The WANTED - 'Black Boy' Subliminal Experience 👣

[coal]

Introduction
This is my first journal ever lol

My name is Coal. I write books on Amazon when I’m less busy. I’m 5’9" tall. I had an accident that almost damaged my eyesight, and that’s why I’ve been listening to Paragon for almost two years now. Paragon helped me recover 2 diopters, but that was with 2 full loops (30 minutes), which makes me very exhausted and sleepy. Looking back now, I think I should have written a journal based on my Paragon journey, but I’ll do that once it’s updated.

But now that I’m a ‘WANTED BLACK BOY,’ it’s time to bask in the euphoria of sexiness.

Things You Should Know About Me Before Reading On

1. I’m near-sighted, so I can’t see a lot of steers or reactions from a distance.
2. I’m someone that doesn’t go out much, but I’ll try to change that because of WB.
3. I will be very honest with my experiences, and that might mean blunt and graphic descriptions.
4. I might not update this journal every day, but be rest assured that you won’t miss a thing.

Now that I’m done with the intro, let’s get started.

[Geoff]

Wrong forum section bro, move it to the ‘Journals section’, if you don’t know how then tag @RVconsultant to relocate it

[coal]

@RVconsultant please help me move this thread to the journal section and please explain to me so that i won’t make the same mistake next time.
Thanks, in anticipation

[RVconsultant]

It’s changed. When you start a thread, there is a menu under the box where you type the title of the thread. The menu allows you to designate what category.

[coal]

Okaaay Thanks Bro

[coal]

Week One

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Even though I’m still trying to find my way out of this maze, so far I’ve been amazed.

- Coal

Day 1

Loops: 30s
Result:
Once I was done with the loop, I took a walk, and I was very intentional about it. The intention wasn’t to pick up girls but to make new friends who would help me pick up girls—lol, this strategy never fails.

So, I had a few drinks and made a few friends, but one stood out in particular. He is friends with a lot of cute girls in that area, and that immediately made him more important than a gold coin as far as I’m concerned.

I thrive on social proof, so I surround myself with people that can give me that.

While I was on my way back, I saw SKG (lol, it’s an inside joke, the girl I talked about in Season 3: Fire Versus Saint). She acted like she was seeing me for the first time in her life, and I acted like no one was in front of me.

Day 2

Loops: None (Rest Day)
Result:
The Gold Coin was at my place (the guy I met at the bar). He was playing music at my place with a Bluetooth MP3 device. I wasn’t even paying attention to what he was saying because recon was creeping in gradually. Then I noticed SKG was in my compound.

She lives a few compounds from mine and has a friend that lives in my compound. I and that friend don’t talk either, but she and the girl also don’t always get along well, so I was surprised because she rarely comes to my compound except to see me when we were still a thing.

She made sure she was sitting somewhere she could get a clear view of me. Then she started raising her voice and laughing hard at her and her friends’ boring jokes. But I still wasn’t giving a fuck. The guy also noticed and tried to call my attention to it, but I just acted like it was nothing.

When she noticed it wasn’t working, she started talking to the Gold Coin. She wanted to use him to make me jealous, and he fell for it. I’m usually very calm in situations like this, but on this day, I wasn’t.

I realized I was also raising my voice, trying not to feel left out, but no one cared. She was telling him a lot of beautiful nonsense, and he was enjoying it.

I got really mad at him but still maintained a calm composure and said, “I think it’s time I go write some books. We’ll see later.” Then he said he would check back tomorrow.

Later that evening, I was outside my compound on a call when I noticed someone walking toward me—it was SKG. She sat very close to me (bodies touching) and said with a smile, “Can I make use of your headset?” I gave it to her, got up, and continued with my call. All the while, she just kept looking at me with so much lust and admiration.

Day 3 & 4

Nothing really, except SKG has been asking me for very random and irrelevant favors, trying to use them to start a conversation.

And the fact that I tried watching porn on Day 4 when I was bored but wasn’t finding it interesting at all.

Day 5

Loops: 30s
Result:
Now I’m desperate to get results after all the advice and love I received from the forum. I figured out WB is not a sub anyone should give up on.

So, I went shopping:

• I got new body sprays and roll-ons.
• Also got a new body lotion (all from the same brand—I didn’t even know there was a promo going on).
• I got a skipping rope (as there’s a limit to the kind of exercises I can do after my eye surgery).
• I got a few relevant supplements too.

Now I’m ready for whatever WB throws at me.

Day 6

Loops: None (Rest Day)
Result:
Getting out of bed on this day was a bit of a struggle because I was very tired after having a few dreams that I couldn’t make anything out of. But I felt a little better after exercising and taking the supplements (nothing too serious, just vitamin C and some other basic multivitamins).

