Please bro, tell me more about your experience with HoM. I’m running that sub right now.
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Alrighty then.
I’ll break it down like this;
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The first few hours after loop: I was feeling a bit lost in my thoughts about everything I’ve “achieved”, with the most prominent thought being: “is my status really any doing? Or is it just due to my job?!”. It kept on messing with me so much, making me feel like everything I bought for myself (like my new car, console, gaming laptop, etc.) have been nothing but liabilities, and that I’m easily replaceable at my job.
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By the end of the day of the loop: I wasn’t even feeling bothered to train, I felt like I have already reached all the goals I had, and at this point, there’s no burning desire to chase because I barely felt challenged. Everything started feeling like they’re just a part of a routine I set for myself, and that life had just lost its flavor.
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Next day: all day I was somewhat overthinking while stabilizing my thoughts, on the outside, I looked fine and was talking to people in an extremely charismatic and caring way, however, I felt like I was a man without “real” value behind my name, like an empty shell of what i thought was real, and while I did set new goals for myself, I began to realize that my “extraordinary gift”, which is the extremely high flow factor, was a curse in itself, because due to the ease of achieving things with subs, I just felt like I have such a huge advantage over others, that I might as well not even try anymore.
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By the end of the day: I had done my “erasure” meditation (a type of meditation I use to erase a sub’s processing from my head), and started feeling normal again, came to the realization that HoM wasn’t bad, it was just making me acknowledge that I need to define myself if I really wanna create a legacy. If I stay the way I am, I’m just gonna be another “employee”, and that’s no help if I wanna create a legacy (and generational wealth). And while I always made it clear that wealth isn’t really a goal for me, that’s exactly what I kept on getting questioned about, mainly as to why I don’t wanna chase it, and my truthful response to this is: I’m happy and content having a roof over my head, a nice car to drive, enough money to give myself and those around me a good taste of luxury, due to which I don’t really care about getting more, if it happens, good, but if it doesn’t, it won’t make me feel like failure.
With that experience, I realized that I don’t need to use certain subs or chase certain things because others are, I am who I am, and I’m defined by my own character, which I did actually work on and grew with, hence why I’m gonna stick with what makes me feel myself and achieve my greatness in my own way.
A path set by myself is better than a traditional path set by others, even if it works better than mine, why?
Cause at least I will be authentic to who I am.
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Eid Mubarak to everyone who’s celebrating, and for those that aren’t, I hope you also have a wonderful and blessed weekend.
As for some updates:
After clearing out my mind from the HoM shenanigans, I went back to the last Khan + Stark custom I built (come to think of it, I haven’t posted it here haha), and stacked that bad boy with LBFH, reason being is that my certain inner talk needs to be dealt with.
There’s a very deep and dark side of me, within the deepest parts of my subconscious, that sometimes lets loose, and tries to sabotage everything; from my self image, all the way to things related to fitness and work, which is, of course, not a good thing haha
So with that said, this is the time to heal, now the reason I picked LBFH over other healing subs is because of one reason: Love.
I don’t want to “attack” my subconscious by bringing out more of my darkness out and risk triggering my chronic depression, so instead I decided that I wanna do it the way that was working before: Love.
When you radiate love, you are also filled with it, and just like how it makes everyone on the outside love you more, you will give the same love and care to your subconscious, which is what makes it much more gentle and powerful when wanting to heal.
Anyways, here’s the custom:
Level-Up ZP
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Khan st4 core
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Stark core
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Emperor Fitness st3 core
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Legacy of Spartan core
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True Sell core
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Epigenetics & DNA modulator
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Pragya
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Omnidimensional
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Void of Creation
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Deep Sleep
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Carpe diem Ascended
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Fenrir
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Serum X
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Joie de Vivre
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Gratitude Embodiment
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Gloryseeker
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Focused Arousal
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Subconscious Flow
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Eventide
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Cosmic Navigator
It’s mostly the same as before, but I added EF3 into the mix for more gains, which instead has shot my libido through the roof 
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happy Eid man, enjoy it!
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Recon reveals to us all that stands in our way to achieving what the sub is attempting to help us achieve. Your introspection skills helped you get in “dialogue” with recon and discover what those obstacles/missing links are.
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But the essential question is whether you really want to follow (right now or ever) the path a certain sub offers. It may be you will come back to HoM one day to embrace what it has to offer simply because it will be the right moment to do so.
It looks like Rebirth could help you tame this little beast of yours 
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it’s so interesting how I have a very similar way of thinking with my Khan Stark customs, and have had this same mindset towards sponsorship acquirement (I manage sponsorship & partnerships, and even though we are supposed to cater our words and proposals, as well as meetings, towards persuading them, I started adopting this approach of having them prove to me that they’re worth having as sponsors).
Flipping the table feels good haha
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Guess who’s back? Guess who’s back?
Guess who’s back? Guess who’s back?
Lala, lalala🎤
Lala, lalala🎶
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The winning custom of my 6 cores customs phase, is who 
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HOM may have had you see the money game vs. the wealth game
Money game- you put in -you get out- you can accumulate a lot and have amazing lifestyle
Wealth game- you build and/or have equity that continues to build and pay whether your there or not.
It’s confronting to realize -your paycheck really makes someone else way more and when you stop it stops.
But it’s great to know your crushing it for yourself and your money game.
And both games have nothing to do with happiness game
Anyway sure you know all this.
