Here’s my 2 cents.
Try one. I think Ascension Lite is still around. Not sure, but if it is, then you get a free opportunity to give the subliminal a test run.
If not… well… I could think of worse ways to waste $40. (not saying it is a waste, but to fit your current mindset, if it was a waste to be fair it’s just 40 bucks. Compared to a certain someone who prices their subliminals in the 100s…)
Run the subliminal for a few months.
If you feel like you’re being turned into a mindslave who’s self destructive and wears illumidonkey t-shirts and 2001 emo makeup, by all means drop the subliminal. You have proven to yourself subclub spend hours writing scripts to make you… wear illumidonkey t-shirts and 2001 emo makeup.
But. If you get positive changes (there might be some negative things like having to deal with old emotional baggage, but since it’s emotional baggage you’ve already had you know it’s not being installed into you) then you have proven subclub does NOT have an obsession with turning people into 2001 conspiracy theorists.
In other words test it.
If you feel it’s not for you, drop the subliminal and don’t touch them again. You don’t need subliminals for personal growth, not by a mile. They’re extremely useful aids but you can absolutely advance in life without them. When I first started I was actually quite scared of subliminals because hey- damn right I want to know what’s being put in my head.
But if bad things are being put in your head you’ll likely notice it before they solidify. I’m not here to spread the “spooky stories on the web” as I think one thread was called way back, but there have been subliminal producers who have done bad things with their subs but since people felt the effects, they stopped using the producers subs and eventually they were exposed. If enough people listen to one sub, and enough of them experience things that imply there’s negative affirmations, and that producer has a forum or other public communication line, you best bet there will be hell raised. One person says “I experience XYZ, did anyone else?” “omg me too wtf??” “this is kinda scary…” and before you know it everyone has realized they all have the same issue and they all demand answers from the producer. Simple as that really.
If subclub was in that boat I think they would’ve been ganged up on by the community a long time ago. As you can see that’s not the case.
Hope this sort of “realist” mindset helps you out. You’re not screwed if there’s any negative affirmations. Just stop using it, don’t entertain them, and they’ll fizzle out. From my own experience, aside from dealing with old patterns and wounds, I’ve never felt anything negative.
Good luck on your journey.