Unleashing My True Self

Journals - Major Programs
#61

The recon is fading away and increasing the daily caloric intake does help to overcome it faster, especially with nuts & high-fat things.

Today during my walking time I encountered more cute/attractive girls than usual, which is a positive sign. Then (for the first time in my life) I sit & read a book while sitting on a bench in the main square of my little hometown & enjoy my free time under the (coming & going out) sun. It’s a brand-new habit for me which I think it’s the combination of Primal bloom & WB adventure script.

When I talk to people there’s more nonchalance & paradoxically more connection. Also, I don’t feel the need to fill the silence gaps in the conversations out of fear I’ll be judged “too quiet” or something like that. In the past, I usually did that either out of fear or just because I was on low energy/self-esteem.

I also feel a new kind of confidence building up which is quite different to Primal and every other Alpha title I have run previously.

#62

I’m finishing reading the whole WB thread and I understood something I need to point out for present & future reference:

  • I don’t have to force myself to approach anyone from now on unless I find a supernatural, congruent, and mysterious way of doing it (outside of work of course where I need to proactively interact with clients all the time). If not I’ll be ruining the whole mystery-sexy man style I want to achieve and I’ll give off mixed vibes which are going to kill the attraction.

  • There’s wealth scripting in WB (not as much as Emperor though) so I need to take into consideration that aspect if I want to keep my stack as streamlined as possible (A.K.A. more focused, faster acting, and less recon potential)

  • I need to improve my sense of dressing style to something more original & congruent with the kind of man I want to be;

  • The male enhancement script may not be enough because the whole script is a lot longer than the OG Wanted, so BDLM should be used too to accelerate the growth rate to optimal levels until I reach the desired size;

  • There are still sexual issues/fear and probably blockages inside me that prevent the full script to be executed properly & the sexual energy needs to be circulating properly to make me irresistible;

  • I need to put myself more in places where women are gathered (bars, clubs, city squares, parks, shopping centers & main streets);

  • I don’t need to suffer to grow & I don’t need to listen for as many minutes as possible just to inflate my ego and proudly say “I’m the most masochist man alive”.

So the plan of action from now is:

  • to drop GM for this cycle (and see if I’ll need to reintroduce it later based on my income & bank account at the end of this cycle)
  • to restart the tomorrow listening pattern from the 30s and then slowly go up until I reach the point when recon isn’t worthy anymore as far as intensity goes
  • no more approaching outside of work (just smiles & winks when I see an attractive girl/woman)
  • research more into different dressing styles (hairstyles too)
  • use KB to give me more energy & fewer blockages to execute the whole WB & BDLM scripts which are very hungry energy-wise
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#63

30s WB + 30s KB ST1 and I felt light to moderate recon in terms of negative thoughts around my fear of blushing and also a few blushing moments.

Something HUGE & deep inside of me is getting worked on if I’m experiencing something I thought I overcame several years ago.

It’s painful to experience that kind of shyness once again but I think it’s necessary to heal/erase that issue from the roots once & for all.

However, I got even more positive reactions from clients at the gym and women are more talkative when I interact with them. Also, men are getting friendlier, starting up the interactions first and opening up more & more with me.

Mixed results are to be expected when you start a (superpowerful) new stack and I need to be patient and love myself more when I’m going through this healing phase.

After all, I’m dealing with my Achille’s Heal to transform it into a strong point.

EDIT: It’s the second time an attractive married client touched me (this time with both hands my lats & without asking for permission like the first time) just to point at a muscle I should know where it’s located. So it’s a strange occurrence without any logical reason because she knows I’m educated on the human anatomy. Then I guess it’s just an excuse to get physical with me.

EDIT 2: I caught several people staring at me from their cars when I was driving home, both men & women.

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#64

Today my sister interacted with me more than usual to the point of a proper conversation (never happened since several years). The fact is that I didn’t act any different but she was keeping up with the conversation even though I wasn’t very chatty.

There’s some kind of “keep up to communicate with me no matter what” kind of projected aura.

Also the PT client that I mentioned in yesterday’s journal entry sent me a vocal message to tell me that she got phenomenal results body-composition wise in a matter of 6-7 weeks since she started working with me.

Those kind of results looks like enhanced but she’s doing everything natural.

For sure I’m very glad I can make the difference in other people’s life up to that degree.

So far so good this WB & Co. is starting to get some traction.

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#65

Yesterday I played 1 full BDLM and I didn’t experience any difference in how my PP looks…yet. Let’s give it a a proper time though.

However I experienced different reactions from the most attractive receptionist at the gym. She was more responsive, submissive and borderline shy when I was joking with her. Then at some point she told me she left her boyfriend and then she went into confidences mode with me.

Fast forward to the end of my work shift, after I changed my clothes into a casually elegant outfit, she started to give me compliments about it and also she complimented the parfume I was wearing (for the very first time ever) even though I told her I usually wear it everyday at work.

I was feeling very good & uplifted especially when I went out with some friends while sitting at the bar outdoor next to the road. I was very relaxed and nonchalant, then at some point a car with 2 attractive girls passed by near our table while staring at me clearly (my friend confirmed the blonde one she was looking at me directly). After that they sit in table behind me while the blonde kept checking me out (once again my friend was observing that because I didn’t turned back). So after few drinks I felt the urge to approach her but I did it too directly and too aggressively that she didn’t respond very well.

