William’s Winning Wayfare

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#1188

I have been lazy.

That’s what i realized after i did a deeper introspection.

It bothers me that what i gained from actively using HeO didn’t really stick around after i stopped using it, not as much as i expected it to.

So i took a walk and ruminated over it.

There I realized that, although the sub had helped me achieve the life i wanted, i was the one who did the heavy lifting.

Then it hit me.

The sub had done enough showing me what was possible. It was just a guide. At the end of the day, everything originated from me. I was the one who was responsible to follow & live up to the guide.

That means now that HeO had showed me what was possible, it’s my responsibility to live up to it.

I was the one who chose to be lenient about it.
I was the one who neglected cultivating the inner changes and just hoped that it popped out like it used to with HeO.
I was the one who was too spoiled & got lazy to continue following the path after i stopped using it.

If i want it, it’s my responsibility to live up to it.
It started from me, it was me all along. i have the power to make it true.

I’ll start with training my thought pattern to be closer to how it was under HeO.
I lived with it for almost a year, it should be possible.

I need to experiment more on this.
I’ll refrain from using HeO until i figure this out.

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#1199

DRR1 15m RM:UWX 15m

This is the kind of creativity boost that i want.
LE is a bit too broad to be as useful for my needs.
RM products are just better in my case.

I wonder if is it because they have newer scripting than LE.

It’s not only useful for writing stories.
There are stuff i do that aren’t writing, but i still need to “craft a story”.
RM:UWX is just better.

#1200

Do you consider Emperor: The Executive?

#1201

Maybe.

I want to see first just how focused is it towards productivity after it got included in the emperor series.

What HeO gave me + DRR1’s effects are enough to cover emperor’s resilience.
LE will be productivity that’s based on limitless, that’s more interesting to me.

So I’ll most likely skip it and wait for LE.
But if it’s interesting enough, i might try it.

#1205

4-5 months / 4-6 cycles.

After looking back at the patterns I see in my journal, this might be the sweet spot of how long to use a sub before taking a break for a cycle/a month. At least for me.

While there’s a value in using a title continuously, there’s also a value in taking a break to clarify the changes the sub has brought. That’s what I found mainly after using HeO for 12 cycles straight.

1 common thing that I found:
When a sub reaches 4-5 cycles continuously, there’s a good chance the sub will uncover a new depth.
That was the case for me with LBFH (4 cycles), DRR1 (4 months), HeO (6 cycles) etc.
This is the golden opportunity.

But if I use the sub even longer, more than 6-7 cycles, the changes will feel so natural that I can’t distinguish what is brought by the sub and what is my natural state of being without it.
Which is good, but it makes me too pampered by the sub. I prefer to have both the “automatic guidance” from subs and the personal agency to temper myself independently.

This is hard to do when the clarity is gone.

This became very clear after I stopped HeO. I leaned too much on “it will just pop out in my head” without actively cultivating them inside on my own. Of course, many I cultivate actively, but HeO also brought many things that are hard to keep up without the sub unless I consciously try to cultivate them by myself. Everything being too natural makes it hard to know what I should still consciously grow and what is already a long lasting change.

If seen from that perspective, the changes I received from LBFH feel more natural.
I used it just as long as HeO in total, but I didn’t use it continuously. This gave me the “pause” where I had the space to keep up & cultivate what I learned from LBFH independently without its help.

4-5 months, with 1-3 months of independent action to internalize its effects without the sub’s help.

That’s my theory of what’s the most optimal approach in my case.
This requires much heavy experimentation to confirm.
But I’m starting to see the pattern, vague as it is.

If I find that this is true, then having a break from a sub or a long washout altogether after a certain span of time, will not only be something that’s “nice to have”, but a straight up mandatory activity to gain the most out of subs.

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À la limite jouissance - KHAN
#1207

What if I play a game where the character is using a sword?
Will HeO help with that?

It’s a funny idea, but worth the try for the giggles.
Idk if I have the time to play games though. Well, I’m gonna keep this idea on the back of my head.

