Ok I’ve been thinking If I don’t like somthing about my work why not fix it. Creating art is a process Rome wasn’t built in a day. I reached out to my brother to let him know I’m going to do a 2nd layer to add depth and to fix a few things I’m unhappy with. I’m happy with that I just hope I nail it this time 
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First time ever using that material has to be tough!
Something I like to remind myself of whenever I’m dissatisfied with a project. It’s not always the work itself, but how I grew during the process that I’m reflecting on. So what I see as could have been better is actually inspirational energy for my next project.
Of course like you said you’re always free to improve upon things you’re not satisfied with. But letting go of something into the world is definitely a skill itself. I’ve heard stories of artists and musicians favorite work being unpopular and the one they didn’t give a second thought to being the most cherished.
Either way props to you for stepping out of your comfort zone and taking on a challenge. That’s never easy.
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Thank you so much @Fractal_Explorer you made some very good points the best teacher is definitely experience after looking back i know that if i ever do something that big again i have to work on my speed the biggest obstacle for was the work time was only 45 minutes and you have to stir the epoxy for 4 min and then on top of that stir in the mica and stir each color in for another 3 minutes so by the time i started pouring and blending i definitely had to rush before the epoxy started setting and getting tacky definitely a completely different process from using my medium of acrylic paints and floetrol . I guess that project wore me out I’m just waking up from the deepest sleep I can’t remember the last time i slept like that I had really intense dreams. Well last night my brother and sis in law said they were in love with the piece and thanked me again. My brother is the type of Man that does what he wants to do including not following my instructions to not hang the doors for 3 days so that the epoxy completely cures 
they were both excited to put the doors up I guess 
I admire that about my big bro tho. They refused my offer to come out and fix them they said it was unnecessary.
These look much better in person I will just leave it at that and get over my emotions and move on to my next project.
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The art is very inviting and comforting. I like the energy of it.
It’s really easy to get hung up on the technical stuff sometimes. But even when we don’t hit the mark, the intention can come though. And I like to think that’s what allows people to appreciate something. Still working on this for myself as well haha. I’m a terrible perfectionist.
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The process of creating art is much like subliminals take on the opportunities that allow you to grow, learn and create. Embrace and enjoy the process 
. I start my new stack tomorrow 
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I’m glad to see women posting here 
This helped me decide to get the subliminal. I got Seductress (for multiple reasons but mainly because it also had ascension included which I was going to stack anyhow) plus I also got RICH.
I’m not sure if new users can post articles and I just signed up today but I’ve been using the subliminals for about 3 weeks.
There was an initial burst of energy and a rush. In part because I was excited to have them and because they may have worked. I didn’t rush too much into assuming it was all the subs work because since late last year, I had already been journaling, working out early, manifesting and doing self improvement.
It started hitting me that it worked recently. I woke up kind of sad with a heavy heart yesterday. Then it all hit me throughout the day. I’ve been harboring negative beliefs about my beauty. I thought that since I didn’t have the nicest clothes, I wasn’t considered attractive even though I still get hit on. They didn’t count to me. My assumption was that they just wanted sex and were willing to hit on me seeing if they could get it. (This is in part true about guys but was not always the case) My belief also was that until I GOT the nicer things in life, I was not deserving of a relationship or even friendships. This also ties into some money issues. To sum it up, on a conscious level, I kind of wanted a relationship recently. On a subconscious level, I felt I did not deserve it. That was seductress at work because I NEVER would’ve come to that conclusion.
The next thing was RICH (the realizations all happened yesterday so I cried several times lol)
My underlying negative feelings towards money was that I NEED it but I always heard my parents say “ain’t no money for that” when it came to the things I wanted. To be clear, I’m not blaming them. They did everything they could to provide for my family and they kicked ass doing it!! However, as a child, how I processed that statement was, I can only afford the very basic things in life and although I may want other things, “ain’t no money for it”.
