Thoughts and Rambles

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#1

I already have an offline journal I’ve been using but think it’ll be nice to also have a public one too where I just talk about whatever comes to mind as I listen. Feel free to give advice or a different perspective, or just comment if you find anything interesting!!

Did my first loop of RoD in months and halfway through I immediately just felt really happy. My favorite sub without a doubt, just wishing I could figure out a good custom combination to keep it in my stack year round since other ones take priority during the semester.

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#2

Wondering a lot about the things that are left unsaid right now. Whenever I get dreams about someone contacting me out of the blue, they usually involve a paragraph or much longer message than what I actually end up getting. I sometimes wish I’d be able to read the full original message that got sent to me in the dream.

The feelings we have about the people in our lives are almost never fully expressed, and it feels like that’s part of the source of regret I feel or see other people feeling. “I wish I had told them this”, “I wish I had been able to express this clearer”, “I wish they were able to understand what I meant when I said this”. Sure, there are forms of unconscious communication that go on during interactions, but there’s a lot that goes unsaid, and it’s difficult to pick up on all of that 24/7.

I feel like my biggest regrets come from being unable to be at my 100% best 24/7 and able to pick up on what’s unsaid, knowing exactly what to say or do, being unable to do something I could do naturally in another specific circumstance. Just a small amount of extra effort on my part could lead to incredible change in such a short time in ways I couldn’t imagine, yet I also feel tired and unable to sustain that effort for an entire day, there are things I need to get done and parts when I need to have that kind of focus to be in my own bubble. It almost feels like a video game that’s impossible to 100%, I can’t get every ending because it feels unsustainable to choose and max out every possible path, so I just settle for a little bit of a lot, and maxing out in the few areas close to me. Maybe this is why I feel like my identity has changed so much recently, like I’m flowing in and out of those different paths based on how far out of the way I am to them that day.

It feels almost related to manifestation in a way, questions manifest an answer, requests manifest an action. I’ve gotten to the me that I am now because of all of those times I chose to say something, I chose to manifest an answer to those feelings that acted as a question. I reach out about an opportunity, and I receive either an open or closed door as the answer. In the same way, I’m presented with something, and my engagement acts as the answer. Someone reaches out via text or email, I respond, quite literally “answering” the message. The courage it takes to reach out IS what manifests the encounter, and at that point the answer I get is out of my hands, dictated by thousands of forces I have no influence over. When a manifestation comes to us, we still have the opportunity to accept or reject it, closing or opening that door, we’re on the other end of that question-answer interaction. The paths I choose not to take are me answering my own question, choosing either a rejection or reallocation of my own time and effort.

In a way, I guess those paths are their own little thing left unsaid by me, feelings I won’t express because they’re too far out of the reach of that me that I am today.

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#3

Huge manifestation that a few months ago I’d be over the moon about. It feels so natural now that it honestly doesn’t feel like it was “manifested” at all, just the natural course. Also coming at the perfect time too, ZPQ for the win.

#4

Notes from today

Another result with the potential to be huge, waiting to hear more development. Very much seeing what Omnidimensional is adding

I also feel as if, at least with ASBR, a lot of the scripting is latent, just waiting for outward expression. I’m not running a business, but whenever I find myself thinking about the management of one, I get super critical and start thinking about the fine details. I’m not a celebrity, yet I have dreams of being in the spotlight and it feels natural, and I feel my personality becoming more compatible with the idea of being famous. It feels as if the changes have already happened, but they’re just waiting for the right scenario to come out and express themselves, if that makes sense. I’m honestly excited to see how the changes express themselves, since for the most part the sub feels as if it’s been working in the background of my life. It’s something I feel the immediate effects of, but maybe since I’m so used to the scripting, it’s not as if I get an immediate boost after a loop where I’m like “Fuck yeah I’m totally Stark Black.” I said honestly excited, I’m actually REALLY excited to see how the script will begin to express itself. It feels like everything will start converging and coming together soon. There’s just a little more growth and personal development needed on my part

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#5

I also feel that ever since I started being a little lighter on myself in expressing how I feel and just letting myself sit and really feel my emotions, a lot of my recon’s gone away. There’s still mild symptoms here and there, but for the most part it’s just me observing how much I’m processing at a given moment and seeing what I can do to aid in that, along with balancing it with my daily life. I’ve also found that my results have been a lot faster and more profound. It’s nice thinking about how all of this started with my RoD run and how Stark Black picked up the slack once I had to swap it out for something else.

