I would hold off on listening to the astral projection X for awhile. once you have an activated merkaba, then you don’t have to worry about having any bad things happen to you. its protection is total and self sustaining for eternity.
On a side note, I’ve been reading this book about auras, and the merkaba and the aura are related in a way. the aura can also protect you. so I speculate that a sub like Love Bomb could help? I just have the prototype
I know what you mean when you say ‘meditation makes it worse’. its a paradox because in order to activated the merkaba you need to meditate and do some things. So what I’ve found is to meditate in the morning or noon. not at night, let alone before you go asleep (unless you feel confident you can/should).
If you can, contact your higher self. he/she will give the the best advice possible. far better that what I can give you.
I have found for certain, that every time I’m involved with low energetic activities (mainly porn for me), that my dreams get very disturbing.
actually even masturbating can have bad results, because if you release sexual energy (the most powerful force in existence) it can attract entities that want to fed off it. To solve this I’ve been looking into Mantak Chia and specifically the multi orgasmic male for me.
This helps re-circulate the energy back into the body. Also learn about the Ankh, equaly as valuable. Similar concept.
for me, the only thing I struggled with was porn/masturbation. after reading/listening to “The Easy Peasy Method” book, I am 99.99999999 certain that I’ve cut porn for my life. Great book.
But I would consider cutting all the low vibrational habits. just to name a few: watching the news, eating meat, eating processed foods, cutting low vibrational ties with people, etc.
I’ve also found that when I do semen retention, I have much more positive dreams/AP. valuable experiences.
also, I don’t think you’re dead. if you died say right now, you wouldn’t be able to eat food. for example, you would try to eat soup and you would never be able to finish the bowl. I think Robert Bruce talked about that in an interview.
sorry for a huge reply haha