Tonight I had to play it cool too with all the attention I was getting. I usually don’t let myself get too aroused at work but I was tempted to bed every woman attracted. Doesn’t help that they’re all beautiful.
A coworker I trained with who I thought had a crush for me that was fading, seems to be more strongly attracted than ever. Calls were slow (and once again I was one of the only agents that sold), so she kept coming to my desk, touching me in various places (above the belt lol), joking and playing around with me, playing with my dreadlocks, messaging my shoulders, outright leaned on me in front of a supervisor twice, and even asking more personal questions than usual.
One way I can always tell a woman is comfortable in my presence is through constant physical contact and playfulness, also trying to find out things about me so basically she showed very strong signs of attraction tonight. She’s shown some signs before but damn it was blatant tonight, almost short of sexual.
I’m at home now and noticing my daughter clinging to me heavily too, more than usual. I wonder if the aura(s) I’m generating have a powerful pull on females on general somehow.
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2nd update; this is weird, my daughter literally won’t let go of me 
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Hmm, you sure you still want to drop Emperor? 
Lol it’s like it boosted whatever attractive properties the mogul aura was already showing. Maybe I just need a program that’ll balance it out 
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Not sure what it was but I drew a massive amount of attention today. Gonna try and out it all in order since today is moving fast as hell:
*ppl in general literally gawking at me, like I’m the only thing on the planet to look at, even if I’m over 50 ft away from them.
*Extreme respect from everyone I interacted with.
*Women giving me bedroom eyes likes there’s no tomorrow.
*Im finding myself lusting after women way more, wanting to dominate them in bed and hear them moan loudly while I do it.
*while Inside of a particular building today, the stares from ppl got so ridiculous that no matter which way I turned, I caught ppl staring at me…hard.
*im noticing more and more with this stack, that Im drawing the attention of females with status. A female manager for a cruise ship port here in South Florida; Every time we locked eyes, looked like she was getting lost in my gaze.
We discussed zodiac signs for some reason and she mentioned that Virgos (her sign) are the type to tell you what to do because they sometimes see which option would be best to take, but they don’t always tell you why. I told her if I’m going to do something I have to know the reason. I don’t just take orders from anyone without question. She then responded “I can tell you what to do”…I gave her that “excuse me?” Look. She then hurried up and added “well I mean I would just want to look out for you” a bit nervously. Told her I can be a rebel without a cause for the hell of it, she smiled.
A few moments before our convo ended she said I should come work with her. She asked my name and she joked stating it sounded like an alias that I use to hide my real identity (I can tell she thought I was just playing hard-to-get). She also thought I was lying when I told her that I have no social media accounts. She was sure to tell me what days and times the port is doing open interviews this week (she really wants to see me again lol).
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Thats seems like you are executing GLM perfectly or are you still running Emperor?
Sure I still have some emperor effects here but GLM is sharing the stage just fine. I’m exhibiting positive masculine behavior and with a sense of strength too
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What is positive masculine behavior?
Leadership and dominance without unnecessary aggression. Assertiveness, greater self discipline and resilience , a more logical mindset and acting more out of the greater good as opposed to just acting out of one’s own self interest, which now that I think about it, I forgot that I actually did just that earlier today.
I easily could’ve made a move that may have cost several ppl their jobs but since I reframed it as a small issue and not that big a deal long-term, I decided to play it cool and keep others from potentially losing their jobs and falling into financial hardship.
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. . . and don’t forget the art of being a gentleman. Because it truly is an artform that never loses its luster and can be expressed in so many wonderful ways and the world is all the better for it. . . . not to mention we females as well. #thepatriarchyisblessedwithwisdom
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Although it is a positive masculine behavior I don’t consider myself a gentleman anymore and haven’t for quite sometime, although I have some women refer to me as such occasionally.
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I find myself being far more organized and effortlessly so. I’m planning and executing and sometimes even staying ahead of myself in a sense. Sometimes I do so much at once that I forget certain tasks I did, only to come back and find out they’re already done.
I can also tell that a tremendous amount of inner clearing has been done. I’m curious to try regeneration ZP someday but right now it feels like it won’t be needed for quite some time.
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Today I made the highest dollar amount sale that I have gotten since starting my sales job. Honestly looks like most ppl in my training class broke personal records in one way or another today, including a guy who I began encouraging back when I first started rich ZP.
Kept telling him all these weeks that it’s probably just gonna take time for the sales process and technique to click for him, and today he was in the top 3 for most sales made in our group. Felt good to see him win after so much struggling.
Today when ppl interacted with me, there was much smiling and laughter, like being in my presence lit their mood up.
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What’s your current stack? It’s changed around a bit and just wanted to reclarify
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