#6

New goal: To start utilizing time dilation while dreaming.

I usually have about 3 in depth dreams that I remember a night (7-9 hours), with the rest either being memory consolidation, future planning, or projection of something I want to happen. If I can narrow my focus and perspective small near the beginning of the sleep cycle, I might be able to experience the dreams slower, on top of having better memory of the other processes.

#7

Got a strong feeling of relaxation right before one of my meetings got cancelled.

I also felt this a few weeks ago when one day I just felt really open and happy, and it was like an aura switch flipped on. Strangers would walk by me and just say hi with zero prompting. I usually have a pretty closed off baseline, so the moment that changed the results were insane. I also remember talking to a cashier for a bit but out of respect for the line behind me kinda cut things short, and it was almost like a bubble popping. When I took a small step back it was like he realized he completely zoned out talking to me and had to snap back to reality. Waiting for the days I’m not bombarded with work and get to feel this on a daily basis.

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#8

I went to bed last night with the goal of narrowing my focus and started talking with a dream character. I was pretty exhausted mentally and had taken some melatonin, and she told me that if I narrowed my focus infinitesimally small, I wouldn’t be able to rest well. I took her advice and instead focused on the sub processing stuff I usually let go on in the background, just resolving little fears and doubts. When I fully shifted to sleeping, it felt like so much was happening in such little time. I wasn’t able to perceive it all, but I remember having the thought “it’d be great if I could remember this to journal and analyze later” a LOT. My memory of it all is really vague, but it felt a lot like the timeloops I first got when starting ZPQ, just without any of the stress. Instead of worrying about things being figured out, they just naturally were, and I was working in harmony with myself to resolve them. I’m not sure if my actions were perfect, but they were good enough to resolve the dreams enough for them to keep coming. Memory consolidation and future projection definitely occurred along with this, almost intertwined with the dreams themselves. Not sure what kind of indicator that is, but everything just felt really peaceful overall.

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#9

Bam, another development that might make things even better. Gonna try to keep up the streak

#10

To me, the difference between microloops and full loops is how deep I want the subliminal to work in that moment. When listening to the full loop, recon is more likely since the concepts go deeper, which may in turn diminish someone’s results in processing the more digestible ones. In that way, it feels more like a game of investment. What kind of daily progress do I want? Listening to microloops leads to more obvious results the next day, which in turn helps the NSE help me grow. But at the same time, there are later parts of the script that I CAN process, ones that would have a deeper effect on my future than the ones I’m getting in only a few minutes. It feels like an investment game almost, “Can I handle this without breaking or succumbing to recon?” For me, I actually came to enjoy the recon process itself, since once I identified it, it meant that something was being worked on and resolved in me, like its own result in a way. Even now, if it follows the predictable structure of how it’s been in the past two years, I get a little excited whenever I feel it. Even if I don’t see anything working, I know something is going on beneath the surface.

Trying to make sure it doesn’t leave an impact on daily life is another issue. I forget what mental state I was in when I tried this, most definitely in recon hell a few months after starting ASBR. On the sales page, they go into detail about resilience and using obstacles as a stepping stone. Something clicked, and I realized that the script of the title could literally be used to counter the recon I felt on said title. It didn’t make the recon itself any weaker, but whenever my body intuitively recognized it was in recon, it was almost like an adrenaline rush. “Turning obstacles into stepping stones” is literally an interpretation of recon itself, since when I’m tested in this new identity, I can use it to prove both to myself and the world that I AM who I want to be, and my response to whatever recon I get would be an assertion of that. In a way, it’s almost like my own way of guaranteeing the daily progress on top of the deep work going on. Like a “you take care of the deep stuff, I’ll take care of this” kind of relationship with my subconscious.

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#11

I think I’m getting a ton of synchronicity? I’ve been trying to end every night asking for something that I’m working toward, and while it hasn’t been exact, every morning I wake up either feeling different or to some news I hadn’t expected. I’m not sure if it’s generating manifestations or just more of a growth thing and me recognizing every little thing that happens now, basically NSE on steroids.

