The Path of Solitude and One's Own Darkness

[Uber_Elysium]

Sup yall, so since starting Emperor Black I decided to revamp my stack that would work well with it and my life atm, and well after a few weeks of experimenting I pretty much have the stack that I want to run with Emperor Black.

Ascension

This came down to intuition in the end, I tried it with Stark but right now Stark just doesnt serve me at this point in time. While I do love Stark and its one of my favs, it can wait until the near future since I have plans for the fame/celebrity aspect

I think that the reason I am drawn to Ascension right now is the effects that EB has on subs, which to me is like a huge boost to them. I am honestly curious on what the synergy between EB and Ascension would be like in terms of personal transformation. After a cycle or 2 I might kick it up a notch and swap it out for my Primal Ascension custom. Lets see where my intuition takes me!

WANTED

Since adding EB I finally figured out why I am so drawn to WANTED and why I love it in my stack. I finally accepted that the nonchalant personality is just who I am, even years before my sub journey, whenever I was in a phase of being nonchalant I felt like I was being honest with not just others but myself, like the mask that I was wearing was just gone. I was also at my happiest during those times. Ironically since understanding and accepting of this I have put up stronger boundaries, and have been more confrontational when needed.

Even though I am not looking for a relationship, I am open to casual dating especially since I am possibly moving to a whole new area within a year, however I dont need someone to be happy. Also I am running it for the physical shifting haha

Spartan

One of my favorite subs, gives me plenty of energy for workouts and its great at optimizing the body, especially when one gets serious about taking charge of ones health. Also I dont think many people have ever commented but I have noticed cognitive enhancements whenever I run Spartan. That warrior mindset is no joke too, honestly if anything is to become permanent with Spartan for me, I hope its the mindset.

Emperor Black

Saved the best for last with this one! This sub has been a very interesting journey for me so far and I am happy that this sub was released. Being able to explore my dark side in a healthy manner and not a self destructive one has been a huge blessing for me in healing. Any sub I run with this is boosted and I am confronted by the truth with the subs, such as my experience with WANTED on why I love it so much. The personal power is astounding and yet it is so calm and controlled, I am so much more focused on the tasks that are at hand and if its needed I just turn into a machine. Taking less shit from people too and honestly since starting Emperor Black, people have been giving me less shit.

EB Healing

Complete elimination of toxic people in my life. I saw someone that I once called a good friend from another group of friends that I stepped away from. Mainly just petty drama and me being in school and busy. I saw her for the first time while I was working and I knew she wanted to talk to me but I was busy with work and when I made eye contact with her I realized that I didnt want her in my life at all. Without going into full details, she put her own child’s life in jeopardy and none of it was on accident, and she wasnt really be bothered by it to change like she needed to. Obviously she somehow got the message from my stare cause she didnt reach out like i figured she would later in the day nor the past few days.

There have been others, but my ability to just sense toxicity within others has skyrocketed and I am cutting people out left and right lol.

Real excited for the results to come!

[SwagKing]

Really curious to see Wanted effects with Emperor Black. I get physical attraction, mental attraction, but spiritual is a new one.

[Uber_Elysium]

Making a separate post for the results I have gotten so far:

• Really enjoying the solitude aspect lol. Im a natural loner as is and since I have been done with school I have really been craving solitude and transformation naturally. Coincidently when I made the decision to do so, Emperor Black was released the following morning lol

• Very present in the moment, and really feeling the tranquility that I have received

• More women have been giving me looks, and the ones that are married/engaged/relationship are the ones giving me IOI’s

• More people complimenting my voice more often now, and also saying I should go into voice acting. To put into context, people have called me Barry White, Michael Clark Duncan, Piccolo/All Might. A lot of people agree I should be an anime villain lol.

• Thinking much more clearly

• Started to implement a 24 hr fast per week, while also cleaning up my diet.

• More mindful of form while working out.

• Hair and skin is looking much better

• Much more direct when needed, most of the time just pretty nonchalant.

• Phone has been on Do Not Disturb pretty much everyday lol

• When I need to socialize I am a mazing at but then I go back to doing what I was doing.

• When I want to I am able to move into groups of people and make friends immediately.

• Inner growth and transformation.

• Getting back in touch with my spiritual side and cultivating it again. Getting back into energy work, and reiki since I am a reiki master.

• Plans for my future did change since I might be leaving the area within a year rather than 3 years. Which is leading me to look for a new job with a set schedule so I can practice massage on the side and hopefully transfer to said area. The thought of working 6-7 days a week for a long time doesn’t bother me though. Already did it with work and school anyways.

• Been going to bed sooner waking up sooner as well.