HOM is awesome with the right mix/ at the right time.
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I must say that being back on a custom with EmpB was the best decision I could have made.
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Okay so this post might confuse some, but bear with me:
The last few days have been a rollercoaster, since that day when I ran a custom with HoM, and started going through my own ups and downs.
After which, I decided that I needed to go deep down in my subconscious, and heal whatever’s broken, however, due to it being a matter of my “shadow”, I reintroduced a custom from a few months back that was almost identical to my last custom, with the addition of Emperor Black core.
Today, I have come to a conclusion that might be considered as the biggest downside of having a high flow factor: I can’t run a custom that’s extremely focused.
I went through many of my posts in the different journals I’ve made during my time on this forum, specifically post-ZP customs, and what I realized that my biggest problems rise when I run customs that are extremely focused on just 1 or 2 goals max.
Why?
Because due to my high flow factor and things getting processed extremely quickly, my brain tends to become hyper focused on those specifics, and nothing else matters afterwards.
If I run a custom focused on fitness, then I start ditching plans and dates in favor of gym.
If I run a custom focused on money/career, then I start ditching the gym and mainly only interact with work people.
If I run a custom focused on social life, I start taking extra days off from work and less motivated to go gym alone.
Weird stuff
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It’s like this for everyone
I don’t expect for you to understand, but what I’m referring to above relates to the overall mix of modules and cores in a custom, something that is backed up by testing 60 customs so far 
So nope, unless “everyone” has been experimenting with so many customs, and noting down the intensity and impact of every manifestation, it’s not the same or else everyone on the forum would have reached most of the goals they set within months, if not weeks, yet here we are.
Curious to know, how much have you progressed 
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hey @Invictus can you share your experience of Cosmic Navigator? Seems interesting, I am planning to use it for my next custom.
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Yo sorry for the late reply, keep in mind I have been kind of on a break from “main archetype customs” now, and have only used a couple loops of a sexual one I made just for fun with my girl, and it’s mainly cause I just feel like every time I make a custom, i end up trying to chase after things I already have, so it’s kind of a waste of mental resources, and even when I think about it now, it’s like, I don’t even need to use any “main” subs to achieve things, as they just happen.
Anyways, as for cosmic navigator, the module is pretty amusing, and the main purpose of it in that custom above was to guide me towards the best possible shortcut for my physique goals, after which I did many things, such as finding new good healthy restaurants, and some other supplements.
However, I’ve realized, I have been slacking a lot with gym, and it’s not because I’m not giving my best, I mean just look at this:
But to be clear, this intensity was gone with Cosmic Navigator, and until I used another custom without it, I wasn’t able to get as intense, which showed me that I needed to step back from that module to being out my best.
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It’s funny how exactly this time last year I was working at the tourism council, and while happy with the work I did there, it wasn’t really feeling like I’m growing as much, all while the hours I spent during the events felt like they were very exhausting to a degree.
Today, I completed a 12 hours shift at my first international-level event (The Judo World Championships) as an organizer, and while it did involve me standing under the sun’s heat from 8:30am to 11:15am, as well as constantly roaming around the venue for hours on end, it felt so fulfilling and rewarding, and not only that, but it also didn’t feel exhausting at all, and even though my legs are aching right now, I’m really looking forward to day 2 tomorrow 
I really feel like switching over to the sports industry was the best thing to ever happen to me, as I don’t think I’ve ever felt so proud of myself and the work I’m doing.
I don’t wanna reveal much of what’s the next possible project that I could end up getting a spot in, but I’ll just leave this here: FINA 
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The championships event is finally over and I’m beyond happy and proud about all the work my team and I put into it
it was truly an amazing event that every visitor and guest enjoyed. -
During the event, I was upgraded mid-event to a VIP organizer, due to how well I was handling every task I was assigned with, as well as how heartwarming my own behavior was seen as by the heads of different committees made within the organization committee.
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The biggest praise I got today at the end of the event was when the director of media was telling some of the members how even though they might not have seen it, but to him, I was the “behind the scene Star of the event”, mainly cause even though I had my own responsibilities and tasks, I was also helping out every other committee with their work too, to ensure the best possible delivery of the event.
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As a reward bonus for the work I’ve put in, I will be awarded 12k as a bonus at the end of this month (on top of my actual pay).
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During the end of the event, around 20 people came up to me to take pics, due to the deeper connections I made with them all, and them wanting to capture the moment of happiness with me.
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I have also been invited to a celebration lunch on Saturday by the branding team of the event, due to the enjoyment I brought on during the most stressful times.
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During the tournament, one of my VIP guests was the Head Coach of the Qatar National Waterpolo team, who was so happy with the hospitality I showed him and his family, because of which I even received some praise from my direct boss (he also mentioned to the director of Human Resources that I was the best person recruited in the last few years, and would be the fastest growing employee to date):
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Speaking of my direct boss, he has been very supportive and happy with my work with everything, and with that said, it was pretty hard to tell him about how I wanna switch the section I work in (meaning I won’t be reporting to him anymore), but still, his response was really nice;
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One thing that I’m extremely proud of, is my discipline; was working a minimum of 10 hour-shifts daily since last Saturday, yet I have not skipped a single workout yet, due to which not only did I stop my weight drop, but also gained back some of my previously lost muscle mass.
The whole week I was running a Khan + Chosen + EF3 custom, which was the best decision I made in order to ensure the success of both the event, and my work.
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