Viktor’s Victory Venture (LE + DRR)

Journals - Major Programs
#743

they didn’t feel that different when i listened to them.
when i accidentally listen to subs, i usually notice how different the feeling is within less than 2 minutes. the fastest was with mogul, i noticed that i accidentally listened to it only 10-20s after i played it. It came as “wait a minute, am i listening to mogul? this feels like mogul”. WB was second, i noticed that i accidentally listened to it only after 30s.

RM:UWX doesn’t feel that different compared to RM:V. It didn’t ring the bell in my head that tells me to check the title.

i think the only difference is RM:V feels a bit wider and fresher? a bit more freedom? that’s the best i can describe it, it’s hard to put into words. but the feeling is not that different overall.

RM:UWX feels a bit more like i’m in a home office. it’s not the best description, but it faintly feels like that.

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#746

Honestly, a bit, because of the 3.5 cores.

This should make up for it easily.
My custom is close to yours in total module count. There’s even one new core.
It’s also very streamlined towards my goal of a salesjob.
And so far, I ran my custom last for 6 minutes until my subconscious said stop.
I don’t notice recon as of yet. I don’t believe that my sleep issue is custom related.

So Godspeed for your custom.

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#749

My view on romance has changed ever since i had that dream while using WB.

How long was it? A month ago?

It was such a different feeling of romance. It showed me what’s possible. The dream wasn’t grand, it was pretty mundane. But the feeling hit differently. Just chilling doing daily stuff and laying around with someone i truly love from the bottom of my heart.

It was so far from WB’s harem objectives, but that kind of love is exactly what i want. I was surprised i got that while using WB. It opened me to the idea of serious romance.

#750

That’s something I’ve noticed in a few WB journals. People start WB, partly because they desire a harem, receive the healing that is necessary to be able to build a harem (namely the neediness) only to notice that they don’t even want a Harem anymore but a deep, meaningful relationship instead.

I think @Skadoosh explained it somewhere.

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#753

I’m getting more interested in using The Executive.

This whole journal is basically about me trying to get more productive in roundabout ways. Why don’t i just use the productivity sub?

I wrote about productivity more than anything in this journal. I complained a lot whenever a recon reduces my productivity. If increasing & maintaining stable productivity is what i want the most, Why don’t I focus my stack on productivity?

In a few cycles I’ll use HeO + LBFH + Limitless custom I wrote a few days ago. Then pair it with The Executive after i don’t feel much recon with the custom, and occasionally add DRLD to the stack too.

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#754

Cycle 16 day 12

HeO 9m DRLD 12m

I’m back on subs after the washout. this stack is now about full productivity.
HeO + RM:V + DRLD

I’ll stay with this stack until my productivity is fully back.

maybe I’ll get the HeO + LBFH + Limitless custom right after I’m done with DRLD. It looks like a good plan.

Update 1:

I just reread the description for DRLD.
Isn’t this the best match for the resilience & invincibility scripting from HeO?
Calculated risk scripting, negativity transmutation, NSE-like positive manifestation, etc.

Strangely i didn’t really notice the invincibility scripting that much when i first used them. I started HeO right after I had been using DRLD for 2 cycles, then i used HeO + DRLD for 2 cycles. The invincibility manifests in how i feel like whatever happens, I’m in a safe space and I’ll do just fine.

Maybe it’s something that developed over time like the patience scripting in HeO. I noticed that some effects go one level deeper after 4-6 cycles.
Maybe the effects came from NSE instead of HeO. Or perhaps both are causing it.

I felt more calm and collected right after i listened to the stack. let’s see how the day goes.

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#755

Cycle 16 day 13

Rest

After more introspection, I think I don’t need LBFH as much as i did a year ago. I have reached a good amount of healthy attachment. ~10 cycles of LBFH were enough to start the fire and show me what’s possible with love.

I can use more, but i can comfortably stop using LBFH. at least until i make the HeO + LBFH + Limitless custom in a few cycles from now.

LBFH taught me a lot. it’s the best & the most impactful sub I have ever used.

Productivity today is shit cause i feel sick today. it’s not sub related but i can’t measure the effect from DRLD yet because of it.

