People are so freaking precious.
Sentient beings are so precious.
I forget all the time.
The treasures held within consciousness exist within all beings.
With each birth and each death, such beauty enters and passes from the world.
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Today, Iāve found myself experiencing an intellectual re-invigoration and kind of a brain explosion. I am not sure where itās headed.
It didnāt just spring up out of nowhere, itās been brewing for some time now. Iāve found myself, for example, engaging/re-engaging with the work of Eugene Gendlin. I think I mentioned him above. Iām kind of interested in how this synchronizes with my subliminals. I think itās an outgrowth of my long-term work with Revelation of Spirit, Revelation of Mind, and Genesis. But maybe a combination of bloom and response to Dragon Reborn Gold is driving todayās explosion.
Iāll just relax, stay with it, and see where the path leads.
I encountered the ideas of Richard Kearney and his concept of anatheism. Feel stimulating.
Somethingās happening. Feels pretty Dragon-y.
I seem to be feeling much clearer subliminal results.
Trying to decide if Iām running full loops tomorrow or not.
I probably will.
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Two full loops of my current programs last night:
Dragon Reborn Gold
The Revelation of Wealth
Morning Meditation.
Past loves and likes showed up in my dream and in my meditation.
Now today is the first day of the Snake Year.
Wish the world great good fortune and ultimate well-being.
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The Project:
Integrate, update, and recalibrate my perceptions and my identity on the basis of what is true about Consciousness and Mind.
This requiresānot rejecting instinctual, evolutionarily-driven, automatic default patterns of perception, impulse, and actionābut integrating those foundational patterns into larger, wider, and deeper views that both include them and transcend them.
This is the project.
In a very real way it is an explorationātentative, path-breaking, trial-and-errorāinto unknown, unmarked territory.
As best as Iām able to currently discern, I have a vocation and life path that grows out of a tripartite, ātripodā structure:
Intellectual/Philosophical Aspect
Contemplative/Mystical Aspect
Healing/Therapeutic Aspect
This, in broad strokes, is my path. The creative question has been how to make it work in my world. In a sense, this is the puzzle that Iāve been working on throughout my whole life, and definitely throughout my 5 year Sub Club journey.
Over the past few years, with the help of Revelation of Spirit, Revelation of Mind, and Genesis (and prior to that with the help of Quantum Limitless and Alchemist), my intellectual foundation, the conceptual leg of the tripod, has been stabilizing and developing.
My blind spot, or one of my biggest blind spots, is the Interpersonal Dimension and Interpersonal Expression of my Individual, and personal, life. Iāve always had ideas galore, but the difficulty has been in experiencing a sense of contextāof Locationāvis-Ć -vis society and the world. I am finding that the programs are really helping me with this. There has been a gradual, constant building-up process, and Iām really noticing it markedly in recent times.
It seems that my custom PHENOMENAUT Genesis, and Dragon Reborn Gold are contributing significantly to this process.
It feels like Dragon Reborn Gold is strengthening my internal structure, which manifests as taking my ideas more seriously and seeing more potential avenues for development.
You are consciousness; a node of witnessing.
This is why all day every day you are either expressing, responding to, or commenting on that which is being witnessed and experienced.
Played full loops of my two programs on Tuesday. Wednesday felt good.
So, I once again added my two subs to my meditation playlist and used it during this morningās meditation. And weāre back to subs in meditation. After 3 weeks of doing them separately.
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The Revelation of Wealth and Dragon Reborn Gold are helping so much.
I am amazed.
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My mindāsubconscious and consciousāis buzzing with ideas.
Itās pretty wild.
The morning felt a little heavy. Slow to get out of bed. Energy feeling slow. Mindstate a little reclusive and (subconsciously) fearful.
Eventually, I got up and did a few rounds of the taijiquan form. That circulates energy.
I listened to the Ecstasy of Gold description up to Stage 1. Thatās as far as Iāve recorded so far.
As I was doing taijiquan, my energy was indeed shifting, and then I started to get a rapid flow of ideas.
Some of them Iāve written down. A couple Iāve discussed with Claude-AI.
Iām considering running shorter loops of Dragon Reborn Gold and The Revelation of Wealth. Maybe this was recon.
But one thought I had was of those scenes of people undergoing radical metamorphoses: werewolves, the Hulk, Steve Rogers becoming Captain America, and so on and so on. And once again it was like, Recon IS the feeling of the transformation process. But it can be smoother or less smooth.
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Honor the source of your ideas by ENACTING them.
I suspect Iām experiencing mild, subtle reconciliation. Slow to get moving in the mornings sometimes.
Got up today and meditated. Yesterday though, did not meditate until 11 pm. Wanted to finish a bunch of chores and tasks first. Cooked dinner for my son. Steak for me. And a steak for him. With broccoli fried rice for me. With fusilli bolognaise and salad for him. Washed the dishes as I cooked, and then showered and cleared up afterwards.
Then I finally meditated (last night).
I can also feel a different mental āfeelā during meditation these couple days. Almost like an āoccupiedā or ādistractedā feeling. Mind may be processing and integrating a lot.