Another confirmation that approaches with WB have to be calibrated in a very precise manner and, maybe even better, to be avoided at all to keep up conveying that mysterious and nonchalant vibe.

People are supposed to do the effort in opening you up when you are the Wanted man.

Lesson learned the hard way.

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#66

Did you set a clear goal what you want to achieve (conscious guidance)?
Like gaining 2 inches, evolving from grower to shower, becoming more straight?
I remember one Journal, that used pictures (like a visionboard) to show your subconscious what you want to achieve and IIRC it got decent results.

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#67

@Parsifal Yes, 20 cm straight PP from grower to shower. Just starting from 16 cm

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#68

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#69

@Jouissance What da hell is that? The eggplant villain?

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#70

it’s the alternative box art for BDLM

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#72

I played WB + KB St1 for 1 minute each this morning. Let’s see how it goes today.

EDIT: I’m getting the urge to script whatever I want to be manifested and I think it’s congruent with the Wanted archetype which attracts automatically whoever he wants. So, along those lines, the next cycle could be more aligned to use R.I.C.H. (instead of GM) to attract more money through every possible venue.

At the end of the day it’s all about attraction.

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#73

Alternating GM/RICH could be powerful, too. GM to build foundations, RICH to profit off them. Almost like a smaller version of switching between EOG stages, to let them bloom and enhance each other.

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#74

I felt more tired today at work and I didn’t see anything worthy attraction-wise, except the fact that the receptionist in there greeted me in a warmer way after she was talking at the phone when I entered the gym.

#75

Today I’m feeling more grounded in myself without any shame or embarrassing moments. There’s a solid new inner-strength deep sensation which resembles New Emperor’s prevalent inner state. The main difference with it is the confidence in knowing that I’m the prize and women have to do the work in order to get my attention. So I feel better about myself overall & more attractive (especially my inner side).

Also my skin is getting more clear and somehow glowing (very light at the moment though). I got some comments on my tan, even though I was under the sun for just few hours, but several clients told me they thought I was on vacation just because my skin went darker very soon.

Overall theme: I’m the prize.

The people’s pleasing behavior is getting weaker and sometimes I have caught myself using an even more spontaneous & less conscending way to speak & interact. For example, at some point a client asked me why I don’t have any tattoo and then I answered: “Why I should have a tattoo?”.

So there’s less inhibition in letting myself be as I’m naturally am without any fear of being judged and labeled in a certain way.

If I want to talk I’ll talk and if I don’t have anything noteworthy to say I’ll be quiet with the underlying thought that I’m feeling confident no matter what.

EDIT: A cute girl greeted me after few weeks of not seeing her at the gym and she was displaying a nervous/shy behavior that I didn’t see in her friendly but quite confident way of communicating before.

Several women are getting more submissive while I interact with them.

Also, the inner assumption “I don’t have to open up myself completely & put effort into the interaction to get the attraction I want because then they will be eager for more” is building up into my mindset.

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#76

Some recon symptoms today but nothing heavy though (some jealousy, a few embarrassing moments, feeling not enough attractive & manly).

However, overall I felt pretty good, cool, calm, and with an inner feeling of attractiveness, mysteriousness, and sexiness.

Unfortunately, I’m yet to see a proper amount of “Wanted” signs in my outer reality. Quite frankly I don’t see the huge warning in the sales pages having any relationship with my daily life.

The fact is that If I don’t actively engage with other attractive women/girls I’m not getting any attraction-worthy behaviors, except a few glances here & there (which to be fair I was getting anyway for 2 decades).

So it seems I’m very far away from embodying the Wanted archetype.

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#77

I feel so weak & vulnerable that it’s not funny at all several hours after playing 1.30 min of WB & KB st1. This combo is triggering too much shyness that I want to quit for good. It’s starting to influence negatively the way I interact with people so I need to decide to keep going or choose something more suitable for my main issue. I’m feeling so powerless right now because I experienced what feels to be free from inhibitions & mental blocks but I regressed big time unfortunately & it’s taking a toll on my self-worth.

However, I don’t know which title could erase the shyness, embarrassment, and shame from my life.

Mastering The Reality Creation Process
#78

The recon mode is still pretty active with way less motivation than usual and the feeling of not wanting to go out, especially alone.

However I managed to clean up my home no matter how I felt about it.

I’m getting more attracted to the manifesting process once again and I even thought about a stack I would like to run based on Limitless+Mind’s Eye+Executive to boost my manifesting skills and take massive action to reach my goals.

That upcoming stack is based upon the realization that I need to have positive experiences instead of focusing on healing & archetypes titles which have the tendency to dig into my existing weak points and start up a negative cycle.

I guess I executed Genesis better because the amount of healing was minimal & parodoxically I overcome some sticking points (better & faster than the traditional healing process) by creating positive reinforcement experiences.

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#79

Another level unlocked: I just went out alone to enjoy a drink in my hometown’s main square (which in the recent past triggered anxiety & negative thoughts/emotions).

After all, a wanted man should be quite comfortable to sit alone & wait for the next attractive girl/woman asking to join his company.

I also caught several women/girls looking at me from the passing cars while I was going to that outdoor cafe. Few men were checking me out too.

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#80

You might wanna check out “Psycho-Cybernitcs” by Maxwell Waltz, a book @ksub recommended to me. It’s basically a book on manifesting your ideal selfimage and the life that follows that image. I just started reading it and it’s very interesting.

#81

@Parsifal I started reading but then I got bored by it