Yazooneh: Rising striking phenom

[Yazooneh]

Pretty cool, it’s been six days since I’ve begun my washout

Everything has gotten better since the start, I see monumental changes since touching new khan.

These days, so much is happening that I am always engaged, and I’ve never felt so confident and free being engaged and learning to engage life with true love for every moment.

Things that seemed cheesy now seem logical, and the old me seems more and more faulty, it was foolish for me ever to think I was close to finished. With new Khan, I conquered myself

Awesome manifestations every single day, my lord

Best programs ever, subclub is amazing

[Yazooneh]

I went to training today, it was my day off work and I was allowed to even do the fighter training

I will be scripting for my training as I plan to rejoin a gym full time soon after my dental work comes out

I’m so grateful to be improving so much every single day, I’m thankful that my skills shine with every single moment, mirroring my spongelike absorption of deep fight fundamentals and basics mastery. I love that I enjoy it so much, being so immersed in the art and having so much fun honing my already impressive and effective, unique arsenal and fight rating.

This above all is what I love! That I enjoyed training so much. That I am respected in my gym and the fight scene because I am truly good at rebuilding myself every single night. Thank you for opening my eyes to the true joy of combat.

[Yazooneh]

Still on washout, I gotten days off work and while I am 12 days into my washout; I notice the deep changes that have gone down within me

Khan black

• I feel as if I am miles above where I was before I began Khan black, these days; I do things that the old me never ever had the strength to come close to doing. Ignoring haters, being unmoved by things that seem bad on surface, forgiving my haters, actually using them….

Khan:

And with stage three of khan I, after a total of over three years on Khan on many different techs, can conclude that I see clearly now the very gift of this program; it’s the ability to literally muscle yourself out of any, even intensely visceral and real sensation of instability, back to a place of relief and peace.

My shifting custom is also working, everything is better

Hair is thicker; darker; has a “personality” now

Jawline is infinitely better now as my posture aligns fully

Body is stronger from the core.

Overall, there’s more relaxation in my skin and body, this program makes me adjust my body many times a day; involving releases here and there, using mainly massage from my fingers and sometimes very weird positions.

Bottom line: better mind body connection, lighter body, freer

I wonder why I got the urge to take a 20 day washout this time, a part of me remembers just how amazing my 1 month+ washout was at the start of this year.

I’m really really satisfied with my shifting custom. I feel as if I’m moving extremely quick, my body is aligning and fixing all the deep imbalances that I’ve racked up through my life, turning something that was tally’d as burden into something that’s a psychological ally.

I also do think that I have changed so deeply and immensely on Khan that it really helps to sit back and appreciate it; celebrate the wins here and there…. To really reflect on what an insane change I had gone through

Tooooodles

[Yazooneh]

Now about the shadow

I know a huge part of me loves to go back to being the old me, and to find flaws in everything around me

It’s funny because things are going great for me, yet I can’t shake off my ego when it comes and makes me wanna blame or hate on somebody, diverting my gaze from the profound changes happening inside me.

Yet, my ability to remain calm despite any storm grows by the day; and therefore so does my baseline in life, this makes me fearless.

The most amazing change I have ever felt with Khan (and this is the most recent great change inside me) is that I have a lot more trust for pace. I recall playing my favorite online games and, noticing that, across all my favorite games, the higher rated I was, the less “stupid things I did”

Essentially what makes me do stupid things is me trying to rush. When I usually become high rated in these games and have a better understanding, I would make others do things out of a rush, and I could capitalize. Why be the one rushing in? On paper it sounds good and bold but the one intercepting can take a few more good breaths than I.

How does this relate to my real life? Simply put, more trust in the pace. I love the pace that things are going for me, I even love that I listened to Muay Thai mastery in a QTKS custom for a year and didn’t have access to a Muay Thai gym and still binged Muay Thai and shadowboxed for ages.

And now, I’ve already done one fighter class in the gym I had my eyes set on.

Realistically speaking; every single downfall I feared only happened in my head…. I’ve constantly been supported through the character I built and maintain with Khan… so these days I make it so important to me to constantly remind myself that things happening, that give me a visceral and irresistible repulsion, are simply tests!! I could be in my prime right now, nothing is stopping me from just nailing a phase with positivity through and through, heck…. There’s no way to live if it weren’t FOR the act of positivity.

