Transformation of the Goddess:Genesis/Hot/UA

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

Feels good to be back! Im not only excited for what the future holds but one of my main goals is to live in the present moment taking on obstacles and challenges with courage.living a life of adventure with nothing holding me back. Focusing on my passion and purpose while I’m here on this earth and discovering what that is. Today I am starting genesis and next week possibly Helen of Troy since genesis seems a bit intense I might just listen alone for a while but I’m definitely taking my time with genesis and we shall see.I’m a long time user of seductress and love that program but Helen of Troy is definitely something I have wished for since my goal wasn’t really to be a seductress but more so a desire for physical shifting and self love and confidence and to see true beauty in myself. Once my health and finances are back in order I will be listening to ultimate artist again that program had me on fire i felt unstoppable. I am also looking for a mentor / life coach I know I need some support with all the life changes I’m making. Hoping genesis leads me to the right support.

Genesis 1 15 min Loop every other day
Started on 06/16/23

[Detective_L]

All the best on your journey!

[hyperbeam]

It is good to have you back on here.

[TheEmpress]

Following your thread

Looking forward to seeing your progress & shared experiences. I’m debating the same stack.

Been washing out from HoT Genesis & LB.

Dropping LB.

Swinging between Stark & UA mostly for my 3rd title.

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

I have been on point with my listening schedule I did add Hot to my stack and I feel Genesis and Hot hasn’t been overwhelming so I’m sticking with it. I haven’t really noticed any intense changes I started applying for jobs again and really thinking about my purpose but I have so many ideas in my head everything is so choppy I do finally have the courage to file for divorce even if it causes some obstacles which I have feared for so long I’m just like bring it on I’m ready for whatever I’m sick of living in torment with a person who doesn’t love me and doesn’t want to grow or evolve it’s holding me back so I’m taking accountability and putting action beind my intent. My hospital experience revealed all I needed to know or confirmed what I already knew but shifted me out of a state of denial. I was in the hospital for 2 weeks I went in for severe back pain and because I felt like my body was shutting down. When I got there and they ran labs they found out my hemoglobin levels were dangerously low the medical staff was amazed that I was still alive I had to get 3 blood transfusions and then 3 days of iron infusions once that was done and my levels went up I was discharged but was admitted back the next day because I had an infection in my arm from the IV and they also found a blood clot which was about half the size of my bicep the pain was so extreme I couldn’t t feed myself dress myself all I could do was lay there in the hospital bed. I will say this experience was needed to catapult me out of my state of stagnation and misery and to gain courage to make changes it was definitely a rebirth I didn’t hear or see my husband the whole time I was in there well I got one txt saying feel better. I was thinking to myself this guy is a joke my mom slept over at my house and watched my daughters while my husband stayed in the basement the whole time getting drunk playing call of duty and sleeping until he had to go to work. Then a few days after I got home he went on vacation to Tennessee sooooo I’m saying all this to say it’s been a journey this is not the first experience I’ve had like this multiply is by 9 years . It was such a blessing and gift to see a program like Genesis the day I got home from the hospital because I kept asking the divine for courage and strength to get me out of this pit I’ve been in get me out of stagnation and omg Genesis is keeping me going and giving me that courage and zest for life my experience made me grateful for life definitely and I appreciate all the little things now like being able to use my hands, being able to get out of bed and just simply walking with no pain. Since ive started Genesis I’ve also been looking into moving to another state. I would like to move out of the country eventually or at least travel outside of it first baby steps. My biggest priority is finding work getting caught up on all my bills since my husband hasn’t paid them in 3 months even though he’s been working over time everyday smh… Anyways now I’m healthy enough to work and can walk again and my blood levels have stabilized. Ive been going through illness for the past year btw and the whole time he kicked me while I was down.Im over it and I have the tools I need to get through it I’m on the search for the best lucrative opportunity to move me and my daughters forward with ease. Once I start working I will be getting back to my artwork as well. As far as Hot goes my reflection is looking prettier I noticed while I was doing my mirror meditation last night. I haven’t weighed myself yet hoping the scale has went down instead of up.

