DRR1 15m RM:UWX 15m
This is the kind of creativity boost that i want.
LE is a bit too broad to be as useful for my needs.
RM products are just better in my case.
I wonder if is it because they have newer scripting than LE.
It’s not only useful for writing stories.
There are stuff i do that aren’t writing, but i still need to “craft a story”.
RM:UWX is just better.
Do you consider Emperor: The Executive?
Maybe.
I want to see first just how focused is it towards productivity after it got included in the emperor series.
What HeO gave me + DRR1’s effects are enough to cover emperor’s resilience.
LE will be productivity that’s based on limitless, that’s more interesting to me.
So I’ll most likely skip it and wait for LE.
But if it’s interesting enough, i might try it.
The name embed major is finally coming.
It’s perfect for DRR1.
I’m plenty satisfied with the current DRR1 as is.
I want to make a custom out of it, but I’m afraid it’s gonna affect its performance.
That’s why i wanted to stick with it first before making it a custom.
The name embed solves both problems.
My desire for as little modification to the sub as possible & making DRR1 stronger.
I’ll stick with the normal DRR1 first, then when i feel like i want more, i’ll either make the upgrade or go straight to building a custom. Depending on the how the situation develops.
4-5 months / 4-6 cycles.
After looking back at the patterns I see in my journal, this might be the sweet spot of how long to use a sub before taking a break for a cycle/a month. At least for me.
While there’s a value in using a title continuously, there’s also a value in taking a break to clarify the changes the sub has brought. That’s what I found mainly after using HeO for 12 cycles straight.
1 common thing that I found:
When a sub reaches 4-5 cycles continuously, there’s a good chance the sub will uncover a new depth.
That was the case for me with LBFH (4 cycles), DRR1 (4 months), HeO (6 cycles) etc.
This is the golden opportunity.
But if I use the sub even longer, more than 6-7 cycles, the changes will feel so natural that I can’t distinguish what is brought by the sub and what is my natural state of being without it.
Which is good, but it makes me too pampered by the sub. I prefer to have both the “automatic guidance” from subs and the personal agency to temper myself independently.
This is hard to do when the clarity is gone.
This became very clear after I stopped HeO. I leaned too much on “it will just pop out in my head” without actively cultivating them inside on my own. Of course, many I cultivate actively, but HeO also brought many things that are hard to keep up without the sub unless I consciously try to cultivate them by myself. Everything being too natural makes it hard to know what I should still consciously grow and what is already a long lasting change.
If seen from that perspective, the changes I received from LBFH feel more natural.
I used it just as long as HeO in total, but I didn’t use it continuously. This gave me the “pause” where I had the space to keep up & cultivate what I learned from LBFH independently without its help.
4-5 months, with 1-3 months of independent action to internalize its effects without the sub’s help.
That’s my theory of what’s the most optimal approach in my case.
This requires much heavy experimentation to confirm.
But I’m starting to see the pattern, vague as it is.
If I find that this is true, then having a break from a sub or a long washout altogether after a certain span of time, will not only be something that’s “nice to have”, but a straight up mandatory activity to gain the most out of subs.
A few weeks ago, I set out to try to live up to what HeO taught me back then, and i became aware of this quote from musashi:
“Think lightly of yourself and deeply of the world.”
1 thing i always say about HeO: it gives you extra resilience & motivation by making you realize that what you do is not just for you, but for a higher purpose.
I thought that’s just the indirect effect of the virtue scripting.
But it might actually be built into the sub.
I said back then that i would not run HeO again until i can live up to what it taught me by myself. I failed, then 2 months went by, and i attempted it again. This time i think i nailed it well enough. Not as good as when i was actively using the sub, but it’s passable.
With LE being put aside following the “4-5 month rule” i posted yesterday, the stack having only 2 light subs that give me no recon, and the condition in my life being conducive to use a 3 sub stack, I think i can finally use HeO again.
I swear to god the last time i used HeO was more than half a year ago.
But when i looked back at the history, i realized it has only been 4 months.
The changes between when i last used it until now is so huge that it felt really long that it skewed my perception of time.
I’ll use again HeO next month. I would love to use it now, but i swapped too many subs last month. I need to stabilize the stack first.
LE will be updated this spring. That’s really close.
I’ll run DRR1 + UWX + HeO until LE gets the update.
I think this is a good set of subs to rotate around.
Light, focused, no recon and I’ve used all of them for at least 4 months.
If 1 sub reaches 4-5 month, i’ll rotate it out for the other, let it rest for 1-2 month, then reintroduce it again while rotating out another sub that reaches 4-5 months.
I forgot where, but one of the founders have talked about 4 subs rotation before iinw, so i’m confident about this.
1 more month has passed with 11 on 4 off giving me 0 lingering overexposure symptom at all.
This is it.
This is the sweet spot.
Update 1:
I made a planner for the rotation
If I miraculously stick with this stack for 3 years without changing anything, this is what it’d look like.
What if I play a game where the character is using a sword?
Will HeO help with that?
It’s a funny idea, but worth the try for the giggles.