I’m grateful for subclub, these awesome programs, and my subclub familia

[Yazooneh]

After a 16 day washout, I returned to my third cycle of khan stage three and khan black stage four with my shifting custom

So far the long washout was super fruitful, I’ve hit yet another point of development and breakthrough in my life as I find these days myself consciously staying in center no matter what

People who would have tilted or imbalanced me formerly now do nothing, I actually enjoy the challenge of someone trying to move me and failing

It does make me super curious inside as to the the times I can’t help but and I feel it deeply and viscerally and instead of being mad like I used to I’d question it

Realistically on khan I am always a step away from being laid women love me I’m wanted at work and I’m vital for every environment… on top of that I’m super hot

For that I’ll pay a success tax of always being the one to question how and why I felt moved by a hater’s attempts to move me or even just the existence of someone

[Yazooneh]

Jesus Christ, almost done with my very last third cycle of khan stage three

It’s been a ride boys

I notice huge gigantic changes and one thing is for sure, I demand respect. I can’t seem to turn it off either, and I appreciate it deeply

I stand tall, I study people; and I always know how to provide them with good feelings and safety

It isn’t even from me, I am lucky to have enjoyed khan for so long that I naturally feel capable.

Also when it comes to women I am the least needy I have ever been. I seem to stand by something I have said once as a kid, but is that I don’t mind “missing out” on partying and interlacing with girls if it means I can fight for a cause, and this is what is happening for me now

On top of this all, my quality of life improves substantially

Mornings are easier
Being given challenges is effortlessly taken and made into a positive
I feel deeply protected by a greater force

I can say I’m truly happy, I’ve been at this for years, journaling with my partner the awesome things I love day to day and these days I dissect formerly long lost childhood memories I find important.

I realize a lot of the memoirs I hold as painful usually hold a great lesson, it took Herculean effort for me to reach a level where I care more for the lesson and less for the shitty feelings involved

My job is great too, I get to deeply contemplate life while I do my duty, I get to say thanks to this higher force, I also get to interact with a lot of people.

What I love about khan is that I don’t need to act so outgoing and that’s impressive

That I found a way to hold myself against the odds I have and still act super straight, nonchalant, and to speak with a deep and powerful voice

That’s really cool, that Khan guided me to do it so assuredly and so consistently

I seem to invoke a lot more tension and passive aggression even when I am smiling and being gentle, I get dirty looks that have become blatant and overt and I think it’s due to the aura and its power that khan brings out

Though I’ve countered this by being less openly gentle and letting others first make a move and invest their energy, looking at an unhappy girl; as a genuinely content man… and smiling at her just to feel better myself and hopefully get her to feel good, and then have her give me a dirty rejecting look doesn’t happen anymore, because I don’t second look strange women anymore.

I think this all plays into the giant web of development that is my sexuality; my sexual confidence, my sexual awareness and respect for reality.

Since I am accepting that only a small percentage of females on earth are actually special, just like a small percentage of men are special, things are easier…::: I have infinitely less tolerance for bullshit and usually even when someone hits a nerve with their attempts at insulting me, I’ve become very good at riding with it and using it to feel good.

Khan is a masterpiece
Thank you for this cool program and thank you bois for being with me on this journey of self improvement

[Jouissance]

@Yazooneh

Since I am accepting that only a small percentage of females on earth are actually special, just like a small percentage of men are special, things are easier…::

Profound

[Yazooneh]

Wow, khan stage three done… washout too

I have run my first looping khan stage four, after 9 months of former stages…

Stage one was grindy and gritty

Stage two was grounding and sweet

Stage three was masterful….

I have to say that this is the greatest stage three run of khan I’ve ever had, the amount of changes I went through as a man, as a person, as a fighter and thinker. The amount of challenge I was able to overcome, I wouldn’t have been able to ascend to such heights without these awesome programs

[Yazooneh]

I’m so content

So I got fired from work and I felt nothing but stability despite visceral pulls to feel bad, khan has done immense work on my spirit… taxes and paid time off and parents have supported me enough for me to decide I can take a month to settle in the gym, as long as I’m training Muay Thai i know I’ll be financially well off since I have learnt to express value… and training makes me valuable

I began my fourth cycle of my shifting custom and I feel a deep euphoria, one marked by years of work now…. And a year of khan around the corner for me I am so pleased with my results… the shadow work I have done and the amount of times I am able to unlearn a bad habit and replace it with a good one is pleasing to me more than happy with these subs and my life

[Yazooneh]

These days I notice the greatest khan results ever, where I feel as if I’m able to brush off with confidence things that were sure to irritate me before.