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

OK so I just weighed myself when I went for a checkup last week I was 147 now I’m down to 136 so I lost that 10 pounds

[TheEmpress]

Could you get started now on your art?

Even just a little everyday.

What is your art?

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

I don’t have the money for supplies right now for the art I usually do lots of chemicals and paints and canvas. so I have been doing AI art in the mean time and I created a new youtube channel it’s a mix of my art and spiritual knowledge so doing content creation for now until all my free subscription trials run out lol

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

This is some of my artwork

The is AI

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

One of my paintings

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

A few more

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

My new spiritual youtube channel I created a few days before I went into the hospital I finally made my first short yesterday since being back home.

Spiritual Tools Guide

[TheEmpress]

I want that painting !!!

[TheEmpress]

Here’s mine

Jess Lynn Coaching & Healing

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

Awesome thanks for sharing @Earth_Angel

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

Thinking about adding RICH to my stack

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

Omg it’s been 9 days since I’ve updated my journal really!!I feel like time is passing me by I can’t keep up and like things are moving slow but flying all at the same time. I added RICH to my stack
I’ve been running
Genesis & HOT
Rest
Rich
I’ve been up for over 24 hours with no sleep trying my best to journal something since it’s been a while really wanted to do better at documenting so I could track my progress. Family and friends have been contacting me more and trying to support yesterday I finally got a burst of energy(after spiritual egg cleanse)to redo my resume i started at 2pm and finally finished at 5:30 am my daughters were cranky and fighting all day cause of the heat so that delayed my process a bit​:woman_facepalming:t5:❤‍🔥once I was done searched for jobs didn’t find much then started doing some research on more artistic side hustles everything seems to exhaust me especially after having a marriage talk with my husband my 2 brothers came over to mediate and support I thought with them being there I would have the courage to finally end things but it was the same as all the other talks we had my husband has these preprogrammed responses and sticks to them so we get nowhere especially because they are mostly lies In the past I get frustrated and usually just go silent end the talk and keep my distance but this time around I was definitely more assertive called him out on his bs Genesis isn’t letting me let this go anymore I am highly agitated with the situation and feel like I’m being forced into change I want to get out of stagnantion and start living my life to it’s fullest fullfilling my passion and purpose but part of that is letting this toxic relationship go it drains so much of my energy I feel like the gate to opportunity and success is locked until I move on from this situation. So I’m focused on doing what I need to do to get there keep on with the job search continue getting legal advice for the divorce and since I don’t quailify for any financial assistance according to the meeting I had on Friday I’m just going to try and fill out all the paperwork on my own without a lawyer submit it to courts hopefully he will comply and fill out his part this time without acting like a stubborn 5 year old and go from there . Although I’m still recovering from all my health issues it seems to be improving my blood count hasn’t dropped which is a great sign I’m still weak and overwhelmed most of the time but i know it’s upstream from here and i actually had a productive week and working on getting things in order so my daughters can start off their school year with peace excitement and stability and a healthy mother that gives them all the love and guidance they deserve. Since I’ve started genesis I’ve been wanting to move a fresh start oh yes finances and bills a mess right now well to be expected I’m unemployed and my husband doesn’t contribute but…… I am feeling more enthusiastic about my job search since starting r.I.c.h I might even go back and read a gallery of Magick book I know it helped me last time I think I read magickal riches it’s been a while my magickal practices have been slacking since being sick had no energy. Since I’ve been out of the hospital I’ve been more interested in learning about much different energies this time around Azazel keeps coming to my mind and visions I usually work with angels but I feel like I’m being pulled in a different direction this discussion maybe for my subclub black journal. Ok im all over the place about to listen to my genesis and hot loops meditate on what direction im going in with my occult practices I need to tap back in As Above So Below.

[TheEmpress]

How are things?

What ya listening to now?

[BeautifulSoulGoddess]

Hey things are good started a new job been adjusting I was listening to Helen of Troy and Genesis and revolution of the mind then took a break trying to figure out my next stack I love Seductress definitely going to run that for some boosted confidence I have to look into the new wealth sub that came out have some catching up to do. How are you?

[TheEmpress]

Nice

I just started my new stack of seductress UA and LME.

Things are improving over here.