The MALKUTH Catharsis (Malkuth Journal)

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#647

Hmm…

  1. In 2023 to 2024, I/my family went through a change/situation/crisis that led to my spending off basically all of the money I’d been saving and accumulating from before. I realized the full extent of the situation in January 2024. I integrated Genesis: Mogul into a custom, called BUILD, that I started playing in February 2024.

Somehow, I was able to weather the crisis throughout 2024. Then in July 2024, the situation that had caused the crisis resolved and reversed. I spent the rest of the year recovering and am still in a recovery phase now. All through it, though, I’ve been fortunate to have enough money for our needs and priorities.

  1. In addition to my job, I have one primary alternate income stream. In that stream, I got a series of higher-paying contracts that are still with me now. Whenever this happened, it was through someone seeking me out and contacting me to request services. I’m not saying it was ‘not caused by anything’. In general, it arose through past experiences of working with the person making the request. But the point is that the requests arose and came to me organically.

Those are the main points that came to me so far. By far, my primary focus was on my other custom, PHENOMENAUT Genesis. I do not consider myself to be ‘finished’ with either of those programs. But I felt that I might have been getting a bit too dogged and rigidly focused on them (PHENOMENAUT Genesis was playing since August 2023), and it seemed like it might be good to let them breathe. In January 2025, I began to play my current stack: Dragon Reborn Gold and The Revelation of Wealth. In a month or two, when it feels right, I’ll swap out The Revelation of Wealth and introduce The Ecstasy of Gold stage 1.

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#648

Okay. More interesting Dragon Reborn Gold results.

So after my first normal play of Dragon Reborn Gold (on 18 January), as I mentioned above, I relearned the 74-movement Chen Style first form.

By about a week and a half after that, maybe 30 January, I found myself pulled and called to engage a bit more closely with the 72 Names of God from Kaballah. These names are derived by combining the Hebrew syllables from Exodus 14:19-21. Each of those verses has exactly 72 characters, and so they can be combined to create 72 3-character names. Various magickal and esoteric traditions have worked with these 72 names as a meaningful resource.

The first is VEHU (Strength and Manifestation) and the seventy-second is MUM (Collapse of Structure).

Anyway, I’ve found myself, over the past week or so, feeling motivated to commit them all to memory. In between other work and tasks, I’ve just wanted to do it. Yesterday was when I, tenuously, finally managed to remember all 72 names and meanings. I’ll continue to walk with them and internalize them over the coming months, most likely. They’ll probably be a part of my meditations sometimes. We’ll see.

In any event, it’s an interesting and meaningful development.

And here we are.

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#649

I was thinking, yesterday, of running less than full loops in today’s Thursday subliminal listening session. So, today’s meditation was done sans subliminals.

At some point in the day, I’ll play my loops.

#650

I’ve just gotten access to a book that I really need to read.

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Let’s see what happens.

#651

What is the most accurate summary of this book?

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#652

If you’ve ever come across the term ‘felt sense’ or ‘the felt sense’, then you’ve encountered the work of (the great) Eugene Gendlin (pronounced I believe with a ‘J’ sound) philosopher, counselor, and all-around great person.

Gendlin’s life work involved recognizing and elaborating the complex patterns of intelligence, integration, and creative generativity that are implicit in what we usually think of as physical process, ‘the body’, and, to some extent, the environment.

He noted that human growth, development, meaning-making, transformation (what we here might think of as ‘Unfolding’) arise out of and are shaped by precisely this area of process.

Gendlin’s philosophy articulated, clarified, and elaborated just how this is so. He also developed structured processes to aid people in contacting, exploring, and better applying this powerful (yet usually ignored) nonverbal intelligence and knowing that informs so much of what we experience and do.

Okay. That’s my attempt to summarize Gendlin.

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#653

Alright.

Did partial loops this past Thursday, and did not notice much difference to it. Today, I returned to full loops during meditation, and it felt very good. Smooth, gently stimulating, flowing, easeful. So, I may stay with full for now.

But I’ve been experiencing a kind of ‘shadow work’ style challenge that I think may be less about specifically subliminally-based reconciliation, and more about the fundamental LIFE reconciliation that comes along with working through your issues.

Dunno.

There’s been a negative tinge to things. Not overwhelming, but noticeable. “Are these persistent issues ever going to improve?” That type of thing.

We’ll stay the course. Work at it. And continue to nurture transformation.

