Something weird happened when i was doing qi gong.
I was in the middle of the exercise when something got me pissed off.
As usual, i just let it come, let it be, and let it go.
Just observe without trying to avoid the feeling.
But unlike the usual, the feeling didn’t come off.
It just lingered there for more than an hour.
That was strange.
I rarely ever had an anger with that intensity stay for that long over some minor inconvenience.
Idk what that was, and i can’t say it’s linked to qi gong or not. But damn that was weird.
Update 1:
Meditation fixed it. Well, at least now I’m aware of the deeper mechanics behind the emotion.
The pulses to feel angry kept firing, and a subtle part of me kept latching onto them.
Now that I know that, I just need to be aware and stop latching onto the pulses.
I can’t do shit about the pulses though, the best I can do is just observe.
It’s annoying, but I’m not gonna lie, it’s exciting to discover this side of me.
I still can’t figure out why these anger pulses keep coming, but time will take care of it anyway.
Maybe this is a cue to get deeper into qigong.
I have been too comfortable doing the same thing every day with it anyway.
It’s gonna have to fight for the time with my sword training though, but I’ll find a way.
Update 2:
Qigong problem requires qigong solution
An idea suddenly came, “why don’t i try one of those qigong anger release videos?”
And it did do the job.
Not completely, but the pulses have calmed down a lot since i did it.
I can’t confirm anything with just this, but now i have a tool that i can experiment with whenever i feel angry. I doubt the anger pulses & tension will ever stay for more than 6 hours like it did now, but the data will still be useful.