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#757

I did more introspection

I didn’t realize this at first, but i have become more open, honest, kind & forgiving to myself. just like how i am at the 4th cycle of LBFH. i can’t believe I’ve gotten this far even without LBFH actively in the stack.

It could be LBFH blooming or the effect of it becoming natural to me. if this stays even after a few months, that means i won’t need LBFH anymore in my stack. this is what i want.

I can’t believe i missed this. not journaling LBFH’s effects just because i felt there was nothing new was fucking stupid. no, there are a lot. there’s no point in stopping journaling about it. I would have noticed it way earlier if i didn’t stop journaling about LBFH.

maybe i can try LB in my planned custom instead of LBFH.

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#758

having fun with music

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#759

I’m gonna keep DRLD for 1 cycle only.

I want to cut back from 3 subs to 2. LBFH doesn’t feel as necessary anymore after ~10 cycles.
so next cycle I’ll only use HeO + RM:V.

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#760

the same effect i felt when i was using DRLD back then came back.

I’m much more confrontational now. i can’t say it’s good or bad, it’s just different.
this situation is normal with subs, they tend to hit broader than i expected.

this is also why sub switching is exhausting. they change your life deeply.
having different life changing effects every month gets tiring quickly.

dropping DRLD next cycle seems to be the right choice. i want to go back to only 2 subs and simplify more.

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#761

I’m more judgmental than usual, but unlike a year ago where i want to push it away, something inside is actively trying to accept it as a part of me.

i don’t mind the changes, i just like how I’m responding to them. I’m much more tolerant towards myself.

LBFH for 10 cycles & DRLD for 4-5 cycles, on top of the other subs, really helped me to accept who i am as a person.

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#762

A year ago, deep down there was always a subtle feeling of misery towards life. I just noticed that i don’t feel that anymore. Like something fundamentally me has changed

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#763

I wasn’t able to play around with my wooden sword for more than a week.

When I picked it up again today, i realised that i can swing it around really easily. As if everything is already muscle memory. I don’t need to put much effort into doing them.

Well, that’s a given. I have been practising the same movement over and over again for more than half a year ever since HeO was released. Of course the sub helped too.

I believe I have done the same movement more than 10,000 times. That’s the magic number that bruce lee said, rofl. So i’m kinda proud about that.

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#764

Cycle 16 day 22

RM:V 15m DRLD 2m AC 10s

I don’t feel the push to journal nor to care about the effects, I’m just in the zone.
Since i don’t use LBFH anymore, i don’t feel as much social push from it as before.

I’m fully focused.

I think this is almost the balance that i want. a bit of the effect from LBFH but not too much that i lose focus on my goals.

This makes me think about the custom that i plan to make. should i add LBFH, LB or Synergy: Venus Unveiled? i think I’m done with LBFH, but the custom is heavy with 3 cores + NWE and 9 synergy modules. If i use LB, there will be 2 new cores that i have never used before. that will be too heavy.

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#765

In Chinese, the number 10000 is used to mean ‘a whole hell of a lot’. I guess that’s how he was using it.

For example ‘The Ten-Thousand Things’ is a term that means ‘Everything in the world’. People just thought it was a big number.

But forget that. Congrats on your consistency and achievement!

(Also, my own version of this was less credible than yours. I wanted to achieve a 285 pound bench press after Robin Williams’ character in Good Will Hunting told young Will that that was his bench press amount.)

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#766

thank you!

285 is an impressive number, I’m rooting for you!

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#767

haha. Thanks man.

I’m not currently pursuing that. I was aiming for it about 10 years ago. Made it to 270 or so back then. But I kind of feel like it wouldn’t be healthy for me right now. Tendons have changed, and I can feel them doing things.

These days I shoot for ‘feels’ rather than for ‘numbers’.

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#768

that’s relatable, I’m also starting to feel my body changing in that direction as i grow older. but that’s one of the things that makes life interesting i guess

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#769

I feel lonely. this is a rare feeling ever since i started LBFH.
well, I’m not using LBFH anymore so i expected this to happen.

It’s not a bad feeling though, just a bit different and unsettling.

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