I just gained more clarity about the changes HeO brought into my life.
I watched videos about stoicism, after not listening to any for a long time.
And i finally realized just how much what i think now as “normal” or “is just me” is actually hugely influenced by HeO.
It has become so normal that i wasn’t even aware that these are from HeO.
“It’s just me.”
“It’s a part of me.”
Lately I’ve been thinking that the increased feeling of insatisfaction i feel is simply a part of DRR’s healing or its way of motivating me.
But now that i think more about it, there’s a higher chance that it’s from the stoic effects from HeO fading out as the dynamic of my life slowly changing the way i think.
It’s very clear from the description of stoic teachings in the videos i watched that i’m already living that life. It’s already me. And the intensity was greater when i was actively using HeO.
I’m glad that i take a break from HeO, else i would still be unaware about how much it’s affecting me.
Contrast is important in finding out how a sub has affected you.
Half a year ago, I used to think “HeO is not giving me much anymore”.
No, it was working well. Too well.
The problem was I lacked contrast to use as an anchor point to see what HeO was doing.
Even journaling was not good enough to make me notice.
I’m also slowly noticing the effects that LBFH gave me.
But they are easier for me to spot since LBFH is further than HeO from my base point, my “normal self” before I used subs.
TL DR
If you think a sub is not doing anything anymore after using it for a long time, no. It’s working well. Often too well that you can’t tell the difference at all.