This meme made me tweak my approach to vipassana and now i can observe a bit easier.
The manifestations really come from anywhere
This meme made me tweak my approach to vipassana and now i can observe a bit easier.
The manifestations really come from anywhere
i only listened to LBFH once and the familiar effects are returning quickly.
other than the one i wrote above, what stands out a lot is the inner talk.
“even if I’m …, i will be fine”. just like the first time i used LBFH.
the self assuredness is through the roof.
this effect feels subtle, so i didn’t notice it. but ever since i started using HeO, i feel like I’m growing.
it’s hard to describe, i was growing before i used HeO, but i didn’t feel it like this.
LBFH is filling me with a different but familiar feeling of fulfilment. Different from HeO.
In earlier cycles, my problem with LBFH was it made me unproductive. But reducing the exposure to only 5m erased that side effect.
I will try to always play it for 15m next cycle because there is HeO & Mogul in the stack. 2 subs that increase my productivity.
This is my 4th cycle with HeO.
Maybe i will write another in depth review about it again later.
Sword training is progressing well. I do it every day, only the same set of movements over and over again, but I’ve gotten better and more stable when executing them.
Should i keep talking about observing the pulse and latch now that i journal online? It will be confusing for someone to read if they didn’t read my offline journal that i posted above.
Well, whatever.
It’s my journal, my rule.
Emotions are transient. It comes and it goes.
Using HeO + WB made me learn & experience a lot about it.
The clarity of mind, wisdom, weakness to strength, emotional control scripting etc from both of them helped me a lot in this journey.
Now that i dropped WB, i want to see the difference when i only use HeO in the stack.
How will observing the pulse & latch feel?
Will exercising vipassana be different?
How about emotional control in general?
Let’s see, let’s observe.
I’m able to observe emotional pulses that are a lot more subtle now. See if they are still there or not, then unlatch.
Unlatching is not about avoiding the pulse, it’s about accepting that the emotional pulse is not there anymore and stop endlessly craving safety & resolution for something that has passed.
I was thinking about how HeO is the sub that’s closest sub to my goals and to me as a person, but i feel more whole with LBFH.
I think it’s because LBFH is patching the little things in life that i unknowingly neglect when i pursue my goals.
Maybe it’s the self love and tranquility scripting.
I don’t know for sure, but everything is better when i use LBFH, that’s all i know for certain.
i have been more productive lately, i don’t know what caused this.
Starting LBFH?
Stopping WB?
Mogul kicking in?
I have to pay attention & journal more about this.
The only thing i know for certain about productivity is if i run DRLD + either HeO or Mogul, the productivity will be through the roof. but if i don’t have DRLD, the productivity will be just normal, even if i have both HeO & Mogul in the stack. I need to confirm this in the next cycle.
this is the 5th cycle of mogul i ran
the occasional money manifestation is good and all, but what sets mogul apart is how it manifests opportunities, reasons, and lessons to help you build more wealth.
it doesn’t just give you money, it guides you to continually make more money.
it’s like teaching a man how to fish instead of just giving him fish.
I looked back at my chats lately and i noticed that i started using more humor than before i switched back to LBFH.
I also become more chatty, but i think it’s because the last time i used WB was 9 days ago. this is 1 consistent effect from WB that also happened 5 cycles ago. it made me talk less.
this came back. i think having it fixed was the effect of WB, i should have continued using it.
observing the pulse & latch, and vipassana pretty much fix it too, but the fix is not as automatic as when i was still under WB’s emotional control effect.
This is interesting. I think i won’t use WB again for it since phoenix now has emotional control scripting too. i won’t start using it for at least a year though, my plan for what sub to use next is booked until one year from now.
I ran LBFH once 4 days ago and the effects are still here. If anything, it’s getting stronger.
Maybe it’s because i had ran LBFH for 6-7 cycles before so it’s easier for the effects to come back.
The effects, the manifestations, they are really strong. I still can’t say how strong it is compared to the old one, because it was also absurdly powerful.
Let’s see how it goes in the next cycle tomorrow
I found out what observing the pulse and latch is similar to.
In the book “the mind illuminated”, the author talks about how he found out about effortlessness when he was annoyed by flies in his meditation.
He learned about accepting that there’s no need to struggle to not lose focus when there are no flies anymore.
The flies are like the pulse. You don’t need to latch onto the struggle if there are no flies anymore.
Observe when the flies are not there anymore, and accept that you don’t have to hold onto empty struggles.
It’s not even about subliminal anymore since I stopped using WB. The realization was unfolded to me when i had WB in my stack, but now it’s not relevant to be here.
It’s not about emotional control scripting from WB anymore. I’ll keep the vipassana stuff in my offline journal from now on.
Guys, please be careful with meditation. I used this book to meditate and it left me emotionless, ambitionless, without any drive to live life, achieve goals, etc. I got extremely detached, full depersonalization and derealization. It got so bad to the point that I lost interest in talking to anyone and even didn’t care when my granmda died literally in front of me.
Meditation might work for some and might not work for others, please observe your inner being.
Thankyou for the warning.
I’m going to do it in moderation.
The biggest reason i do meditation is to improve my efficiency when i work, detaching from what’s unnecessary so i can focus more on what matters. If it lowers my productivity, I’d be able to tell and pull back.
If you want, you could try this:
Strong determination sitting
Sit on the edge of a chair, close your eyes, straight back. And focus on not moving at all. Only breathing. Just sit like that, don’t move at all, don’t even swallow (that’s the hardest part). Start with 1 min, add 1 min every day or a few, build up to 30
It’s also recommended to do a 15min buteyko session prior to that
I’ll put it in my to do list!
Strong determination is really hardcore to start with. Like I have done 3 hour Strong determination sits it’s gives you crazy experiences but not really anything that change your life.
Depends what we call life changing. Because I’m my example, meditation was life changing but for the bad
And strong determination sitting wasn’t a game changer for me but had a good effect on my willpower.
What truly was really helpful and I believe it has the potential to be life changing is image streaming
i have tried image streaming too but i haven’t been able to stick with it, lol.
one thing that was life changing in a bad way for me is the new age stuff. not that they are bad, but they have been oversimplified so much that i understood it wrong and developed bad self destructive habits from it.
that took me a few years to fix, even now I’m still discovering small leftovers from it.