Continuing to review the taijiquan form. Re-learned it very quickly last week. And thatās awesome.
I saw that the 74-movement čę¶äøč·Æ form makes sense to me as just four sections.
An introductory section followed by three sets of éęs. The first yunshou has a é«ę¢é¦¬. The second éę goes into éęŗč® and then the last éę goes into é«ę¢é¦¬ again. It felt much easier to internalize the form.
Iām not doing this with a lot of martial intent right now. I just want to internalize the movement style, strengthen my body, and use it as a container for nei gong.
Iām getting a lot of stimulation and reconciliation around Wealth.
So thatās interesting.
In a way, it seems that Iām experiencing the most consistent and accessible change that Iāve noticed since working with subliminals.
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I was trying to decide whether or not to run full-loops today. Iāve always had a subtle relationship with reconciliation. I think itās because Iāve always been doing lots of practices that help with reconciliation. Honestly, most of the time, I questioned whether I was even getting any. But gradually, I think I realized how it was showing up.
And I think Iāve had some in the past week.
A lot of it is pleasant, an enhanced, surging flow of ideas and insights. Some of it is unpleasant, occasionally a kind of physical sluggishness, and sometimes a sense of doubting, skeptical, questioning frustration about how change can occur in my life or whether change can occur.
In the end, when it was time to do todayās sessions, full-loops just felt right. So, thatās what I ended up doing.
1 hour meditation:
15 minutes silence
15 minutes Dragon Reborn Gold
15 minutes silence
15 minutes The Revelation of Wealth
This morning there was a bit of time, so I had time for a couple of spiritual practices and time for a set of taijiquan.
And just now, at about 3:15 pm, I had time for another set of taijiquan.
Even from Disney, you can find a great quote:
āAs you can see now, everything in life pertains to our practice. And our practice pertains to everything. When your mind is at peace, you can see the lessons. And when you dare to live the lessons, then you become a master.ā
Now we all know that itās very hard to live a balanced lifestyle while engaging in psychoactive drug use.
But what if, for some strange reason, one were to train, plan, strive, and work in order to achieve just this: integrating the use of stimulating and potentially overwhelming drugs into a balanced, healthy, and thriving lifestyle?
In other words, using drugs not in the normal way, as an escape from all of the unpleasant realities one is afraid to face, but rather integrating drug experiences, with the highs and the lows, as one more set of realities to face and deal with.
Imagine how much work that would take. Not less work than a non-drug life. It would actually take considerably more work, effort and planning than a non-drug-using life. It would be like subjecting your mind and your life to a completely additional set of stressors and challenges.
If you can imagine that, this is the same way that I view the decision to have romantic and sexual partnerships with other people. This is the way I think it would most wisely be approached, so that it would actually work.
And this is so far from how most people (that Iām aware of) approach this project.
Wishful thinking. Escapist fantasy. Deferring Reality. Avoiding processing. And so on. These seem to be the norms.
And I donāt blame anyone for that. There are good reasons, and hell you donāt have to make it work forever, just until you die. So jury-rigging has some chance of success. As long as it doesnāt fall apart within 60 or so years, then youāre good.
So, I donāt blame us for this. But I just think itās poor strategy.
Evolution and biology have bequeathed us some poor strategies. Weāre going to do them. Because they are powerful, insistent, persuasive, and relentless. So, generally, it will be easier to just go with the flow.
But those strategies are designed to promote survival and reproduction. Not lasting wellbeing, prosperity, peace, or happiness.
Just some thoughts.
Went for an impromptu rest day yesterday. Will resume on Tuesday.
Synchronicity today.
For years, Iāve enjoyed drinking this particular brand of herbal tea, Yogi tea.
At first I bought it because it was a brand that was easily available where I live. But one special feature about this company is that on the tag of the tea bag, they always put a wisdom quote.
I donāt know how many different quotes are in circulation but if you drink tea daily, you can go for a decent period of time without seeing a repeated quote. Now, after having drunk it for years, I do sometimes recognize quotes that I may have seen before on a previous tea bag tag.
The quotes are generally quite pithy and wise. Sometimes spiritually illuminating or inspiring. And over the years, itās gradually become a habit that Iāll read the quote before steeping and then enjoying the tea. Itās just an enjoyable ritual.
I keep an 800 mL thermos in my office. And I usually break the tag off of the tea bag, read it, drop the tea bag into the thermos, and then go to the water cooler to add hot water. Most often Iāll add two different teas and mix them together.
Thatās what I did today. I opened up two different boxes and selected one sachet each.
I broke off the tags as usual and went to read the wisdom quotes.
Today, the two bags, taken from two different boxes, both had the exact same quote.
Thatās never happened for me before.
It also struck me that the quote seems very much aligned with The Revelation of Wealth.
Soā¦that happened.
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Life to me is not about acquiring some object.
Life is about building skill in working with consciousness.
Hey Malkuth, I have a question for you.
Since youāve used Genesis: Mogul for a long time on QTKS, how would describe itās effects?
Which changes in your life would you ascribe to GM?
Iād love to read a short review of this title, if you have the time.
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