I also seem to accept that my thoughts can be bad

In other news, I’m in the yay Thai gym now enrolled and I’ve already made quite the show being there, being completely humble, taking a lot of pain the first day and keeping positive, and overall showing the dedication gyms thrive off

I also have completely immersed myself in my visualization abilities these days after one year of a Muay Thai mastery mind’s eye custom before. I am watching fights and really seeing what I could do, what things I am confident in compared to the competition today, the things I think they are neglecting the things I think i am neglecting etc. my attention to detail is universes above what it once was and has taken flight

[Yazooneh]

I am deep into my fourth cycle of my custom, and khan black stage four, and khan stage four

These days I feel a stronger urge to journal, I have always been lax about journaling and ever since I began my manifestation journey years ago after reading the book “the last law of attraction book you’ll ever need to read”

This is mainly due to the fact that I had replaced every default reaction to my environment and reality with more “positive” emotions. If you’re wondering how confident I am in their “positivity” then it is with the same principle the book taught, through gratitude

Though after many years of my manifesting practices I am now at my peak and I am so happy with my life that I need to begin to do my shadow work more constantly, as to maximize my gains

One thing I noticed; two different Arab shop workers gave me free drinks (refused to take compensation after I walked in and greeted them with the Arabic hi) since Arabs mostly work at and own groceries in California.

These days I feel always an airy feeling of uncertainty, that I can only describe to be Khan testing my resolve. I feel a strong urge to do things others don’t feel like doing. The dirty work. When I do the dirty work it always feels scary.

Admitting my humanity and fragility is now more important than ever because I have never felt I had this much power before. Infront of me stands the road I paved since I was born where my enemies are subdued, the ones inside me in the form of contradictory thoughts.

Alignment should be a harmony with what is produced by my biological body, the flow. If someone comes out of my flow and I end up slapping my own wrist because, let’s say, someone who has inherited power structures loses their cool and decides to punish me for whatever came out of my flow (allegedly being bad for the environment aka “their flow”) then I’m not aligned

When I wake every day I know that I am optimized for the highest good, this is because that’s my purpose … going forward with my actions regardless of how it feels and at the very least not regretting what comes out of me is the highest form of self love there can be

I still cannot shake off how intense this program is, I recall the sheer amount of days I went to the gym, and how without fail the days were grueling when I really went with my heart. And how each day brought me back stronger to do the weights I so struggled to do last time, this time, easily.

It’s important to note I have been raised to loathe myself, this is it hyper specific and personal hell, and that asking constantly how to be nicer, more accepted, is not the way I want to be. As someone who loathed my gender and my being, I should be someone who chooses myself over others, first. This is my love language. And as long as I can do it I am brave.

[Yazooneh]

I’ve been back to training so I’m turning this into a training journal

Never stay infront of your opponent: we practice hitting the bag constantly, and it’s infront of us, by moving constantly and stepping into off angles slightly on my opponent, I add a very annoying element for him to deal with

Feints: mastering my personal feint for every strike is tantamount, feinting should inhabit 40-60% of my striking

Fluid observation: through practice and sparring over long extended periods of time I can learn to better and more quickly adapt a plan for whatever reactions my opponents does to my feints and angle switches

Head off center line: keep it off the center line when he wants it there, keep it on center line when he can’t punish it or capitalize.

In and out: I spend the majority of my time out of range for combinations and strikes, I enter on my own terms when I’m ready and when I feel his balance can be breached. When he enters I am always ready to punish him for his choice to come in.

[Yazooneh]

These days I think and ponder so deeply about fighting, how simple it is to study oneself honestly and create a list of attributes based on all strengths and weaknesses in my stance

Today’s training will be good, I’ll work on all my basics and attempt to add everything in to my bag work

Angles
Crisp movement
Feints
Defense (diverse)
Eyes and positioning

I’ll do my best to focus on nuance like staying out of my opponents’s center line, and getting my head off the center line when I am in a position to be countered

[Yazooneh]

Didn’t wanna go to training but I did, overslept and grabbed a can of espresso and my bag and made it.

I feel good with my level of observation rn in the sport, I ask a lot of people I believe may have a competitive edge (due to their love for martial arts) who their favorite fighters are and what they like about them, this has been giving me perspective as you can always see how every fighter imitates another, kinda like how Eminem is clearly influenced by Tupac

My boxing is crisper, I enter states of mind where I remember the importance of always bringing my hands back through the most efficient trajectory to defend from counters. And therefore, I’m more consistent. After I get tired on the bag today I worked a lot of front kicks and jabs in order to keep my opponent guessing and to distance them from me.

I sharpened my weapons well today and my balance is getting better, I seem to follow up my kicks with sweeps, more kicks (yolo) or angle changes, or at the very least, finishing off a kick and then keeping my leg chambered and ready to teep the eager countering opponent

All in all, I am enjoying this process as u can’t help but feel like I’m playing my favorite online game and theory crafting to try and get as many edges as possible over my opponents.

