Thoughts and Rambles

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@MAkh

My goals are this, on top of just getting a deeper exploration of RAIKOV and deep trance identification. On some level, these phenomena exist because there’s a lack of separation between us and other, which gets utilized through our visual system (and others). I want to understand that more. Unconscious mirroring could be considered a branch of this. I want to dive deep into all of that, on top of having the mental clarity to explore my inner world as these processes happen. Plus RAIKOV has been helping in multiple domains at once, despite me not even having a discrete model for all of them. It’s a huge sleeper that I’m gonna try my best to take advantage of. I might find it having a long term place in my stack because it’s just that beneficial. Something on the level of ASBR to me IMO.

EDIT: Plus the Essence module because I just couldn’t help it after reading the description. Just that alone makes me excited, and I know I’ll be able to apply it to the rest of my stack too

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Ran my loops today and just naturally started thinking about my immediate desires. I started to feel intuitive nudges almost like an inner voice guiding me to the changes that needed to be made. I would think of something, and a part of me would automatically summarize part of the script back to me, sometimes in a sentence, sometimes just one word to focus on consciously.

The Real-Time Correction Engine

What if you had a coach inside your head every time you practiced, giving you gentle pointers in the moment? That’s essentially what this feature provides – an intuitive, instant feedback system. As you perform a task, your heightened awareness (fueled by all the expert patterns you’ve absorbed) will start catching errors or suboptimal moves immediately. It’s remarkably subtle and encouraging – you might just get a small hunch “try a slightly different grip,” or a feeling that you should slow down your pace here, adjust your angle there. Then, almost automatically, you correct it on the fly.

It feels a lot like this from RAIKOV. This inner conversation (that continued after the loops) got interrupted a bit when someone started talking to me. When it ended and I went back to center, I realized that one of the changes I was thinking about had already been integrated. Like a frame of mind shift. The moment my focus went away from it, it had room to integrate.

I’m excited to work more with RAIKOV on a deeper and more experimental level. I feel like that result may have been a direct effect of me broadening the sub’s focus to fit my entire life. I have specific skills I want to acquire, people I want to model in certain areas too, but I want to just get better at learning and the RAIKOV process in general. I guess part of that is also being able to identify parts of the script and how to integrate those into me.

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Imagined being rumored as someone that can replicate anything they see after just seeing it once.

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It feels like I have the freedom to embody as much of my stack as I feel like. Things move standardly like the normal subliminal growth, but I’m able to consciously resolve recon. That means if I want something, I can feel what structure is limiting me and consciously work with it to turn it into something more beneficial. It feels a lot like choosing where to allocate resources and how to invest time. “Do I want to work on this more personal thing that will improve comfort, or this more external one that will improve how I socialize?” Or, is there something hidden even deeper than those two options that resolves both in a clearer and more innovative way? What if they were never two structures to begin with? Just illusions that my mind created to make sense of them.

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As we dream, our identity naturally changes. Perspectives, physics, backstories, and contexts change. What does that mean for RAIKOV? What is the inherent difference between a dream version of me and a person that I want to be? If I can effortlessly and fluidly be the dream me, what does that mean for a model?

A step outside of RAIKOV too. Identity is only created so we can make sense of the world. This room is mine, this voice is mine. But outside of this superficial designation, isn’t this boundary constructed? What exists underneath it? What is empathy, what is mirroring?

Is there some invisible current that I’m not seeing? One that runs through the existence of identity?

Everything is a latent ability if we think about it.

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Started getting memories of dreams from the past few days too. A LOT of it is RAIKOV. It’s like my brain naturally going through old models I used to have (before I even knew what RAIKOV was, back when I was just naturally trying to be like them) and naturally switching between them. Before I fully fell asleep, I was able to note 3 different perspective and focus jumps. The transitions were so smooth and yet so different. No overarching inner dialogue, just my mind naturally switching from things like overall academic stuff to navigating logic to going over virtual interview skills.

I haven’t even been consciously guiding RAIKOV to all of this, it just naturally understands what I want when I think about developing it as a general skill that I use in every area of my life. Hyped for my name embed and being able to control everything with super clarity. This has the potential to surpass ASBR in terms of sheer application and RoD in being my favorite title. I also don’t need constant exposure like I did with older titles. Loop effects are really long-lasting. Like instead of me pondering on the concepts and that taking up my processing, it feels like I’m receiving instructions that last for days that I’m still finding ways to implement.

This is definitely the title to find innovative applications of. I was just scratching the surface by modeling my stack yesterday. That inner coach was present throughout all of my dreams too.