I’m also a little confused and trying to parse what’s happening now. After getting a message from someone, completely unrelated to anything music at all, I suddenly had the urge to listen to a musical. I put it on and a few seconds later, I realize this person is someone that’s been dying to get on broadway. I’m not sure if it’s an unconscious memory thing, since I had known this for a while, or a sync thing, since that HAS happened quite a bit since upgrading ASBR. I also had a really good dream (that I conveniently can’t remember) around the time I received the message, although I can’t exactly confirm that.

I’m still trying to figure out why when it comes to messages I see in dreams, they’re always inexact. They typically contain some of the same content of the ones I actually get/already got, but they always include something else I didn’t, kind of reminiscent of their personality in a way that makes it believable and doesn’t flag me to think “this is off”. In another one I did remember, I had that exact case, but some other details were a bit off. It was like a simulation of something I’ll be doing today, and included some messages from the past few days, but even those messages had more detail than the ones I’d already had. I don’t want to immediately jump to a conclusion saying that I’m reading some thoughts either directed towards me or that were had at the time of the message, but I genuinely am confused right now since this is a constant thing that’s been happening for months.

Overall just confused as fuck but I’ll try to make sense of all three of these soon :v:.

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#12

I also don’t know if the specific song is significant to me or the situation, since it’s one I listened to a lot when I was younger, but I’ll try to think on that too

#13

I think this is definitely happening, since certain opportunities are also converging upon a specific goal that I also got led to recently. I think I was led to it as it started to unfold, some sort of in sync thing. Some of them feel too big to have only just started when I decided I wanted to reach that goal, but who knows, I could be off about that. Regardless, I don’t think it’s random and I love how there’s a clear point in time that my results can be distinguished from before and after upgrading ASBR.

I think this is just another being in sync thing, with my subconscious potentially leading me to be in more rapport with the person? Not too sure but it feels like it may have been along those lines.

This could very well be me reading some thoughts, but it may also be the inexact nature of memories. Regardless, the other details I had in the dream that I thought were incorrect ended up being similar to how the day unfolded. Small details that are a little too close to the real thing for me to completely brush them off. I’ll keep observing.

Despite waking up a bit in recon (just a light annoyance), I feel as though my processing is increasing again. Whereas before when I would experiment with seeing how long ZPQ processing took, it would take me days just to get through a single loop, I seem to be able to do the majority of processing in a single day or two, depending on how much downtime I have in the day or sleep I get. It’s really interesting because even despite being in that light annoyed mood, I felt good, almost empowered a bit. I’ll wait to see how things continue to go, but so far the “reality bending” nature of ZP seems to be showing itself in more obvious ways than it used to.

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#14

This is awesome, I’m very happy that you get to experience this through all these syncronicities, your goals coming to fruition :blue_heart:

Also, I have small questions that you will maybe find useful, feel free to answer or not, or even tell me to screw off, as it can be very personal :eyes:

Would you remember that these were not part of the original message if it were just memories being inexact?

Were these details the thoughts of the person, the thoughts you attributed the person based on nonverbal clues (including their aura), or your own thoughts at the time?

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#15

I would yeah. For some reason, I guess when I started RoD, I had zero intention of actually recognizing when I’m dreaming in the moment. It’s kind of irrelevant to me, since my original goal was just to understand how I process and to do more identity rehearsal while asleep. So instead of recognizing when I’m dreaming, I just act in all the ways I normally would, including thoughts and memories I have. So while I’m unconsciously creating these scenarios, I consciously have access to the memories behind them, if that makes sense.

I even have an example from this past night. I had a dream where I switched from a college scenario from a few weeks ago to high school. I didn’t experience any dissonance from that since I wasn’t analyzing anything in the moment, I just go with the flow and don’t think of what I’m experiencing as a dream. However, when there was an inconsistency in the high school memory, like a girl being in a specific class I knew she wasn’t in that year, I just physically called out the inconsistency. Rather than the dream ending or becoming traditionally lucid, she just laughed and agreed, and the dream logic itself changed. I kind of pride myself on having a good memory (and good unconscious reads of people, but I’ll get to that), so it’s pretty easy for me to tell when something like that is incorrect or missing/adding details.

