EE 44s WB 15s
Now that the hype has died down, I’m now clear about my view on HeroTLTB:
It doesn’t have as much virtue scripting as HeO.
What’s the point?
I fell in love with HeO specifically because of that aspect of the sub.
I thought it was the logical next step, but the more I think about it, the more sticking with HeO makes more sense in my case.
Oh I didn’t see this.
Well, there goes my reason to get a custom again, lol.
HeO + EE, DRR4 + WB, and maybe UA + RICH.
UA & RICH are not as important, so it’s not as much of a juggle as what I’m trying to do right now with EE + WB + DRR. I can run it less often without sacrificing HeO & EE too much.
I’ll need to wait for WB to be updated first at least. I want to get at least one sub with adaptive scripting in my stack. I also need to confirm that I want DRR4 instead of DRR3. DRR4 is more holistic, but I love DRR3’s focus on transcending suffering.
EE is pretty up to date, HeO wasn’t mentioned for an update any soon.
So you’re good to buy your first twincore NE 
I almost pulled the trigger on this one just now.
But I remembered my last run of HeO + WB months ago, it was too kitchensinky.
So either way, I gotta wait for WB’s adaptive scripting first, then hope for the best while spamming microloops even more aggressively than the last time.
I thought more about this.
If UA comes first before WB, I’ll do UA + EE instead. HeO can be the sacrificial third sub.
I’ve used that sub for god knows how long anyway, it’s not as necessary to have it as prominently in the stack. Though it would be very nice.
EE 44s WB 18s
Oh I was supposed to listen to EE for 43s last listening day.
Oops.
This is the 29th listening day, the next one I’m gonna temporarily spike EE to 15m and WB to 30s before the washout. I hope that is gonna go well. EE is obviously fine, but I hope almost 8 months straight of microlooping WB will allow me to go through it.
Maybe because there’s no HeO or DRR currently, I become aware that the “safe environment” I get from those when there’s a chance to progress isn’t just a safe situation, it’s also my ability to reframe the situation in my head from uncertainty towards safety.
This is very strong. This felt so normal before, but now that I’m taking a longer break from DRR, I’m getting more clarity about what it was doing.
EE 15m WB 30s
Last day of the cycle.
Honestly, it feels much lighter without DRR in the stack.
I wonder if taking DRR less often is better in my case. I’ve been using it for 1y7m after all.
At this point I feel maintaining the effects is enough than a more active approach.
Once a week on top of my stack should do the trick.
I’ll stop microlooping EE so slowly now that the stack is lighter without DRR.
I’m amazed at how much I can just detach from a feeling.
There’s no point in wishing for a better state or in avoiding another.
There’s “no” feeling, no “cause” of it, no “end” to it, and no way to end it.
There’s nothing to understand, nothing to reach, nothing that hasn’t been reached.
By accepting this, I’m able to just observe as they come & go, which is all that matters.
DRR3 is fucking insane. I love it.
I revisited one of the chains that has been holding me back from the back of my mind.
And I found… relief.
Holy shit when the fuck did I process this?
DRR man. 1y7m well spent.
Woah? A year 7 on DRR?
yep, 7 months on both DRR1 & 2 in the span of a year (I stacked them together for some time), 7 months on DRR3, and a few weeks on DRR4.
I saw a question about how much HeO gives mental clarity & stillness.
I genuinely forgot how I was back then before I used the sub, lol.
It doesn’t help that WB & DRR are building on top of what HeO has built.
Sometimes I feel so stale when talking with women, but it ended up working out either way.
Even with that, they looked like/straight up told me that they had a great time. They usually become the ones who try to make it work, even if they have to go through me being a dried brick.
When WB said you don’t have to put on spectacles and you just need to be yourself, it ain’t fucking kidding. You can be robotic, flat, cringy, or whatever the fuck and it will still work. Just be yourself and enjoy the show.
Or it could be pretty priviledge, lol.
Who knows, but either way, it’s also one of WB’s effects.
I decided to take 7 rest days at the end of a cycle instead of just 5.
Taking the bare minimum is an unnecessary risk with the 2 month schedule.
This is day 6 of my washout, i still feel the effects as strongly as usual, even WB.
EE 1m WB 19s DRR4 8s
Tiredness is just a feeling. Therefore I can treat it as such.
Is this true? Idk. But it’s the most useful view I can take about it.
