The MALKUTH Catharsis (Malkuth Journal)

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#203

I resonate.

I think that both paradigms have their benefits (e.g., objectivist materialism has, so far, been much better at producing technologies that shape and shift the physical world, everything from bridges to life-saving drugs); but I am personally at a point in life where I’m just not willing to sacrifice the very real jewels of a deep emphasis on subjective engagement.

Consciousness is pretty central to how I, not just implicitly contact the world (which, as you’ve pointed out, is the case for all of us), but also explicitly make sense of the world and my life in it.

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#204

So far today, meditated and played subliminals.

I’m just checking and I’ve done 29 sessions of BUILD subliminal (including shorter loops) since 21 February 2024. There was a 4 week washout in there.

And I’ve done 67 sessions of PHENOMENAUT Genesis since 15 August 2023. About 9 weeks of total washout in there (in addition to the normal 5 day breaks every 3 weeks).

PHENOMENAUT and BUILD are both in QTKS now. No real plans to play anything else for a while. Other than Paragon to help with healing when I need it.

Other than that, this is pretty much it.

Somewhat heavy programs, but I’m not planning to change them

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#205

I just noticed that I’m feeling a sensation somewhat similar to what I felt during my Dragon Reborn run.

It’s the sense that my internal energy is being and harnessed into something; like an internal development project.

I remember the metaphor I used back then was that it was like those times when the bank is closed for renovations, and most places are roped off. There might just be one provisional teller window left open, but most places are off-limits to the public. Just tarps everywhere, workmen walking around, and the like.

I just noticed that I’m feeling something similar right now. I don’t think it’s dragon reborn presults.

I’m not actively planning on a rerun yet.

I’m thinking it may be related to Khan Black in my custom.

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#206
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#207

6:30 pm and I’m finally getting around to today’s loops. Woke up at 4 am today and was just not falling back asleep. Got up at 5 and did meditation for an hour. Had a 10 am meeting and an 11:15. But after that, I just felt pretty tired. So, at 5 something I ended up taking a nap for a bit. Once that was done, I felt more confident to play my subs. Just finished PHENOMENAUT Genesis and now I’m getting ready for BUILD.

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#208

And 7:45 pm to 8 pm, played BUILD in Ultrasonic.

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#209

When it comes to direct influence and impact, phenomena are affected by those elements and processes that are parts of the same system.

The Ocean is affected by ‘Ocean Things’.

Crops are affected by soil quality, moisture, other plants, insects, i.e., ‘Farming and Agricultural Things’

And so on.

Happiness is a Mind Phenomenon.

It is influenced by Mind Things.

The cultivation of Happiness involves the improvement of Mind Things.

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#210

Good quote:

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#211

I have noticed a lot of very organic expression of The Revelation of Spirit happening in the past month or two. As usual, I noticed it after it had already been happening for a while.

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#212

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Rested for 6 days. This time managed to squeeze out 68 pushups. Think I might possibly have been able to do 1 or 2 more. Rest times make a big difference.

We’ll see.

There are only 4 workouts left in this program. But the last formal workout has 78 pushups on the first set. So, I’ll need more time to get to 100.

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#213

Did PHENOMENAUT Genesis this morning before meditation; in supine position on bed.

Going to shower now and make some breakfast. Steak and eggs, methinks. Maybe green beans, potatoes, and okra sautéed on the side. Yum!

Then at some point, it’ll be BUILD.

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#214

This is just for me

Fuck outcomes, scores, and products. The right focus for me is PROJECTS.

In other words, for me, it makes sense to organize my journey in terms of the projects that I’m actively working on, and in terms of the projects that I’m able to be actively working on.

Proper Engagement with the Right Projects IS my primary result. My primary Metric.

I’m a Long-Gamer and so it makes sense for me to think and move like a long-gamer.

Taking fitness as a very simple metaphor:

The amount that I lift in my workout is not my focus. The content, the structure, and the stability of the workout is my focus.

As a long-gamer, I’ll eventually get to whatever number Joe Blow has arbitrarily decided is a good number.

Yay.

That’s not really the point.

The saying goes ‘Give a man a fish and he’ll eat for a day; teach him how to fish and he’ll eat forever’.

But for lots of people, if you want this principle to fly out the window all you have to do is raise the number of fish. ‘But surely things are different if you give him 5000 fish, right?’ Nope. Principle still stands.

It’s not about the fucking number. Numbers are always going to go up and down. That’s the nature of life on earth. What you want is to have a structure that can withstand, accommodate, and even integrate the ups and downs.

It would be better to have an 80 lb bench-press with a very robust and solid workout program, than to have a 280 lb bench-press but extremely low awareness of your program.

And for me this applies to subliminals.

The primary question for me is not ‘What did I get?’ It’s ‘With what am I engaged?’ ‘What am I connected to?’

I’ve always said, I’d rather be the janitor in Heaven, than the highest ruler in Hell. If you’re a janitor in Heaven, guess where you still are? And if you’re the highest ruler and winner in Hell, guess where you still are?