Idk if I have the time to play games though. Well, I’m gonna keep this idea on the back of my head.
If you want to try a game, I’d recommend**Kingdom Come: Deliverance".
As someone who trained historical swordfighting for a couple of years, I can tell you, it’s the most realistic game I’ve ever played.
I bought it, rofl.
I’ll play it sometime.
I might upgrade all 4 subs to the name embed format instead of making customs.
What i feel lacking in UWX, HeO, LE & DRR1 is social skill & a tad bit of wealth generation.
Other than that, everything is already there.
I can easily solve that with 4 extra modules.
HeO + Synergy: Primordial Aura
LE + Synergy: Tale of the Dragon / Rembrandt
DRR1 + Synergy: The Golden One
UWX + Rembrandt / UA + Synergy: Words Untold / RM:V + Synergy: Tale of the Dragon
The price is almost the same as just getting 2 customs, but i want to confirm the 4 months theory i wrote above.
The only problem now, none of those are updated yet besides DRR1.
That means paying for them again when the update comes.
I’m not that hungry for the social boost to do that.
I’ll wait until ZPU, since they said they’ll focus less on upgrading after that point.
Honestly i might never even touch the q store at all.
The store version is just that good, it’s more than good enough for my needs.
It’s a good thing also that my goals are narrow.
A custom would have been nice, but it will be just that, “nice to have”. The store majors deliver most of what i need.
And there’s that, another rambling about a plan that won’t see the light of day.
HeO + Synergy: Primordial Aura sounds cool though. HeO is all about cultivating what’s inside. The module modify it so it also shows outwardly. I might make this one to add a celebratory aspect to HeO, just like DRG4.
True social and executive are coming out soon, that’ll help.
Most likely, a module or two that is mined from true social will get launched as well.
So if you do end up liking the executive, I could see that being the name embed, alongside a module from TS
Tldr: train by moving slowly to realize what you do wrong when you move quickly.
This is the basic of building a good form in bodybuilding. Why didn’t I connect it with sword training? Is it the best approach for martial art? Idk, but it’s worth exploring.
From fencing to dancing this is true. Interestingly they are very closely related.
To even understand I sometimes watched videos on 10% speed and it was still hard.
For getting a feel for the move within your body it’s the same. Go slow, go pro.
There are so many nuances. Sometimes just moving your elbow an inch or turning your knee about 15° is the difference between making a move work or not.
Speaking of this. Even in playing piano I noticed that if I play it fast, it’s easy to make youristakes in a way that even you yourself can’t notice them anymore. But if you play slowly, you’ll definitely realize if you know what you’re doing or not.
So… I might or might not have started HeO earlier than I planned 
Well, it’s not like I’m being overwhelmed or overexposed in the first place, and everything follows the 12 day rule. But the plan to “stabilize the stack this month” is out of the window, rofl.
I’ll also reduce UWX’s exposure from 6 a month to only 4.
Honestly, the “manifestation to bring back things from my past” is getting annoying.
Not that I hate it, it’s just that I don’t understand why UWX manifested these things.
To make it easier to explain, the “nostalgia” manifestation is the same as the desc in this module.
Back then I used micro & short loops most of the time, so the effect was not as apparent.
But now I went straight to 15m. That was bound to increase the effect.
The manifestation was so strong that I couldn’t just look away.
Other than that, I got nothing bad from RM:UWX.
I was just annoyed about not knowing what to do with these manifestations.
So I thought, instead of microlooping, why don’t I just decrease the exposure frequency so I can give more to HeO & DRR1? I just need a slight push from RM:UWX anyway.
A while ago I wrote “HeO’s productivity is indirect”.
Scratch that, HeO felt so natural back then that I didn’t notice how direct it was until I used it again recently. It was just so smooth that I took it for granted and thought HeO was indirect.
Even daily meditation, frequent journaling, deep introspections etc did not help to make me aware.
This is why a break is important.
Running it straight for 12 cycles wasn’t the right move and I should have listened to my intuition back then to stop it for a month or more.
I accidentally listened to the exp RM:V instead of RM:UWX.
That’s 4 subs in a cycle. This is not gonna end well.
I’ll take a 5 day washout immediately.
This is another case of why I suggested the “voiced name of the title before the sub plays”.
Perhaps this is for the better?
Sometimes it turned out that way when I accidentally listened to a sub.
Update 1:
Fuck I’m overexposed.
Thankfully the symptom is not a lethargy one, just my head feeling dense.
It’s a good thing that I use 11 on 4 off. Even now it’s still not as bad as the gradual overexposure symptoms when I listen to subs for 21 days.
Update 2:
Now that I’ve been using HeO for a week, I’m gaining more clarity about what part of productivity I lost when I stopped it, how it’s different from LE, and how much more I can do when actively using HeO.
I think my instinct was the one making me click the wrong sub earlier.
I was pushing it aside, but I know I was starting to build up recon from the “nostalgia” stuff.
The recon could have built up more if I had played RM:UWX instead.
Compared to a built up accumulated recon, momentary overexposure is better.
