I think I have childhood amnesia or I fell on my head as a baby but I don’t remember much of my childhood. The people who I grew up with remind me of the things I did as a child and the memory comes with it sometimes.
Any sub to cater towards this issue?
Is it something I just have to make peace with?
Leave the past in the past?
I had two years of training to become a life-coach with hypnosis-, NLP-, energetic-, and other techniques. During this two years many of my fellow students had the same realization as you. Most of the times it was connected to some kind of traumatic event so the subconscious decided to repress the whole thing.
My fiancee can’t remember most of her childhood either. Often, when we work on inner blockades, long forgotten memories arise again because they are the core of the blockade.
Of course, that’s just my explanation. It could also be some neurological thing. I can’t judge that.
I would imagine, if you work with the subs on your goals and solve internal issues on the way, the memories might resurface once the relevant trauma is solved.
If what I assumed is correct, I see two paths:
a) trying to solve the trauma directly with healing subs
b) chosing subs for your goals and solve the issues on the way
I would chose b) for myself
That it’s repressed is a sign, that you’re not at peace with it. But you can trust that it will show itself over time. Repression works only so well. Repression costs constantly. Like some processes in your computers task-manager. You can’t see them, but they need 1% of CPU here, 0,3% here, 3% there,… it adds up.
I chose to work on my goals for my future. The past pops up whenever I need to heal to reach my goals. Atm, it works pretty well. AFAIK, that’s also the NSE approach. Healing trauma through new experience.
Edit:
Switched suppression for repression since it’s the correct term, thanks to @TheEmpress showing the differences.
Was it suppression or repression? I’ve become fascinated by the differences between the 2.
Edit:
I repressed painful experiences as a child out of my conscious awareness. I didn’t know I was doing that. As the memories resurfaced with development, I suppressed the pain via drugs and alcohol as a young teenager.
I started therapy at 14 with very blurred memories of my childhood. Mixed up fabricated stories. This led to much confusion. I was almost obsessed with trying to piece together my childhood. The way other people remember it can be much different than your perception of it…
What if memory was imagination? What if you could recreate your childhood to be that which you would have wanted it to be? What if it doesn’t matter what “actually” happened? Notice what fear may be underneath that.
I would look back with love even if it’s blurred while also focusing on what you want to build/create and take on some healing practices at the same time. LBFH has been helpful for me paired with my other subs. I practice the 8 limbs of yoga as well. When I mention yoga to people they assume postures. It’s much more than a physical practice.
Holistic approach is key 
IMO.
Heavy healing subs are great if you are able to do that. I personally couldn’t do intense healing subs while raising a family as a single mom and business building. I got through DR1 2 cycles.
Thanks for the clarification. I didn’t know the difference between the terms suppression and repression. I used deepl to find a fitting translation and it said suppression so I used it.
You’re welcome 
I kept seeing both words used in text and got curious. 
Thank you @Parsifal and @TheEmpress
I think I’m both Repressing and Suppressing 
, I have to do some more research and introspection. Since I started listening to subs a lot of the kinks were worked on like the traumas. Got me thinking, I started drinking alcohol at a very young age, what if that was part of damaging my memory recall? If this could be fixed with therapy I will go that route too.
Lions Mane is great for cognitive health.
Keep exploring… you’ve got this.
I had no idea what Lions Mane was, I just googled it thx, will get me some 
