We have to learn how to be humble in our pride.
Intellectualization as a coping strategy and a defense mechanism.
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I feel that the ultimate fruition of learning to listen to and respect the experiential intelligence of your body is learning to listen to others’ bodies as well.
Little hiccough this morning.
Forgot that yesterday I’d set an impromptu appointment this morning for 9 am. Neglected to add it to my calendar.
Started meditating at 8:25 or so, and got interrupted by a call from the people for the meeting. Thank goodness we were able to have it. And this now has given me a good reminder to maintain my appointments calendar. Next few months are looking pretty busy, so this is probably helping me to avoid similar or larger missteps in the future. I’ll do an actual meditation hour later.
Give me the strength of consciousness to see beyond the surface of display, façade, and condition.
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Okay, so as referenced in the above two posts, I’ve (relatively quickly, for me) transitioned into a new run: Dragon Reborn Gold and Genesis: The Art of Happiness and Joy.
Interestingly, just after my run maybe an hour or so, had a conflict/argument at home.
In the heat of it, my worth and accomplishments were challenged/attacked. But I did not react with reflexive counterattack. And my self-worth felt relatively solid.
I sometimes get ‘counter-results’ like these at the start of a run. They seem to correspond to the area that is being worked on.
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The following day, Sunday, I started to get the edge of a cold. Today, I’m sick. Just took a 20 minute nap at my office desk. My family members just returned from a trip in which all of them got sick. I’m guessing that’s the genesis.
But the timing is special.
Feels like a baptism by fire a little bit.
A little bit high right now on circulating immune cells (cytokines, t-cells, and company). Gratitude, gratitude, gratitude. To have this amazing body that protects me from infection. It’s truly amazing.
Planning to take a taxi home today instead of walking. I’ll make a stop at a pharmacy and get some more ammo and fuel.
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I love that phrase
Hope youre back to full health soon
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Wow. It’s been quite the week.
At first, coughing, breathing difficulty, sore throat, and so on.
Now, we’re basically down to fatigue and some fever.
Turns out it was Influenza, type A. (I took a home-analysis test that examines for 4 different conditions and got back a very clear result.)
I’m not out of it yet, but I can feel that I’m getting much closer. Tomorrow, I’ll try to get up earlier and get some movement out in the sun. I think we’re at that point of things now.
But it’s hard not to feel that the timing is just wild.
Saturday morning, I change my stack for the first time in over a year.
By 1 or 2 hours later, I’m in a heated argument. By 1 or 2 days later, I’m dealing with the flu.
I don’t think it’s anything so simple as ‘A caused B’. For example, I think that all of my family may have gotten sick with this in the previous 2 weeks as they were traveling on a trip that I did not join. So the illness might have been ‘waiting at the gates’ regardless.
Yet with the recon of starting two brand new titles, the gates may have been blown open a little bit. And I did not use micro-loops. It would be so cool to be able to travel back in time and compare the use of micro-loops to the use of full loops and see how that might have manifested differently.
Anyway, I find the co-occurrence to be pretty cool. I don’t tend to get any interesting recon; and for me recon is an easy sign that something within you is responding and changing.
In the meantime, I’ve chosen to wait until I am recovered before re-engaging with my new, interim stack. And this has led to me getting an organic washout period. Today’s Thursday, and my last sub run was on that Saturday. Since I run subs on Tuesdays, Thursdays, and Saturdays, that means I’ll have gotten at least a week of break. But if my illness lingers, it may be even more.
Feels decent to me, somehow.
A lot of things seem to be happening now; in development and afoot.
This illness seems to carry a bit of symbolic significance.
Shaking things up.
Opening up to some of the new possibilities that I asked for.
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Wishing you a full and speedy recovery 
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One very interesting aspect of this experience of sickness was a subtle sensation that I didn’t really notice until it had changed.
There was this fluid, open, permeable, free sensation. I’m pretty sure it was chemically-mediated. But as of yesterday evening, it was no longer so strong. Now instead, there’s a kind of almost stonelike solidity or stability to sensation.
That is pretty interesting. I hadn’t ever noticed that before in quite the same way.
Hope you get better soon! Looking forward to your Dragon Reborn+AoH combo journey!
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Thanks, @GoldenBird .
We’ll see. I’m feeling somewhat protean at the moment.
My base stack is still the same. PHENOMENAUT Genesis and BUILD. But I’m letting those two lie fallow for a while, while I try other things.
Dragon Reborn Gold is compelling to me. Genesis: Art of Happiness and Joy somewhat less so.
Ecstasy of Gold and The Revelation of Wealth speak to some deep and longstanding aspirations/goals. EoG was the first program that I purchased here at Subliminal Club. And I feel that I’m still precisely on the journey catalyzed by that step.
So the next few months are looking interesting to say the least.
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A week after my first Dragon Reborn Gold loop, I have now finally played another loop (since I’m finally over the flu, and feeling pretty solid again).
This time, I opted for a shorter loop, 3:32 this time. Also, I think I’ll play this title alone for today. I’d like a purer experience.
My first time was a full loop.
Eventually, I’ll increase back to a full loop I think.
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I’m glad you are feeling better!
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