As I tend to tell myself, if you think like a victim, soon you’ll act like one. My thoughts were (on a subconscious level) “I don’t have it” “there isn’t enough” etc. So on a conscious level, that showed up as choosing to not go out with friends even to free events (in case they sell shirts or drinks) I don’t want to NOT be able to buy something. I avoided dinner with friends because I couldn’t pay for everyone. I avoided saving because I figured I’d never have enough money anyway so why even try. I avoided paying bills sometimes because if I spend all my money, I won’t have any for the things I want. Even at times when I DID have extra money to buy something I wanted, I avoided doing it for fear that something else might come up.
I avoided answering the phone for companies I owed money to because I didn’t know how to have money conversations.
Anyway, I now realize the problem. And although I have improved from where I was significantly, I am thankful for the subs because now my affirmations hit different. I can target my specific issues and work with the subs to shift my thinking.
Thank you Sub Slub. I love the community
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Welcome and thanks for sharing you will find lots of support here. I definitely understand what you are feeling with the lack mindset programming. I do have a suggestion affirmations are simple and with consistency they have a big impact on changing deep rooted negative beliefs.
Every morning look in the mirror and say: I am provided for I am abundant and always have more than enough for what I need and I desire.
I am worthy and deserve anything I wish to obtain.
When I spend I now I will get back double
Somthing I just saw on YouTube the other day the lady said that whenever you pay your bills or for anything feel grateful feel happy about paying it because you now it will return and also feel grateful for being able to pay. Gratitude and a feeling it is a money magnet it takes you from a state of lack to a state of abundance. Start visualizing every morning and night your goals dreams and desires. Make a vision board all these things will get you in a higher vibration so that you can recieve.
Please keep posting I’m excited for you and your journey. And yes there will be ups and downs while your subconscious and conscious are adjusting to change. Sounds like you are aware which is great don’t give up and you jace plenty of support here if you need anything.
I think you should be able to post click on create topic on the main forum page and you should be able to start your journal
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03/04/22 listening to my 2nd round of seductress zp and r.i.c.h zp today have another job interview in a few hours. When I listened to mogul the other day I got that lost feeling again but this morning had a chat with a few friends and got some business ideas and now I’m ready to go !!! Will be doing lots of research and planning over the weekend to get my business going I gotta hang in there can’t let my dreams circle the drain this cycle has to end and I have to go for this 100% just have to work on my self discipline and confidence I know I can do this I know I am worthy of success time to push the fear aside and accomplish my goals.
How’s things been going?
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Hey everything is good pretty close to landing a job
Just finished my stack of seductress / rich and Mogul about to switch it up completely and run QL/Alchemist and Minds Eye. I started a new journal too it’s called rich venusian. How R U Doing ? Thank for checking on me
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Lol sorry so many journals these days I lose track. Looks like I didn’t follow you onto the new one, gonna do that now. Glad to hear things are working out for you. I’ve been good, major life transition with a new move has me all stirred up like crazy, but once that settles down I’m hoping to get back into my music.
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I can completely relate to where you are coming from in regards to feeling like you are/were (haven’t read any more of your journal yet) leaving your husband in the dust (so to speak) - you working on yourself, while he is just stagnating.
I felt similar towards my ex when I was going to the gym every day, and inviting her to go with me, and she’d sit on the exercise bike and play video games.
I learned that we can invite people to improve themselves, but not force them. One other thing I’ve learned is that the energy we radiate definitely impacts others around us - it’s impossible for it not to. Almost like you can ask someone a question, and they can choose not to answer, but if they heard it, they have no choice but to answer it in their own mind…same sort of thing.
Anyway, just felt a resonance with what you wrote, so thought I’d reply.
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@aklimatize thank you and yes this is still a obstacle for me i do believe it’s a karmic lesson because it has impacted my life so greatly but also has been a catalyst in my spiritual transformation so marrying a person that doesn’t love me has taught me how to live myself and when this is over I will get the love and relationship that I deserve because I will be aligned and my shadow self will be healed and I can attract someone vibrating on a higher frequency. So it’s all good. I’ve been looking at a lot of videos about narcissist and how they think to save my sanity while I’m still coming up with a plan to get out. I’m also going go back to my stack of seductress, r.i.c.h and minds Eye I just found your journal and will be following going to go take a look now 
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I like that quote, because it’s so true. I have not studied vibrational frequencies as much as you have, but I do believe that our mind is like a transmitting and receiving station (Napoleon Hill actually said this, and interestingly enough, Alexander Ghraham Bell gave his support for the theory, based upon his research in communications). From a purely unconscious point of view (what I’ve mostly studied) we can have beliefs and attitudes we are not consciously aware of, which attract or detract others to us (and vice versa).