That metaphor, for me, is about Engagement. It’s about recognizing the VALUE of Engagement.

That’s the long-game.

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#215

If you take charge of your Engagement then you’ve taken charge of your process. The rest of it is a matter of time.

My projects aren’t right yet.

But movement is happening.

Somehow in the past couple of months, it has been manifested for me to at the helm of two projects. They’re not the right projects, but I’m appreciating them now because I think they’re means and preparation for me to get to the right projects and to be competent when that happens.

It looks like with two partners I’ll be editing a book. And I"m also going to be heading up a project that that tracks and evaluates quality with regard to a particular sector of service. Both of these projects will unfold over the next year.

In a sense, they kind of ‘dropped into my lap’. Not really. But it sure felt that way.

And I can see that it’s my subs and Zero Point coordinating circumstances so that I’ll be able to drive my ship. It’ll be a process with ups and downs, but importantly, these will be learning and growth opportunities.

I think. I can sense what Results smell like. And these are clearly results.

These are not my goal projects. And what I’m trying to say and trying to understand is that, for me, I’ll know I’m getting better at things when I am engaged with certain projects. It’s just how I’m wired. I’m fueled by process, not by outcome, and not even by progress. Too much focus on progress actually screws me up sometimes.

I think of it like the old story of Jesus’ disciples walking on water. When they kept their eyes on him, it was fine. When they started to get too amazed in the ‘miracle’, they started to sink.

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#216

Yesterday was a subliminal day. Today and tomorrow are resting and processing times.

Time for bed.

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#217

For now, I want to focus on building a solid foundation with The Malkuth Catharsis custom stack before adding anything else. My stack doesn’t feel impossibly dense, but it does contain 6 program cores. And I think it will require more time for me to really integrate it and express it strongly.

But when I do open up, it’s likely that I will run Dragon Reborn Gold.

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#219

Every jewel of spiritual knowledge and insight is a mountain peak. Its forbidding heights challenge and call forth one’s capacities of willpower and striving; and when the summit is at last attained, its revealed vistas embody the understanding of truths. These linger in awareness as treasured memories.

Yet, the summits, and the mountains themselves, must be left behind, and home regained. And with timeand distance, those memories grow tenuous and dim. The motivations and inspirations fueled by them begin to flag and weaken.

When this happens, there is no need to fret or mourn. It simply means that it is time to prepare to ascend once more.

In this way, through repeated ascents, descents, and homecomings, the relationship with insight is reaffirmed and deepened.

It need not be a thing of fear. Rather it an be a process characterized by active, willing engagement.

When I forget you, I will visit you again.

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#220

Since transitioning to full loops on 30 May, I have already experienced an unmistakeable uptick and intensification of results from PHENOMENAUT Genesis.

One of the most noticeable:

I used to post on Twitter semi-regularly. When I meditate, it’s pretty common that some insight or non-verbal intuition may pop into my awareness. Often, in the past, Twitter was a kind of sketchbook in which to quickly jot down and express such things. Eventually, it started to become less frequent, and with the changes over the past 2 years, it slowed down to a mere trickle. Although I posted regularly in the past, at this point, I don’t usually post anything. And it’s been this way for a while.

On 28 May, I played a 10 minute loop of PHENOMENAUT Genesis. On 30 May, I made the decision to begin playing full 15-minute loops of my two customs.

Also on 30 May, I received a message from someone who was mutually following. Over some years, we appreciated and liked posts from one another. Now the person was reaching out to have a conversation. It was noticeable because in several years this was the first time that happened with this person. It was an immediate and noticeable effect. You Are Not Alone is the final module included in PHENOMENAUT Genesis.

Another Result:

On 4 June, I was pulled into a meeting. I’d actually forgotten about it, and the person organizing the meeting came to knock on my door and brought me individually to the meeting. In that meeting, I found myself sharing about my professional interests, and by the end of the meeting, I found myself slated to collaboratively edit a book project. (Mentioned this up above in a previous post somewhere.)

That was 5 days after having initated full loops.

It seems to be a result of the combination of PHENOMENAUT Genesis and BUILD (to which I refer, collectively, as The Malkuth Catharsis). It’s part of the unfolding process.

You give your best to each phase of the unfolding process, and this, in turn, contributes to the enhancement of subsequent phases of unfolding. I’m semi-interested in this book project, but it can certainly lay the foundation for future projects in which I am fully interested.

Okay. So that’s some sharing. Time for morning routine.

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#221

Listened to BUILD first this morning.

Then listened to PHENOMENAUT during the first 15 minutes of my meditation hour. Took a fast shower, and hightailed it to office in time for my morning meeting.

I feel good that my main practices are completed.

Still have a bunch of other things to do.

Eating lunch. Going to pick up my son’s and my passport. Then get back here in time for two afternoon meetings.

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#222

Have to renew mine in around 2 months.

Is it a new passport you guys are getting or renewed ones?

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