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#1208

If you want to try a game, I’d recommend**Kingdom Come: Deliverance".
As someone who trained historical swordfighting for a couple of years, I can tell you, it’s the most realistic game I’ve ever played.

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#1212

True social and executive are coming out soon, that’ll help.

Most likely, a module or two that is mined from true social will get launched as well.

So if you do end up liking the executive, I could see that being the name embed, alongside a module from TS

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#1213

Tldr: train by moving slowly to realize what you do wrong when you move quickly.

This is the basic of building a good form in bodybuilding. Why didn’t I connect it with sword training? Is it the best approach for martial art? Idk, but it’s worth exploring.

#1214

From fencing to dancing this is true. Interestingly they are very closely related.
To even understand I sometimes watched videos on 10% speed and it was still hard.
For getting a feel for the move within your body it’s the same. Go slow, go pro.

There are so many nuances. Sometimes just moving your elbow an inch or turning your knee about 15° is the difference between making a move work or not.

Speaking of this. Even in playing piano I noticed that if I play it fast, it’s easy to make youristakes in a way that even you yourself can’t notice them anymore. But if you play slowly, you’ll definitely realize if you know what you’re doing or not.

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#1216

A while ago I wrote “HeO’s productivity is indirect”.

Scratch that, HeO felt so natural back then that I didn’t notice how direct it was until I used it again recently. It was just so smooth that I took it for granted and thought HeO was indirect.
Even daily meditation, frequent journaling, deep introspections etc did not help to make me aware.

This is why a break is important.

Running it straight for 12 cycles wasn’t the right move and I should have listened to my intuition back then to stop it for a month or more.

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#1217

I accidentally listened to the exp RM:V instead of RM:UWX.

That’s 4 subs in a cycle. This is not gonna end well.
I’ll take a 5 day washout immediately.

This is another case of why I suggested the “voiced name of the title before the sub plays”.

Perhaps this is for the better?
Sometimes it turned out that way when I accidentally listened to a sub.

Update 1:

Fuck I’m overexposed.

Thankfully the symptom is not a lethargy one, just my head feeling dense.
It’s a good thing that I use 11 on 4 off. Even now it’s still not as bad as the gradual overexposure symptoms when I listen to subs for 21 days.

Update 2:

Now that I’ve been using HeO for a week, I’m gaining more clarity about what part of productivity I lost when I stopped it, how it’s different from LE, and how much more I can do when actively using HeO.

I think my instinct was the one making me click the wrong sub earlier.
I was pushing it aside, but I know I was starting to build up recon from the “nostalgia” stuff.
The recon could have built up more if I had played RM:UWX instead.
Compared to a built up accumulated recon, momentary overexposure is better.
Or maybe I’m just overly positive. Well, even if it is, it’s not bad.

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#1219

Planning

I decided that I’ll get DRG1 for the name embedded major instead of DRR1.

I’m only attracted to the first stage anyway, so if i’m going to buy the sub, I might as well get only the first one.

But i’ll finish DRR1 for 9 months total first.

It’s following the “minimal of 6 to 9 cycles for more than short term changes” rule that i found worked well for me.

This is the 5-6th month. So around 6 cycles in total have passed.
I’ll stick with it for another 3-4 months just to make sure that i can squeeze everything from DRR1 first before switching to DRG1.

Originally i planned to use DRR1 for 2-4 years, but DRG1 is basically DRR1 with a different flavor anyway.
I’ll use DRG1 for 6 to 9 months total too (it’s in a 1 year span since i’ll take 1-2 months break from the sub every 4-5 months), then decide which one i like better for the remaining 2 years.

After that, maybe i’ll revisit DRR2 again. It depends on how much my priorities change in the future. But for now, The first stage is just too good for literally everything. Dropping it again like i did to “advance” to stage 2 just doesn’t line up with my goals and everything that i do.

I wonder if DRG1 is redundant since i already plan to use HeO long term alongside DRR1 too. I can’t find a satisfying answer for this, so the only thing i can do is to experiment with it myself.