My right leg feels a lot better, I feel infinitely more solid moving in every way with my balance on my right leg and I feel enabled more by the day to explore technique and movement fluidly, the testament to that is a few days ago I threw naked kicks where these days on the bag I like to follow up kicks with something else, simulating an actual fight where my opponent probably isn’t trying to let me get away with no single ass kicks

[Yazooneh]

Today’s training was good, I felt so tired during boxing sparring and my partners were no slouches, I worked and worked, making sure to keep my opponent occupied with one thing or the next every round. I liked my adaptations today, noticing when something is not working or when I have spammed something too much and forcing myself to switch up my attack attitudes. I feel a lot more confident with my eyes these days, as if I am always looking and noticing things yet sometimes I’ll notice my opponent look away for a moment which I can capitalize on. There were some moments I was caught off guard and looked away as I got hit yet I made sure to be vigilant and always correct myself asap

I then worked the back and I feel tremendous evolution in my skill and cardio

[Yazooneh]

Washout begins now, I took today off training and watched one fc Muay Thai fights in super slow mo, things I noticed:

• fighters tend to get lazy after a knockdown with their fundamentals, I’ll notice them have great eyesight and keep their head level to see everything and after they knock down their opponent they start swinging shots where they blatantly end up looking at the ground or to the side when throwing haymakers trying to end the fight

Even see this in championship fights

These days in sparring I’m noticing what it takes to be a GOAT, keeping the details sharp and important, keeping the eyes open, and imagining that every round is a fight and to be honest with my work ethic

My hands are a lot better now as I did some drills today focusing on my hands coming back to defend me after throwing punches

Tomorrow in training will spar and I will really show why I’m the best (I learn the quickest and I’m the most prepared)

• hands up by head the whole time

• hands back quickly

• stepping off to the side after a 1-2 instead of going straight back

• long arm work…. Framing, blinding my opponent with my hands, giving them things to distract them (my hand hovering in circles infront of their face)

• feinting before every commitment and combination

• head off center line with most strikes that can be countered

• head off center line when pivoting

• annoying my opponent by moving away from their power side and not staying in their center line for more than 5 seconds
  And finally

• setting the pace and rhythm

This is my checklist for the next session

[Yazooneh]

Can’t really complain these days after years of Muay Thai mastery customs I am here training and absolutely in a good euphoric obsession with combat sports.

I feel as if I’ve entered the stage where I can be creative. I know the fundamental concepts and I have a great and powerful thirst to train and train. While I train I have no real desire to prove anything to anyone apart from my hunger for knowledge in this field, I am excited and feel extremely privileged to even be in this field, to have once felt it a vast jungle I could barely begin to understand to now being able to discern what is valuable and what isn’t, and know the sport like a musician knows notes: with a wonder in all the cool potential of expression of these notes in the form of a fighter’s rhythm, movement patterns, and how they express their unique brain chemistry in the ring for the purpose of outsmarting and defeating their opponent

Khan stage four wisdom has definitely gotten to me at the cellular level. I shed a lot of my past and cement my confidence more in the statement I know is true: my life has been easy…. Even in the hardest times I was given a bed to sleep on and at the very least meals and a bathroom to sustain me while I complained my life away. Knowing this more and more is my great shield in my journey.

All in all I’ve never been happier. Last cycle had some very challenging moments and I came out infinitely better, I am grateful to be the very type of guy most people talk about but can’t be, one who is always doing hard work, inner work, conquering his unique perspective to perhaps get a glimpse of god.

[Yazooneh]

Another day another training, tons of clinch sparring and technique. My flow is getting good very quick, I remind myself constantly of concepts I should use as an anchor in my martial arts, distraction, movement, aiming at weak links etc

I met Arabs in training too which was cool because I’ve been visualizing a lot lately talking to Arabs so it’s refreshing I meet them in my favorite place, the gym

[Yazooneh]

Today was a great day, I woke up once again reconned and my ability to accept that it’s just how things are when my brain is slow and processing gave me the ease to be o on. Khan as a program is very good to me…: the wisdom and intuition in stage four is shining bright

I’ve been better about my nutrition for the first time in like 14+ years. I’ve been drinking water like it’s my job, and eating protein like I have to as opposed to my lax attitude and it’s paying off greatly as it’s not a slight increase but a proper attention

I’m on washout now too. So I’ll be resuming khan and khan black and my shifting custom next cycle

Today’s training was good too, I am feeling a deepening and more joyful obsession with training and fighting akin to my days doing things I felt were carefree passions and hobbies and I love it. I’ve also been getting off my ass lately and getting back to a working mindset as my cv flies out. The pace is great and I feel at great ease these days in my day to day.

[Yazooneh]

I feel such huge and drastic changes in my body lately with huge thanks to the shifting custom and khan stage four

It IS amazing how your entire body, face, spine, changes when you change your mindset and kill old, rigid and limiting structures… years ago the concept of shifting a lot was alien and weird yet with these shifting programs I see it clearer than day how possible it is to shift, if I can change my mind at the same rate as a kid, I can definitely shift in as profound and deep ways…. Thank god for this journal and also for @Spartan and @Tobyone and @aaa for giving me those likes here and there