EDIT: I’m getting the feeling that Omnidimensional from ASBR might be bleeding into this. My stack typically has a lot of interplay. If that’s the case, then it makes sense that RAIKOV is also integrating with the other titles, since it sees those as open avenues. It just feels like the moment I want something, the inner coach is like “Oh really? Here you go” and shows me exactly what I need to do or what aspect of WDB or ASBR to pull from. Imagine having this, on top of every single learning benefit, actual RAIKOV boost, with the confidence and playful experimentation. I feel like at some point it’s not necessarily going to be RAIKOV anymore, but me redirecting its own innovation scripting to be used on itself. Then it’s just my own special ability I use to learn and get what I want. And this is ignoring the potential manifestation capabilities that come from the visualization that’ll be boosted by the name embed. I’ll just find my own new way to exist LOL

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@Wonders I know this is from over a month ago, but my dreams were pretty time dilated last night. It happened with less of an intention of “compress time like this” and more that the timescale of the dream matched how much more I needed to work on. Some felt like they went 3x faster, others like an entire hour went by in a single second. I guess it’s more of an automatic thing where my focus is more on the tasks themselves, rather than the dream management.

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That’s awesome!
Congratulations on mastering that skill!

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I can now stand face to face with the concepts that used to cause me recon when I first started (unconscious, but I can recognize the feeling as something that caused me a lot of pain to acknowledge before). Inner sovereignty has been pretty strong today.

It feels like my main issues now stem from being able to separate myself from me in a more professional context. Sending emails, work stuff, etc, but even simple things like social obligations can get caught in it. Thinking about your advice @Wonders about the separation that people with fame have. It feels like there needs to be a more “stand in” image me that does all of those things, so that the me that likes being in my own bubble stays unaffected.

RAIKOV might be acting like a booster with it quickly identifying and guiding me to consciously address these things.

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Social aspects of RAIKOV helping me understand how someone is thinking when I’m interacting with them. They worded that sentence that way? This idea comes first in their mind then. They tend to focus on this other thing a lot, the same concept is reoccurring in different ways in the way they talk.

I also feel like I’m coming to understand myself in little mundane ways too. I like the continuous understandings that unfold over time. Yesterday I talked about wanting a mental stand-in version of me so that I won’t be as affected by things in my own bubble. Now it’s partially that I don’t necessarily like getting involved in too many things with other people. I make friends but drift after a year or so, typically because they never made it to that inner bubble. It’s related a lot to my growth too. Like, that inner bubble is both a connection to my younger self that’s more vulnerable, but also to my future self that always acts as the one that maintains the bubble and my younger self’s safety. Only people that I feel resonate with those other parts of me are the ones that I stay with for a longer period of time. I guess the easier way to say that is someone I can be vulnerable with and grow with. I’m fine being on my own 90% of the time, so it’s not like I need too many people that fit that role. I like being social and being with people, but only once I’m already out of that inner oriented state.

Which eventually comes back to that mental stand-in. The one that’s social and interacts with everyone that I’m not on that close personal level with. Responding to emails might be the longest bad habit of mine that I’ve drawn out. It might’ve just been a cry for help all this time. I shouldn’t involve my inner child in everything I do. There should be a buffer between my true self and the world so that I’m not vulnerably putting myself out there 24/7.

I was thinking about this in terms of a seeming contradiction where I both like people that keep things purely professional or in whatever context they started (classmate is just a classmate, coworker just a coworker, etc) but how I also enjoy when that context serves as just a single way we connect. So, I both like relationships having a strict purpose, but also that purpose being broken. It begins to make sense once I put in the context of resonating past a superficial level.

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I think my dream memory has temporarily decreased because they’re becoming more difficult to understand in standard logical terms. I can’t fully remember the content, but from a nap earlier I remember accidentally distorting so many dreams as I was falling asleep. If I had a thought it immediately distorted the dreams reality, transported me, changed gravity and time as if a huge gravitational object were now altering space-time, etc. GPT’s finding nice ways to reword and connect the experiences to CS terms which are making it a little easier for me to understand. This is definitely increased lucidity, I guess I’m just waiting for my perception to catch up to it. I’m also getting better at perceiving my subconscious’s processing while I’m awake. The same kind of dream imagery and overlay are used, so it’s mostly a matter of being able to perceive it for a second and snap back. Thinking a lot about the concept of mindscapes and brainscapes now. Understanding complex equivalence from NLP/hypnosis is helping to decode these things a bit, even if sometimes the equivalence is from such a strange angle it’s hard to see at first.

