Today I’m feeling more grounded in myself without any shame or embarrassing moments. There’s a solid new inner-strength deep sensation which resembles New Emperor’s prevalent inner state. The main difference with it is the confidence in knowing that I’m the prize and women have to do the work in order to get my attention. So I feel better about myself overall & more attractive (especially my inner side).
Also my skin is getting more clear and somehow glowing (very light at the moment though). I got some comments on my tan, even though I was under the sun for just few hours, but several clients told me they thought I was on vacation just because my skin went darker very soon.
Overall theme: I’m the prize.
The people’s pleasing behavior is getting weaker and sometimes I have caught myself using an even more spontaneous & less conscending way to speak & interact. For example, at some point a client asked me why I don’t have any tattoo and then I answered: “Why I should have a tattoo?”.
So there’s less inhibition in letting myself be as I’m naturally am without any fear of being judged and labeled in a certain way.
If I want to talk I’ll talk and if I don’t have anything noteworthy to say I’ll be quiet with the underlying thought that I’m feeling confident no matter what.
EDIT: A cute girl greeted me after few weeks of not seeing her at the gym and she was displaying a nervous/shy behavior that I didn’t see in her friendly but quite confident way of communicating before.
Several women are getting more submissive while I interact with them.
Also, the inner assumption “I don’t have to open up myself completely & put effort into the interaction to get the attraction I want because then they will be eager for more” is building up into my mindset.