Or maybe I’m just overly positive. Well, even if it is, it’s not bad.
I’m gonna go forward using RM:UWX with the assumption that it utilises my past as a tool to build stories.
I was puzzled by how it didn’t only change my mind, it also manifested various things from/related to my past.
It was weird since the whole thing feels disconnected from writing itself.
It was acting separately from the rest of the sub, they didn’t mingle at all.
Then i did an introspection just now.
I realized i was too perplexed on the spectacle of the discrepancy that i neglected the obvious: trying to use the past as an inspiration to write with.
Not just doing it in passing, but I gotta actively try to link both writing & my distant past.
I hope this hypothesis works.
I’ll still take it safe though. RM:UWX 4 times a month only.
I just realized I can’t use RM:UWX again until the next 12 days because of the accident.
That’s annoying, should I just buy RM:V?
Now that I think about it, RM:V stage 1 + Story Teller / Synergy: Tale of the Dragon would fit me better.
I’m gonna think more about this.
Update 1:
The manifestation from the experimental RM:V is starting already.
That was quick… I didn’t expect this since I didn’t plan to use the sub in the first place.
Idk how to feel about this.
Should I go deeper into RM:V or should I stick with RM:UWX?
Fuck it, I’m gonna get RM:V stage 1 + Synergy: Tale of the Dragon.
I did gain a lot from the exp RM:V, getting the actual product is the right thing to do regardless.
I’m not in a rush though, I’ll wait until the option to choose different masks comes.
I just realized that a different mask for every sub I use can mitigate listening to the wrong sub for 15m.
I should get a different mask for every single sub I use.
Name embed + 1 extra module + different masks to minimize the impact of accidental listening.
The ROI is just too much not to get.
Planning
I decided that I’ll get DRG1 for the name embedded major instead of DRR1.
I’m only attracted to the first stage anyway, so if i’m going to buy the sub, I might as well get only the first one.
But i’ll finish DRR1 for 9 months total first.
It’s following the “minimal of 6 to 9 cycles for more than short term changes” rule that i found worked well for me.
This is the 5-6th month. So around 6 cycles in total have passed.
I’ll stick with it for another 3-4 months just to make sure that i can squeeze everything from DRR1 first before switching to DRG1.
Originally i planned to use DRR1 for 2-4 years, but DRG1 is basically DRR1 with a different flavor anyway.
I’ll use DRG1 for 6 to 9 months total too (it’s in a 1 year span since i’ll take 1-2 months break from the sub every 4-5 months), then decide which one i like better for the remaining 2 years.
After that, maybe i’ll revisit DRR2 again. It depends on how much my priorities change in the future. But for now, The first stage is just too good for literally everything. Dropping it again like i did to “advance” to stage 2 just doesn’t line up with my goals and everything that i do.
I wonder if DRG1 is redundant since i already plan to use HeO long term alongside DRR1 too. I can’t find a satisfying answer for this, so the only thing i can do is to experiment with it myself.
So the plan:
Make name embedded RMV1 right after the other masks are released > Make LE after it’s updated > Make DRG1 in 3-4 months > Make HeO after it’s updated.
Sword training
I decided to learn & train the footwork for fencing.
It looks fun & fencing seems to be the one that has the most active footwork out of the other sword arts i’ve seen so far. It fits my goal to focus mostly on footwork this year.
So far i’ve just been following random youtube videos to familiarize myself more with it.
I’m not as interested in the sport aspect of fencing though, my end goal is to get deeper into HEMA.
Kenjutsu is also interesting, i started with it after all, but ZWEIHANDER.
Something weird happened when i was doing qi gong.
I was in the middle of the exercise when something got me pissed off.
As usual, i just let it come, let it be, and let it go.
Just observe without trying to avoid the feeling.
But unlike the usual, the feeling didn’t come off.
It just lingered there for more than an hour.
That was strange.
I rarely ever had an anger with that intensity stay for that long over some minor inconvenience.
Idk what that was, and i can’t say it’s linked to qi gong or not. But damn that was weird.
Update 1:
Meditation fixed it. Well, at least now I’m aware of the deeper mechanics behind the emotion.
The pulses to feel angry kept firing, and a subtle part of me kept latching onto them.
Now that I know that, I just need to be aware and stop latching onto the pulses.
I can’t do shit about the pulses though, the best I can do is just observe.
It’s annoying, but I’m not gonna lie, it’s exciting to discover this side of me.
I still can’t figure out why these anger pulses keep coming, but time will take care of it anyway.
Maybe this is a cue to get deeper into qigong.
I have been too comfortable doing the same thing every day with it anyway.
It’s gonna have to fight for the time with my sword training though, but I’ll find a way.
Update 2:
Qigong problem requires qigong solution
An idea suddenly came, “why don’t i try one of those qigong anger release videos?”
And it did do the job.
Not completely, but the pulses have calmed down a lot since i did it.
I can’t confirm anything with just this, but now i have a tool that i can experiment with whenever i feel angry. I doubt the anger pulses & tension will ever stay for more than 6 hours like it did now, but the data will still be useful.