I called The Gold Coin and reminded him about a hangout event he said we were both going to attend on this day (that’s me being desperate to see results, lol).

We were at the hangout all through the day, and I can tell you there was a whole lot of 9s and 10s at this event.

Guess what!? I wasn’t noticed by any of the girls, except one guy who recognized me and kept showering me with praises. This guy knew me from way back when I was quite successful in my field until I had an accident that messed things up. That was the last he saw of me until this day. Knowing that he is even more successful now than I was then even made my day worse than it was already.

The girls started paying me more attention, but I knew it was because of the guy’s reaction, so at that point, I just wanted to go home.

On a lighter note, I think WB took a sleeping pill on this day lol.

When I eventually got home, I saw SKG in front of my compound. She gave me a hug and told me there’s something she has to tell me. I knew she just wanted me inside her, so I told her with a smile, “Let’s make it tomorrow because I’m so tired now.” I had to be less cocky that night because I was really tired and because she would not stop.

I fell on my bed but couldn’t sleep. It was like I had a conflict with myself. It was so crazy that I had to convince myself I was on the right path, even though I wasn’t sure. I also came to the conclusion that if SKG doesn’t bring up the topic she is trying to avoid, I will keep being cocky AF. Then I fell asleep.

Day 7

Loops: 30s
Result:
What a day. After finishing my daily routine, I felt so good. I really can’t explain this feeling, but I know I felt so good about myself—a complete opposite of how I felt yesterday.

I was outside my compound having a conversation with a random guy on my street, talking about yesterday’s UEFA Champions League games, how my team (Arsenal) trashed Sporting CP and how Man City gave away a 3-goal lead. Then I noticed there was a girl around where we were having the conversation. She was so cute, and she was paying attention to our discussion. By the way, this is the first time I noticed this girl.

A few minutes later, SKG came out, sat near me, and was expecting me to make the first move. She was doing it in the most annoying way, with a lot of pride. In my head, I was like, is this not the same girl I saw yesterday night?

Then her friend joined her. They know I’m near-sighted, so whenever they want to get my attention, they raise their voices so I will look in their direction. But this time, it was so different. Her friend, who also doubles as my neighbor, was standing beside me and was twerking. She was so close to me that if I stretched my arm, it would touch her ass.

Normally, when things like this happen, I usually just look away. But this time, I focused on her ass so much that I wanted to do something naughty, but I respect boundaries, so I said, “Can you do that on a dick though?” She giggled and ran off without looking at me. SKG just got up and left. Even though she tried to hide her anger and jealousy, it was pretty obvious to me and her friend.

Her friend ran after her while I was still trying to figure out what the fuck just happened in amazement. Let’s give her friend a name, I’ll call her MN because something tells me she will appear a lot more in this journal, lol.

A few minutes later, I saw MN walking quickly into the compound with guilt written all over her face. MN is 21, SKG is 19, these girls are proud AF. I’ve been living in the same compound with MN for over a year, and we’ve never had a 2-minute conversation before, so what has changed now—lol?

I’m also noticing that recon is reducing, so is anxiety and fatigue. Now something is telling me to increase a loop to 3 minutes, and that’s exactly what I will do on Day 9.

I’ll write about the next week’s results soon, so stay tuned.

[coal]

Week Two

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This distorted and indecisive person might look like me but he his not me

Coal

Day 8
Loops: None (Rest Day)
Result:
I worked on a new book interior all through the day. Late at night, it was too late to go out.

But I had a dream, and it went like this: I moved into a new apartment, a very small one at that. My friend and I were tidying up the place when suddenly an army of very cute girls, led by a man, barged in on us and started searching the whole place. One of the girls found gold earrings in the couch and gave them to the guy. I explained to him that I found the couch there when I moved in, and he said, “Okay,” and they all left.

Then I told my friend we should go outside to get something to eat. When we stepped out, the girls were still waiting for me. This time, it felt like their number had multiplied by ten, and they looked like they wanted to attack me. So I ran back inside and locked the door. Then I woke up.

Day 9
Loops: 3 min
Result:
I started my cardio exercises, and one of my neighbors joined me. When we were done, he suggested we take a walk, so we did.

We stopped at a supermarket to buy some things. It was a girl and her mom attending to us. While I was buying my stuff, my neighbor started hitting on the girl—he just went straight in and asked for her number. She said no, and I noticed her mom wasn’t too comfortable either.

I immediately called the girl’s attention to something near the entrance, and we stepped aside. I said a few things to her that made her laugh and then asked for her number. She gave it to me. After we paid, her mom suddenly became all friendly to me, not knowing what had happened.

When we got outside, I gave my neighbor her number and told him he was too direct, which is why she acted that way. He was shocked I didn’t keep the girl for myself, but I’m not a fan of plus-sized girls.