(slight tangent incoming)

It’s cool how much the dream world is now becoming a mirror to reality. Like when first starting subs here and even a little after RoD, it was always desire mixed with a bit of reality, with that bit of reality being what changed night to night. But now, everything feels more integrated, to where I can see my reality reflected in almost every dream I have, and the desire part is now what’s fluctuating. I’m trying to make a little more sense of this now because when a dream is almost 100% pure desire or what I hope for the future, it almost always comes with its own personality or identity “update” that I get, leading to some change in how I live my daily life. I had one the night before I looked into RoD, the night before going back for the semester, and one the night after making my ZPQ purchase. All of which started drastic shifts in my thinking. I haven’t come to the “why” yet, but I think it’s nice how I can see the make up of these two elements interplaying every night.

100% thoughts from nonverbal cues, usually something picked up on from the past. I am very much a novice on understanding anything to do with aura, although I won’t count it out, but I used to be VERY much into NLP and hypnosis as a teenager, to the point that just from a few text messages and an interaction or two, I was able to fully analyze someone’s personality. It might have also been some kind of mini RAIKOV, since I’ve also had an experience of taking on someone’s personality to go from a short pleasantry text to hours of conversation and months of close friendship, I even still have the notes I was taking at the time. All that to say, even if I may not consciously do it now, the habits and the analysis still very much exist in the background with anyone I interact with, and I think that may be where the inaccuracies with the actual messages come from. The details that aren’t included usually touch on how the person is feeling, their motivation behind reaching out, how their day was, etc. The kind of thing I’d be actively picking up on when I was younger. So to answer your question, I guess technically it’s both? They’re the nonverbals and potentially aura of the other person, but they’re also kind of my own thoughts on those nonverbals since they’re formatted in the exact way I was used to thinking.

I have absolutely no problems answering your questions, it’s literally why I made a journal here! Talking with other people also helps me understand myself more and vocalize things I normally wouldn’t, like the text inaccuracies and desire vs reality scale of dreams. I’m just sorry it turned out a little long with that random tangent in the middle (I’m still gathering my thoughts a bit since I just woke up)

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#16

Had a kind of nightmare/anxiety dream for a little bit. Mostly just old fears resurfacing with some people that were in my life a while ago. But the funny part is that near the end of the dream, two new women who I’d never met in real life were there, and were actively cheering me up. It’s been a few listening days since my last WDB loop, yet it swooped in to save an otherwise depressing dream. It wasn’t even much, just talking with me, but displaying the exact same behavior I’ve seen in real life of people getting impacted by the aura. Absolutely wild.

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#17

Thanks for your answer, long format is perfectly ok with me, I do tend to write long messages myself lol

And yeah I asked the first message because you did sound like you have a great memory, hence why I was surprised you suggested your memory being inexact, but I get it with your exemple now :blush:

And yeah, it’s awesome being able to clearly communicate with the unconscious like that, it seem very useful in getting a deeper level of analysis over a situation, like with the additional details you get in your friend’s texts ^^

From what I understand (though only saint could answer for sure), aura seems to be an ensemble of non-verbal clues one give off, which makes my previous message quite an oxymoron… I mentioned aura thinking about people’s bio field, since the bio field along with neuron mirrors (like you said, mini raikov), the other person’s muscle tensions, and such can inform on the emotional state of someone on a subconscious level.

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#18

It’s nice, I just wish I could feel my conscious → unconscious communication was clearer. Like I feel I have to wait until I’m nearly asleep just to be able to clearly deliver a message in its “language”. The reverse happens naturally, to the point where I can feel dreams happening 24/7, or at least an understanding of the world that’s getting built unconsciously. Being able to tune in and understand that is fun.

I can try to find his theory from a while back, but I think he thought it was along the lines of subconscious thoughts corresponding to the biofield, with conscious ones corresponding to body language. Regardless, I have had a few experiences of feeling similar emotional states to people, but it’s super inconsistent and I don’t know how to approach it in a way that’ll not just lead to me getting bombarded with a ton of people’s emotions daily, rather than being able to choose when and how to tap into them.

Edit: Idk if I’m linking right, but here’s the thread
https://www.subliminalresults.com/t/main-disc-thread-the-new-love-bomb-2024-now-available-free-upgrade/21747/499?u=jelly

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#19

Annnnnnnd after an experiment I had where I didn’t necessarily write down my desire…

STILL got something related to it.

I guess I’m really gonna start going through tests of alignment to see if I can hold and bring all of the opportunities to fruition, but I’m confident I can grow into it fast enough.

I’m assuming the anxiety dream and recon I had today were related to this, since I can draw a parallel between every dream I had and becoming the version of myself that these opportunities would help me be.

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