As strange as this may sound I feel that I am beginning to understand what it is I want more than anything at this moment. Power. Not necessarily power over others although Iām sure that will happen eventually but power over myself. Power over my fear , insecurities, over whatever it is thatās holding me back or not allowing me to be strong and confident.
I want that and extreme assertiveness. I know that may sound weird but Iāve spent so much of if not my entire life I have allowed people to treat me like a doormat. Always backing down and giving in to avoid any conflict or confrontation. A man shouldnāt be that way. He should be strong enough mentally and emotionally and resilient enough to do and face whatever it is that needs to be done or taken care of.
The internal power and frame of a God