I grew up with a Narcissist mother, so I can completely relate to your situation. I have a lot of resources you might find valuable; if you’d like to know more, let me know.
I will say this, one thing I’ve learned about narcissists is that they are not willing to look at the truth (or reality); they are living in a self-delusion, and if you dare to try to pop it, they won’t even consider that you might be right (and they might be wrong), because they have come to rely so heavily on their “false self” (to block out fear mostly), that they will only defend it, no matter how much logic or reason you use.
When people say that narcissists can’t change, I used to always question that, because I sincerely believe anyone can change - the crux is that in order to change, you have to accept where you are, in order to know how to get to where you want to be. Narcissists, unfortunately, won’t accept the truth of where they are, so they are doomed to never get to where they really would like to be.
Also, you should look up the topic of the balance of shame - very eye opening as to why narcissists can say absolutely nothing, and you can feel like utter shit when talking to them. Very difficult to pin-point why they can get under your skin unless you understand this principle.
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@aklimatize Yes everything you stated is to true I will look up the balance of shame topic thank you! the guy on youtube I’ve been watching is a clinically diagnosed narcissist he has been in therapy for 15 years he said he still isn’t recovered and he will always be a narcissist but… he has decided to use his knowledge and experience to help people. I’ve learned a lot from him and discovered that I have wasted so much energy and time trying to make things work the whole spilling your heart out and communicating to them with “I feel” statements Is worthless they don’t like to resolve problems and as you said they are in denial about who they truly are so it’d hard for them to change because they don’t think anything is wrong. We’ll anyways now that I have this wisdom I am going to focus on me and move on. New beginnings ahead yes I did a lot of soul searching and worked hard to heal myself but omg my eyes did not open up to the truth 100% until I started seductress sub It helped me realize my worth and what I really deserve in life and that i shouldnt settle for less. 
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My pleasure; to give you a starting point, I read about the balance of shame in a book called How To Kill A Narcissist: Debunking the Myth of Narcissism and Recovering From Narcissistic Abuse by JH Simon.
I’m going to give you a couple of quotes from the book, so that you can find the info easier:
"The shame/grandiosity continuum
One thing that both shame and grandiosity have in common is that they require someone/something to measure against. Simply being alone probably won’t induce shame until you compare yourself to a group of people having fun together." p. 34
“Too much shame severely limits a person’s life force and causes them to feel less than human, whereas too much grandiosity makes a person feel more than human and severely limits the life force of other people.” p. 34
I am so happy for you; and it is so true, that you should never settle for anything that you don’t think is the best for you. Unfortunately, those of us who usually settle either never had a good example of what marriage should actually look like, or we had parents who didn’t instill in us how valuable we really are. Either way, you’re doing that for yourself now!
I remember that my life began to change when the therapist I was seeing at the time, asked me why I didn’t stand up for myself as much as I did for others. We were doing intrapsyhic work (specifically relating to children inside of me that had been wounded, and I was like their parent now) and he told me that I had to begin protecting the parts of myself just as much as I protected others, and that really shifted things for me, and I began to vigorously stand up for myself. If you want to get another book in regards to all this, I cannot recommend Search for the Real Self by James Masterson, highly enough. That is the book I used to start to understand all that I didn’t have (but should have) growing up, and how to begin being those things to myself, to help myself heal.
I’m rooting for you, and know you’re going to do great!
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I do in very small doses I’ve been running rich and seductress and I run my custom once every other week 1 loop I do get results but I also get very tired I’m sure it’s because of all the aura modules I put in there.
Outstanding art 
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