• Super manifestation? For some random ass reason I was thinking “I wonder what would life be like if I was a lawyer?” Dont know why, I just thought it. So the very next day I got summoned for Jury Duty -_-

[Uber_Elysium]

I honestly think the same, to me when it comes to spirituality ( these are my beliefs, not imposing or anything) its the understanding and acceptance of one’s self. Its very liberating and people do notice that because people being honest with themselves seems to be a rarer and rarer thing nowadays, and would rather focus on what others think, the latest news, whats trending etc that so many people are just the same.

WANTED alone tackles this, now backed with Emperor Black especially with its spiritual component I feel it would also create that spiritual attraction. Since people that master themselves are attractive, whether its romantical/sexual or even just a role model in a way.

[Uber_Elysium]

A few of you might be wondering about my LBFH/Minds Eye/Asc Chamber custom. Well long story short it was amazing. Even though the healing was cranked all the way up, it was very liberating and I love this custom. I was happy, getting shit done, taking positive action, and the super healing was a plus.

This custom led me to making the decision to go on a path of solitude, and then Emperor Black was released the following morning lol. Now when I ran Emperor Black with it, I realized something as they were processing. Emperor black represents darkness, and LBFH represents the light. Being honest with myself, working on both simultaneously is something that I am not ready for at this point in time, and I needed to make a choice between the two.

With me craving solitude, Emperor Black was the right choice. Maybe one day after some growth I can bring it back into my stack, or listen to it once a month, or just wait until I’m done with my phase of solitude and EB. I quit posting in my old journal since the intense healing so I never really posted the results from it, and honestly they are still happening till this day.

• I no longer hate myself at all.

• Became very honest with myself on what I need to work on now.

• Need for validation continues to drop.

• More of my natural self towards others.

• Subs are much easier to run, especially with ZPv2

• A lot more gratitude for what I have.

• More willing to help others

• More willing to ask for help when needed

Emperor Black has pushed these even further but I definitely did have to show love towards my custom since I never posted it

[Uber_Elysium]

Late update but I have been busy this week and still am lol but I can give a quick update.

• Had a successful 24hr fast again.

• Workouts are improving, especially in my overall form. Had to drop weight in some exercises since changing form. Felt like I got a much better workout as well

• Injuries aren’t holding me back as much, which honestly more than likely led to improved form.

• More and more focused on my goals and not a scatter minded

• Cleaning up my diet day by day, cutting out a lot of junk food. Minus my one ice cream a week.

• Made a post in WANTED Experimental about this but, I have noticed the physical shifting aspect has improved drastically for me in V2. Especially in fat loss

• Can go anywhere and just do my own thing. If I wanna socialize I do an amazing job at socializing. Still enjoying my peace and quiet though.

• People do small favors for me, like someone brought me food today.

• Getting tasks done faster.

• Sense of personal power is godlike tbh.

• Cleaning up my spending habits after doing math and realizing how much dumb shit I buy or just overspending in general.

• Rereading a book that dug me out of a rut a few years ago. Reading it again to see what my new growth and perspective can give me……and it’s very eye opening. “Declare War on Yourself” by Marc Summers of anyone is curious. This book will make you dig very deep, and being on subs that helps you become a better person, this book can be unforgiving but it’s very well worth it.

So far I am loving Emperor Black, however I might only run it for 3 more weeks, I have been running it shortly after it came out. I absolutely love it but one of the biggest things that Emperor Black is making me realize, is how much of a loner I truly am. Just like on EB, when I naturally was in my loner phases and just focusing on myself and goals, I was always at my happiest. When I wanted to socialize I could do it gracefully. While it is nice to be in the limelight and have fame, I have no need for it, yet I can get it and go back to my loner ways flawlessly.

Emperor Black, is teaching me that, this is who I am naturally but I am finally being shown how to do it correctly. Cause like it says on the description page, intense solitude can damage friendships and all that. While I have always accepted everyone’s decision in that regard for my choice of solitude, some friendships were never the same. EB is helping me with that tremendously

[Uber_Elysium]

Okay so I was thinking about waiting for a cycle with Ascension and wait and see if I wanted to move to my Primal Ascension. Well I was amazed with the results I just decided to switch today. Mainly because it served me well before and well I also spent a lot of money on it plus with some of the modules in it, it gives me additional benefits.

• Felt a huge boost in confidence and internal power.

• Huge surge in sexual energy, but it was immediately under control and transmuted. I attest that to Emperor Black plus inner growth since I last used it.

• Cognition and focus has already increased (IQ and cognitive booster) even remembering topics I reviewed last night.

• Energy surge. About 1 hour after processing I got a huge boost in energy

• Much more grounded.

• Discipline has increased. Watched a show, and was left on a cliff hanger. Decided that I will study now after this update and watch the episode at a later time.