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(Multiple thoughts and rambles incoming since I’ll be traveling)

I think it’s interesting how dream logic bends the world. Just thinking about something or having a feeling leads the world to directly change as a reaction to it. It’s like an interaction between thought and dream reality. If I have a conscious thought about something, the world bends around it, almost as if the world itself is responding in its own sort of “language.” When in that dream state, my conscious thoughts and feelings are naturally connected to something deeper, something that’s underlying the dream that causes the world to change. It’s like a hidden conversation. The words that represent that thought and the dream world itself act as the outward expressions of the inward interaction. The feeling behind the thought and something behind the world are engaging in their own interaction or information exchange.

Isn’t this similar to how we believe subliminals and manifestation work? We’re connecting to something deeper based on our feelings that we can only interpret based on our thoughts. And then we see manifestations/coincidences, or reality “distorting” around that interaction. What are we connecting deeper to, and how strong is this kind of ability? Sometimes they’re smaller coincidences that happen, but other times they’re so huge that it feels like they alter the trajectory of so many other things, even other people’s lives. What’s the parallel between these two things, what’s the nature of this interaction between a deeper self and reality? Why is it that our desires somehow get prioritized and fast-tracked compared to billions of other people? It has to do with that nature of connection with that deeper self I think. Whatever that deeper self has, it can then engage in a conversation or interaction with reality, in which reality then begins to change around the desires we have. Our control isn’t as strong compared to our own dreams presumably because there’s so many other people also in that same interaction. But sometimes it genuinely does feel like the control is strong enough that it completely overpowers everyone else’s interaction.

I guess different manifestation methods are just the different attempts to have that interaction and conversation, but involve someone’s conscious mind rather than letting it be fully unconscious.

I want to learn more about this interaction, both as it exists in myself (and my dreams) and in the world. It really does feel like starting a sentence and letting reality finish it.

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Dream follows thought.

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Just so happened to get my plane seat upgraded despite not getting an alert for it. I asked the woman next to me if it was really that row number and she said yeah, she didn’t pay for an upgrade either. Must’ve been some kind of synchronicity because we got to talking and it turns out she’s a Reiki healer with really interesting perspectives. Talked about a lot and the conversation naturally turned to the subs here. She downloaded LBfH and looked really interested. It felt like an info dump tbh but I hope she follows up on it. Lovely to talk to and it was a pleasant surprise since I usually don’t move past pleasantries with seat mates. Credit to WDB for having me not immediately go antisocial mode with putting my headphones on and shutting out the world. I had a feeling to keep them off for a little bit and that’s when the conversation started.

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I feel like recently a lot of the recon from two years ago has come back. Not in the sense that I haven’t grown, but more that my mind thinks I’m able to reconcile everything that used to scare me. My favorite way of thinking about reconciling is that when it starts getting intense out of nowhere, that’s when you know you’re getting close to something deep. It’s like my motivation for everything is being attacked, which doesn’t make sense when first, I’m losing motivation for things that I’ve already been doing. Why would I get a feeling of “this isn’t working” when I’m actively doing things that are working? I feel as if I can’t actively see myself in these next few months, which almost always means some big inner shift is happening. The self-doubt I’m feeling regarding one specific career action I want to take got really strong today. Like, all I have to do is finish what I’ve started and been doing for the past two months and now all of a sudden I’m getting doubts that it won’t work out, despite literally 3 manifestations in a row all leading me towards this. Part of it is that I’m in a similar environment to where I was when I first started ASBR, both physically and opportunity wise. But I’m stronger now, not to mention in a 10x better position. I’ll just keep pushing like I always do.

On an unrelated note, RAIKOV feels stronger than normal strength subs. WDB feels normal to me, ASBR feels like a special case since I’d already eliminated all recon on the normal build before I jumped up. But RAIKOV feel like it doesn’t “decay” as quickly, if that makes sense. Scripting gets processed and typically leaves my head in a day or two for me, but RAIKOV stays for days. I’m glad I’m getting this name embed, but I’m really going to have to be more aware of its processing to avoid overload or overwhelm of the ego loosening scripting. I know I’m not utilizing my quick growth or flow factor to its fullest potential, I guess I’m just trying to make sense of where exactly I want to go before I go full throttle on abandoning my old self.

[Philemon]

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I guess I’m just trying to make sense of where exactly I want to go before I go full throttle on abandoning my old self.

Damm. Thats exactly what C&C is doing for me at the moment.

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A lot of reflection going on on the forum lately for those of us running the newer releases.

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If any other experimenters want to try something, Regen as a stress modulator (and rest encourager) on top of a normal stack works well for me. Typically not full loops. Interested to know if this is just an individual processing limit thing or if anyone else reaps benefits from this.

[Philemon]

Are you using ASBR, RAIKOV, ROD and then Regen as a 4th?

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I remember reading somewhere that 7 seconds of Regen would be enough to activate part of the inner spa feature. Dont quote me on this though.