Day 4 in to my 5 days off (processing days) before I start my next cycle.
Still not seeing anything from R.I.C.H name embedded. Maybe I messed up by trying to run that alongside an attraction custom, or maybe because I’m running a brand new custom at the same time as a new (to me) major title. Maybe it’s a lot to process, initially. I’m not writing it off just yet as I feel it is a case of mental overload.
Not sure what is going on with the custom. Its definitely working, for sure. But, I’ve completely switched off on the Polish bird at work, for absolutely no reason whatsoever. On a few occasions, she has come and stood right in front of me and just looked at me with a half smile, like she wanted to say something, but I couldn’t find the words. Or she knows what she wants to say but feels uneasy saying it. Again, making a physical contact when passing by in a playful manner. Then coming over for a chat at the end of the day, after realising I’m not going to come over and initiate conversation with her.
I’m working with girl number 2 (married 25 y/o English girl) on a project that we’ll be doing for the next couple of weeks. I had a her in tears of laughter on a couple of occasions yesterday. I’ve seen Polish girl looking over watching on a few occasions.
Maybe it is part of the Wanted Black archetype, flirty and entertaining one week then very distant, out of reach the next week. I noticed myself doing this with girl number 3 a couple of months back, with Polish girl being the one I was giving the attention and girl number 3 being cast aside and become invisible to me.
I’m wondering if the Physical shifting from WB is taking effect again from the name embedding. My girlfriend, this evening commented how my arms are looking even bigger and more toned and same for my chest. I’m the strongest I’ve ever been at the moment. I very, very nearly benched 175kg (385lbs) for a new PR on the flat bench press. Yet my previous personal best of 170kg went up so easily as i went up through the weights warming up. 180kg is my goal for the end of the year, but now it’s looking like I’ll get it before summer. I used to train alone, but now I train with my son, we’re both able to train to failure by having each other there as a spotter, so maybe the strength gains are from that.
Still constantly getting a lot of stares and people watching what I’m doing, from both genders at the gym.
I’ll see what tomorrow brings regarding my sudden distancing to the girl at work. It’s not something that I’m consciously doing, which I find very strange. It’s like something has taken over my emotions, but I’m not complaining. The results speak for themselves, so I’ll just trust the process.