• Feeling extremely joyful

• Feeling very masculine

A result also manifested today before I listened to my stack. I was told by a coworker that I’m starting to look like a bodybuilder. Honestly it felt awesome to hear! I will clarify that I have more of a power lifter physic, so I have been focusing on fat loss. However while I am losing fat I noticed that with the muscle gained my proportions are starting to make me look even leaner. Very happy that people are noticing!

[Uber_Elysium]

Feeling sick so I am taking a 4-5 day washout and will resume either Sunday or Monday. Some results I have noticed:

• Urge to write down short/mid/long term goals

• Been studying more and more and I actually like studying for my exam. I’m starting to believe that at least for this point in my life Sports Massage is my purpose. Learning anatomy, physiology, pharmacology, pathology etc is becoming fun. I am accepting that I do want to help people in my own way and this is how I intend to do it. Also will be incorporating Reiki in my practice.

• Been practicing a better sleep schedule. I figured out that going to bed between 11pm-12:30am and waking up between 7am-8:30am works best for me.

• More introspection and healing

• Feeling physically stronger

• Face is leaning out and my jaw seems sharper. Also hair seems to be filling back in.

• Learning to control my anger

• Being more productive

Some thoughts on Emperor Black. I stated in a previous post that I might drop it after a cycle. Well coincidentally this washout I’m taking because I am sick is about that time for me, so I will definitely think about it.

[Uber_Elysium]

Yo another observation that I have made is that I have had absolutely zero desire to go to a bar. In fact I haven’t been to one for about a week. Even though I have been getting control over my drinking this is very good. I believe it stems from a few things.

1. I want to save money, and spend my money on better things other than alcohol all the time.

2. The realization that once I get my license for massage, I will have to conduct myself in a more professional manner, and going to the bar all the time isn’t a good look.

3. Just overall growth and maturity. I think this is part of the reason for waiting to take my licensing exam. Besides needing a break, I think I just wanted one last partying phase before I walked this path, cause I knew deep down my excessive time at the bar would need to come to an end. I guess I wanted to unleash the beast one last time.

Not saying that I won’t ever go to a bar again but I believe it’s best to just avoid them for a good amount of time, then reintroduce it in moderation. I would rather find moderation from a more positive point in my life rather than a not so positive point in my life.

Other than this, my illness has gotten worse so I didn’t do much today hopefully tomorrow is a win though.

[Uber_Elysium]

So I have been hella busy with studying and working the past few days but during that time I have noticed something……odd, this mainly deals with work.

Person A: Co Store manager that is a total douche noodle. Likes to abuse his power and has literally called employees worthless in front of customers, when he never works. Plus he is just an asshole. Honestly I don’t like the dude and have no respect for him. He has gotten away with a lot over the years but now all of a sudden 32 cases have been opened against him.

Person B: Just a grocery lead but only does closing shifts so he is the only manager in the store. Total douche, abuses his power and tbh he is a womanizing piece of shit. He has gotten female coworkers in trouble for not going out with him. For some reason he was untouchable for years, now a case got reopened for some reason, now this case is from a time when he was banging his friends wife. His friend was a manager, and the wife was a co worker.

Person C: This person is just a worker in another department but she isn’t a good person either. She is someone that abuses the system to screw her coworkers over for her own benefit and she lies all the time about being sick to get out of work. Everyone thinks she is a hypochondriac. Now the day that this happened I thought to myself “Someone going to get hurt in my department soon” the thought just came out of nowhere. A few hours later she is coming into our back room to give us product, and the second she stepped in, she hit the ground in pain.

When employees qualified to handle these types of situations, as soon as they saw it was her most just kept on walking. I could tell she was in genuine pain and by the location it was kidney pain. Even the EMT that came and got her knew who she was and they even made sure she wasn’t bullshitting. Hours later at the hospital they found out it was an allergic reaction to medication. Also side note a lot of employees were saying karma got her.

Now none of these people have done anything to me personally, however I do observe and two of them I have worked with them for years. However people that abuse their authority, treat people like shit etc. just to do it for their own benefit piss me off the most. Coincidentally those 3 are the people I just don’t like for those types of reasons. I’m an easygoing dude and I’m pretty forgiving (a lil too forgiving) so if I don’t like someone most of the time they’re not good people

Now this was in a span of 3 days so I knew this wasn’t coincidence, this was definitely something on my end

[RVconsultant]

@SaintSovereign @Fire Please see above post.

I have wondered if there is some sort of effect that happens in one’s environment to increase awareness of others and oneself, as well as make changes/manifestations (perhaps extending beyond oneself).

[Uber_Elysium]

Did I do something wrong?

[RVconsultant]

No. Not at all. You actually may have confirmed something I have been wondering about.

I should add that I think if people are acting in a willfully or consciously malicious fashion, I think they should be stopped and held accountable.

[Uber_Elysium]

Oh okay dope lol, well glad I could be of service to you.