So the plan:

Make name embedded RMV1 right after the other masks are released > Make LE after it’s updated > Make DRG1 in 3-4 months > Make HeO after it’s updated.

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#1222

Something weird happened when i was doing qi gong.
I was in the middle of the exercise when something got me pissed off.

As usual, i just let it come, let it be, and let it go.
Just observe without trying to avoid the feeling.
But unlike the usual, the feeling didn’t come off.
It just lingered there for more than an hour.

That was strange.
I rarely ever had an anger with that intensity stay for that long over some minor inconvenience.

Idk what that was, and i can’t say it’s linked to qi gong or not. But damn that was weird.

Update 1:

Meditation fixed it. Well, at least now I’m aware of the deeper mechanics behind the emotion.
The pulses to feel angry kept firing, and a subtle part of me kept latching onto them.
Now that I know that, I just need to be aware and stop latching onto the pulses.
I can’t do shit about the pulses though, the best I can do is just observe.

It’s annoying, but I’m not gonna lie, it’s exciting to discover this side of me.
I still can’t figure out why these anger pulses keep coming, but time will take care of it anyway.

Maybe this is a cue to get deeper into qigong.
I have been too comfortable doing the same thing every day with it anyway.
It’s gonna have to fight for the time with my sword training though, but I’ll find a way.

Update 2:

Qigong problem requires qigong solution

An idea suddenly came, “why don’t i try one of those qigong anger release videos?”

And it did do the job.
Not completely, but the pulses have calmed down a lot since i did it.

I can’t confirm anything with just this, but now i have a tool that i can experiment with whenever i feel angry. I doubt the anger pulses & tension will ever stay for more than 6 hours like it did now, but the data will still be useful.

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#1231

You could get both and run the Primordial Aura just from time to time.

But then a classic custom would be cheaper.

#1232

Not a bad idea, honestly.
But yeah, might as well get a custom at that point, rofl.

I lost my reason to build a custom after I found out these 3-4 subs are enough for what I want.
The modules should also cover up the small things that I feel lacking from the stack.
Social scripting & Wealth manifestation.

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#1234

I’m starting to think that a good part of my ability to have deeper awareness of my thoughts & feelings; and to just observe them is from HeO.

I am not as easily swayed by emotion anymore because i can see it with better clarity

I noticed that i regained some of the depth again after i restarted HeO.

HeO is affecting & growing the ability alongside my meditation practise.

I started going deeper into the meditation a few months after i started HeO. So i didn’t have a frame of reference to show me which effect is from which until i took 4 months break from HeO & restarted it again a few weeks back.

Fencing footwork

I have become more accustomed to move around with it.
Moving back and forth is not as awkward anymore.

Next month i’ll introduce lunges into my training routine.
I won’t rush it. I want a good foundation, so getting the movements, postures, forms etc as close to proper as possible first is the priority.

One thing at a time.

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I’m still using my japanese wooden sword for this, rofl.
It’s just footwork though so that’s not a problem.

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#1237

This looks so fun, i’m gonna learn this.

Update 1:

image

What the fuck am I doing, rofl
I just have to get the pattern ingrained in my head

Update 2:

image

This one is easier to understand.
So the second half of the drill is just horizontally flipped

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The second picture actually helped me to immediately understand the pattern.
Start top right > move down after 2 > up after 2 > left after 4 > down after 2 > up after 2

I’m gonna drop subs other than DRR1 & HeO for now.
They are doing something deep and I want to let them do their fullest.

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#1239

Solid video.
I wanted to propose a few variations after the first segment, only to see they are already proposed in the later parts :joy:

Maybe I should start this as well. Not only is it fun but also a good training for endurance.

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#1240

I’ve been training this pattern for the past few days.
I followed the first pattern, then tried to combine it with what I know for fun.
The slash using the back edge of the blade is new to me since japanese blades don’t have that, lol.

It’s still all over the place but It will get better as I train more.