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#654

A big part of getting through problems and challenges is settling down enough to keep working at them.

#655

The treatment that we would never accept from one human to another we are often very willing to accept from Society. Because Society is so big; we can’t see it. So we just call it Reality and accept brutality from it.

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#656

Interesting energy-level effect results happening.

I think this is probably largely about Dragon Reborn Gold.

I’m starting to see a pattern. In the past 4 weeks, I’ve been finding myself having the energy to re-engage with projects or tasks that had fallen into quiet or neglect.

First was relearning the taijiquan form.
Then, memorizing the 72 Names of God (Kabbalah stuff)
Then reviewing/relearning the Hebrew alphabet (today)
Before that, returning to books, thinkers, and writers who are important to me and my work/ideas

In the past few days, I’ve found myself thinking anew about ideas for business and creative projects that I’d allowed to lapse.

Maybe my energy has been blocked or dammed up, and somehow Dragon Reborn is clearing that away, and freeing up more energy and willpower to flow through me.

For now, I’m just keeping to Dragon Reborn Gold and The Revelation of Wealth.

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#657

It’s also nice to note that today, 4 weeks after I resumed the tai chi form, I’m already noticing beneficial effects of renewed practice. The first day I started I was tired enough that just one run through the form felt like more than enough. Today I was able to sustain 3 sets of form practice.

My stance is naturally (and gradually) becoming deeper (while still pain-free).

I feel less knee-pain.

I can feel a greater intrasystemic unity and connection.

This is only 4 weeks in. That’s encouraging.

#658
#659

My 2nd weekly rest day today. Sundays and Mondays. (and also Wednesdays and Fridays).

Life is feeling a little odd at the moment.

Maybe shifts are happening. I hope so.

Hope things (and I) develop in a good direction.

#660

In late December/early January, I went to see a doctor for overall health concerns/check-up. I was required to have several vials of blood drawn, and to submit stool and saliva samples. They sent all/most of it overseas to be analyzed, and 6 weeks later, I was called in and given a consultation. After reviewing hormone, gut, and food sensitivities situations, the doctor recommended a series of supplements and dietary changes. That was last Thursday, and I began the process on Friday 14 Feb.

Improvements were noticeable immediately. Pretty cool. The entire thing (repairing gut biome, addressing aging-related hormone imbalances, and so on) will be a much longer process of months, but it was amazing to feel positive movement so quickly.

One change is that the process of waking in the morning and the energy with which I awaken are both improved. So that’s great.

Soon, I’ll re-integrate workouts and something tells me that will compound the benefits even further.

This morning I woke up, felt pretty good, and fairly promptly got into my morning meditation (with subs, since today is Tuesday). Did 1 loop of Dragon Reborn Gold and 1 loop of The Revelation of Wealth.

This is it for now.

The two main developments that I’m noticing with Dragon Reborn Gold are:

  1. a reinvigoration of lapsed projects, practices, and subject-areas.
  2. processing discouragement or worry about not being able to change and improve.

As far as The Revelation of Wealth, I feel that I’m being guided to attend to and energize the things that I truly value and care about. Right now, it’s about Value before Money, or Value as the foundation for Wealth-Development.

Maybe there’s a clarification process about What You Have To Offer or Contribute going on.

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#661

Human being swimming in a sea of human beings

Consciousness, swimming in a sea of consciousness

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#662

Contemplate the subtle physicality of Awareness itself.

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#663

Facilitated a meeting just now. A monthly thing that I do with some professionals, related to their work. I felt that it went well.

Now I’m going back to office to have another individual meeting and then after that a longer small group meeting.

Tomorrow I’ll do four more. Day after that three more.

This 4-month period is very much characterized by this kind of activity.

Actually feels highly suited to running Dragon Reborn Gold.

I’m not running the Story Teller module right now. But I did run it from August 2022 to December 2024. And I definitely do find myself enjoying weaving a relevant story into the points I’m making in meetings.

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#664

At some point, I may touch base with my PHENOMENAUT Genesis custom.

Just to keep the relationship going.

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#665

What are the things I/you know that could help people but that you are not sharing with the world?

People don’t just magically know things because you do.

Imagine, and then find, the people you can help.

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Main Disc. Thread - The Revelation of Wealth (Now Available!)
#666

Meditation

Just check in with Reality. Just for one hour. One hour of trying to actually face What Is Here.

Then get back to whatever you’re doing every day.

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