Let it come, let it be, let it go.
Just observe.
This helps me ease the fight against tiredness even more.
Because there’s "nothing’ to fight, “nothing” to overcome, no way to overcome it.
By accepting this, I can lessen the internal mental battle and just do it.
EE 3m WB 20s
EE straight to 3.
I hope there won’t be recon.
No DRR4.
I think I haven’t said this before.
HeO + WB used to be viable for me, because WB had spotty results back then.
Now with microloops, WB has become incredibly consistent, that makes running them both feel more kitchensink-y than it was back then.
The next cycle will be the scheduled long break from WB, I can put some sneaky HeO there.
Update 1:
Note to self: Using EE right before bed time was NOT a good idea, rofl.
Update 2:
Should I take a break from WB and sneak in HeO now?
I thought we’d get WB 2 months ago, but it’s still being perfected in da SC factory 
If it’s not gonna come out soon, why don’t I use HeO this cycle?
It’s better to sacrifice the current version of WB than the updated one later.
But
I’ve tasted the sweet WB nectar, I just can’t stop licking it.
The results are THAT good.
And to be honest, I’m not sure I can maintain the effects without the sub yet.
No, I’m just afraid I couldn’t. The thought of having the source of honey drying up is enough to make me not want to stop clinging to it.
My stack will have 0 social sub without WB.
HeO is as internal as a sub can get, DRR is mostly internal, EE is too.
I’ll be rawdogging my social life for the first time after using WB for 8 months straight.
With the amount of changes i’ve been having, this will be a new uncharted territory.
To be honest, it’s kinda scary.
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Now that I’ve written that down, I’ve got a better view of the situation.
It’s ridiculous. 8 months of WB, it’s obviously at a point beyond “will the changes stay?”.
Of course it will, what’s talking was not my rational mind, it was my inner anxiety.
The best move now is to take the break and use HeO before WB is updated.
It’s time for hachi to leave the nest and to lock in.
Time to be a busy bee.
Buzz buzz.
HeO is in, WB is out.
For 1-2 cycles, depending on when WB is updated.
It’s HeO, I’ve used it for more than a year total.
So I won’t do the usual +1s/listening day. I’ll do +3s instead.
Super fast but it’s HeO anyway.
EE 15s HeO 3s
HeO is in, starting from 3s.
It might not be the best idea to push through with EE when I have a new sub in the stack, so I’ll do a quick reset for it. next listening day will be 30s, then 1m, 2m, 3m, 7m and as on.
After 8 months straight of microlooping WB for 2-20s.
I can tell,
Without a single doubt,
That the cologne scripting is on the later part of the sub, lol.
It was the funniest, most absurd manifestations i got from WB when i was running longer loops years ago.
Now i went for 8 months without any notable cologne manifestation. That means there’s a high chance that the scripting is located later down the stream, or my conscious guidance made me not get any more.
This is fascinating.
Mine is closer to being a healer than the opposite.
If the negative energy is not directed at me, then I can take as much as possible. I seem to have the knack to process whatever emotion people throw at me and be neutral afterwards. I love exploring the deeper side of people and my ability to not be affected as much after it is crucial.
I’m not that good at firing back though. I can, it’s an important life skill after all. But seeing other people do it, there’s no doubt that I’m not as good at it.
Now that I’ve written it down, it kinda makes sense why I struggled with DRR2 even though 1 & 3 were a breeze. This is the most apparent result from DRR2.
EE 30s HeO 6s
DRR2 kind of recon. The deeper I look, the more it seems like it.
It was a good choice to lower the frequency of DRR4 significantly.
Update 1:
Oh i forgot about swords.
I felt there was something missing, there is.
It’s not HeO without the sword.
The break from DRR might have been too long.
I’m starting to see the decay in results.
I’ll stick with the plan, once every 4 listening days this cycle, then 3 next, then customs/nm embdd.
But i’ll start using the 15s 30s 1m etc instead.
The last was 8s.
15s tomorrow.
Letting go of WB was the right move.
Not because of the sub itself, but the decision made me realise of how attached I’ve been with the life.
I’m not gonna deliberately reject the life. I’ve just become simply aware that it’s not “my” problem, it’s my “body’s” problem. If the body wants it, then good, let it have it. I’m simply witnessing the show.
Not sure if “body” is the right word, nor if the paragraph makes any sense, but whatever it’s close enough.