On our way back, he pointed out a girl who passed us and said, “Do you know her?” I said, “Nope.” Then he replied, “She was looking at you like she wanted to swallow you, and the guy she was with was staring at you angrily. That’s why I initially didn’t call your attention to it.” She was still looking back, and I just smiled.

Later that day, I saw MN. She waved at me, and I just stretched my hand out for a handshake. She got up from where she was sitting and came to shake my hand. I felt in control. I didn’t let go of her hand and started a conversation until it got very late.

When she was about to go inside, I told her to give me a goodnight kiss. She smiled and started looking around because we were outside. So, I held her hand and took her to a more secluded spot. She started kissing me passionately, and things got wild. She clearly wanted me to go all the way, but just as I was putting on a condom, she suddenly said, “I have to go,” and left.

I was pissed off and confused, so I angrily went inside.

Day 10
Loops: None (Rest Day)
Result:
MN has been avoiding me, and I really want us to talk about last night and why she left abruptly. I hate being in situations like this.

I also haven’t seen SKG for a few days now. As for the other cute girl I mentioned earlier (the one I noticed during the sports talk), she said hi to me today. But after a closer look, she’s probably 16 or 17, which immediately disqualifies her and puts her off my radar.

Day 11
Loops: 3 min
Result:
I had a very weird dream overnight, but I won’t go into details.

The Gold Coin came around and introduced me to a girl who wouldn’t stop talking—a solid 6 at best. I wasn’t into her, so I won’t bore you with how it ended.

I saw SKG and MN today, but they both ignored me, and that messed up my day. Later, I saw SKG with a guy. They both looked in my direction, and I’m sure she was telling him something about me. She looked glad I saw them, so I just acted like I didn’t give a fuck until they were out of sight.

Day 12
Loops: None (Rest Day)
Result:
I had a dream that the Gold Coin got me a job. We went to the place, and I met the CEO, who started talking to me in a seductive manner. Long story short, I gave her some good spanking in front of everyone, and she loved it.

Now to my messed-up day. SKG was at MN’s apartment early in the morning. They were having a conversation, but I only heard SKG’s voice. She kept calling the guy I saw her with last night her “ex.” I figured she didn’t intend for me to see them and felt guilty. MN was mostly silent, only speaking occasionally.

I was confused as fuck, regretting my actions. That make-out session with MN was a mistake. Things are awkward now, and she avoids looking in my direction.

At night, while thinking about what to do next, I realized MN is trying to manipulate me into giving up the power I have over her and SKG. She doesn’t like that I’ve been in control of the situation.

Well, her plan is dead on arrival. WB revealed her game to me, so it’ll be rewarded for a job well done tomorrow. Then, sleep stole the show.

Day 13
Loops: 5 min
Result:
Five minutes of listening time is WB’s reward for a job well done.

I felt charged up today and ready for anything. After finishing my daily routine (no book writing today), I saw MN sitting alone. She focused on her phone as soon as she noticed I was walking in her direction.

I sat beside her and said, “Let’s see who can ignore the other most.” She smiled and asked, “Who said I was ignoring you?” So, I replied, “Guilty! I never said you were, but you just confirmed it.” She laughed, and I added, “Your laughter is turning me on.”

“Really?” she asked, still laughing. So, I kissed her on the neck, and she held my face, kissing me back. I took her to my place, and while I was undressing her, she suddenly started laughing again.

I asked why she was laughing, and she said, “Do you always walk around with condoms like they’re a lifesaver?” Her laughter was contagious and sexy, so I started laughing too. I gave her a flimsy excuse to shift the topic to something more intimate.

She admitted she only says certain things to people she’s in love with because she tends to get attached after sex. So, I asked her if she loved me, and she immediately said yes. Then she added, “I can’t believe I just admitted that.”

We kept talking, partly because I enjoyed the conversation and partly because I wasn’t sure if I wanted a clingy 9 in my life.

Later that night, SKG tried to talk about why I might be mad at her. She claimed she didn’t know what she did wrong, so I told her, “Don’t play dumb. I won’t tell you until you bring it up yourself. Think about it and let me know.”

Day 14
Loops: None (Rest Day)
Result:
SKG came over, and we resolved everything. Even though she didn’t admit what she did, she apologized and promised it wouldn’t happen again.

She did it in a way that felt less FWB and more GF. SKG spent the whole day at my place, but nothing happened because MN was the ultimate cockblocker, lol.

While we were out for a walk, SKG was protective of me, even toward MN and other girls.

Observations:

• I’m no longer as desperate as I was initially.
• Whenever I’m conflicted, I find a solution, feel good about myself, and then something amazing happens.
• No recon yet, but also no manifestation.

Now I’m up to 7 minutes for a loop. Let’s see how it goes!