I’ve been noticing how strong the recent titles are. I think since about Regen is when they picked up. Maybe Wanted was the last one that felt “normal”. I want to say it’s the density, but I wouldn’t even know how to vocalize that, I doubt they just started ballooning the scripts in size or increasing the builds. But there’s a distinct difference between a title like Inner Circle or True Social and Dream Boy or RAIKOV. The effects stay longer, processing is more spread out over time, and they just generally have a stronger mental effect. Maybe I should take a few days to compare again since I know I’ve grown a lot in these past few months, but I can’t help feeling it’s the subs themselves too. They got more powerful while I wasn’t looking. Absolutely excited for the future. Waiting to see what the artisan title upgrades will look like with anti-recon and adaptive scripting backing them.
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thanks for the recommendation ^^
Compared to back when I tried it a few months ago, I think I can directly work with ASBR as it’s processing now without getting “kicked out.” Could be related to my interleaved listening yesterday, but I also think I’m just more acclimated to jumping down deeper and understanding my subconscious more. Possibly some growth + Clear Sight action going on.
Forgot my dream (and interpretation) at the last second though so… tradeoffs I guess.
It hasn’t even been a full two weeks, no way I’m giving up on mastering these things yet. Every result keeps acting as a reminder to me of how perfect my stack is for me right now.
My ability to detect subtle recon cues and follow the cues to find the source has gotten so much better.
First, I didn’t sleep as much as I should have. I know better, especially after a heavy listening day. I woke up just down for some reason, when I very much didn’t need to be. Detected that anything related to socializing or opening up was causing discomfort. A few probing thoughts and I was able to tie it back to an exact time period having to do with some self-worth issues I’ve been glossing over, hoping that they would resolve themselves.
Immediately conked out and my dream had to do so much with yesterday, just twisted around and emphasizing the symbols I needed to get.
I was working on music, and this girl was there with me, super intrigued by everything and the entire process. She was someone I knew could be judgey, yet she was completely open and just wanting to learn and see how I did things. We were at my grandparents’ house and came up on some old gadgets (probably the best word to summarize, literally just things I made) I’d made when I was younger, and I was explaining the stories behind them. I was also giving family some advice on something that they were considering, since I had a point of view that I thought was valid that differed from what they were saying. At some point the other side of my family came over, celebrating my mom’s birthday (I directly questioned this in the dream since I knew it wasn’t the right month, but there wasn’t a response and the dream didn’t end). The girl was completely fine meeting and talking to all of them, which made me a little shocked since I didn’t think I was “worthy” of someone actually wanting to know about all of my life and staying with me.
This forms such a huge continuity with the past few days, both dreams and real events. I was right on the money with what structure was being worked with, I even walked through it as if it were some kind of building before I fully fell asleep. Just exploring all of its intricacies and how it was built. The dream itself was just showing me (like yesterday with the girl and the rest of my friends) that I can be comfortable sharing more of myself, without worrying as much about what they’ll think of me. Those parts make up the me that they see anyway, it’s not as if hiding them did anything but cause me more worry. These aren’t even insecurities or a dark past or anything, I literally just felt uncomfortable with people seeing multiple facets of my life. I’m used to code-switching and only talking about things immediately relevant to the context, so even the people that think they know me well don’t end up seeing a lot of what’s there. Even me giving my opinion without shame represents that too (probably in the context of more “professional” environments and giving advice).
Combined with the past few days, it’s giving me the feeling that this structure doesn’t necessarily want to be burned off. It wants to grow, it wants to be reformed and help me move forward. I’ll keep directing my efforts in helping that, even applying it in the context of ASBR since that’s how my listening was.
I think I’ll call the listening I did yesterday the interleaved strategy. I used to think interleave was a made up word and pun that was used in one of my homeworks, but lo and behold it actually means something (and something useful). Just more proof I very much don’t know everything and am continuing to learn. I think WDB also hit deeper listening like that, which is why all of the signs from yesterday and today were so obvious. I feel much better after the nap and feel like the initial friction is getting reconciled and resolved smoothly. It’ll take more than that dream, but I at least know the direction to steer things now.
More just a small synchronicity within myself, but as I was traveling a few weeks ago I had the urge to listen to a specific song. The same song now just played in the background of this episode I’m finishing.