First Insane Insight
Okay, been a few hours since waking, still feel fine, normally recon takes about 12 hours to set in on a normal listening day when I listen in the morning, but we’re in uncharted territory.
I was standing on my balcony smoking, and I realized that it’s time for me to move past Khan ST1, because my subconscious is too irritated to continue and it’s starved for data to move me forward. I’ve been getting to the stage of frustration on Khan, constant social testing from my GF, and irritation at my current position in life, and have felt a distinct lack of ability to move forward, despite near constant effort.
Khan ST1 has been amazing, for what it’s worth, however, I’ve been really feeling it’s limitations. It’s a straight healing title. It’s not designed to bring about big changes and manifestations, it’s designed to help you stop being a coward and holding yourself back from being who you want to be and living the life you want to live.
When I looked over the subs that I had unwittingly listened too, they actually have pretty major goal overlap with Khan ST2. All the alpha and wealth stuff with Khan, sleep from paragon, manifestation from Mind’s Eye, social intelligence from Limitless, emotional regulation from Emperor, Limitless, and Mind’s Eye.
Which led me to the strange insight that my subconscious caused this event to happen because it needed information to move me forward. Since I was stubborn in my resolution to finish this final cycle of Khan ST1, it appears that my subconscious caused me to listen to all of those programs in order to get at least some of the information that it needed to move forward.
Sounds strange, but it feels accurate. It’s also such a strange event. In 2.5 years, I’ve never made this mistake before, I’ve always been very cautious, even in my reckless experiments, I’ve always maintained caution.
I also realized that I might have a sales job waiting in the wings for me. I’d completely forgotten about it, but thanks to a little family love, I actually have had an offer waiting for around 6 months, I just never took it because I didn’t wanna do sales.
I didn’t wanna do sales because I was a pissy cry-baby that thought sales was “bad” even though, low key, I’ve spent my entire journey here as a salesman? What is seduction, if not selling another on yourself as a prize? How can seduction be good if sales is somehow bad? Bingo, we call that cognitive dissonance!
So, I will make a move to follow up and see if the offer is still warm, something tells me it is. If it’s not, so be it. There is some quote in my mind about playing with ideas until a better one comes about, so I’ll play with this idea for now. Who knows, I might get something even better out of it.
Okay, going to shower and get to work, then I’ll try and patch things up with my girl, we got into a pretty big fight about values and respect last night. Honor bound to at least make an effort.
