Alright, another monthly 9-day processing phase in the can. Tomorrow, we re-engage. Letās see what happens in these next 3 weeks.
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Am contemplating this
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Facing challenges.
Donāt give up.
Apply mental and emotional discipline.
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9:30 am appointment today. Fortunately, woke up at 6:30 am, and meditated from 6:55 to 7:55. Had plenty of time and even napped more before the meeting.
This was the second of nine planned subliminal playdays in this 3-week play period.
PHENOMENAUT Genesis and BUILD integrated into my meditation hour (at minute 15, and then at minute 45)
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Grateful for meditation today.
Interestingly, I heard the chime at the beginning, but then none afterwards. (I usually set it to chime at 15 minute intervals.) Somehow the volume got turned all the way down. So I got to have an entire session in silence. Might do that more.
Also, sat for 8 or 9 extra minutes since there was no chime at the end. Actually, started expecting the chime right about at the 60 minute mark, but chose to sit longer just in case.
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2024 in general has brought a lot of challenges.
Some of them have actually begun to diminish.
I noticed some states of mind, thoughts, etc., (for example, discouragement, frustration, powerlessness; not all day everyday, but recurrent) that I gradually began to think might be reconciliation-related. Just because they did seem to intensify after Tuesday when I returned to active listening.
Iām still not completely sure.
I have been with my current stack for 6 to 13 months. I think itās very cool that the modules annd programs are continuing (as promised) to provide a powerful impetus to growth, transformation, and integration. In many ways, it feels like Iām still just getting started with this stack.
My two programs have 3 program cores each. This was an experiment, because itās a bit denser than the recommended 2 program cores. I chose to do it because these two programs really do represent a thorough and comprehensive expression of my life aspirations. Itās easy to stay with the stack because the stack is an expression of Me.
At the same time, sometimes change feels so gradual. Iām trying to move mountains.
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My mind is processing some challenging stuff these days. I just want to write it down because this moment like all will pass and I want to remember it.
I woke up from a dream in which I was sitting on a bench under a tree, and a group of people were gathering about me. The people themselves just looked like a group who were about to do some kind of community activity, like clean-up or something. Then I noticed that the leader was giving them the kind of rhetoric-focused talk about āissuesā that you give to people when youāre trying to get them to not think about the horrific act theyāre about to perform. I realized that these people were preparing to try to attack me and lynch me. Never had that dream before. Whoa.
Meanwhile, in real life, Iām processing feelings of stuckness, discouragement, doubt.
Wild.
Not my top-request, to be sure. But youāve got to deal with whatās in the mind. And this is what is coming up.
Seems like my mind is gradually processing what it needs to process.
Just now, for example, I remembered an affirming attitude that allowed more self-compassion and self-support into awareness. I am grateful.
Anyway. Want to make a note of this because time often goes by so freaking fast in retrospect that sometimes these moments disappear into the rear view and you donāt even remember them properly.
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Reality originates in the mind/consciousness, and is expressed through (and must navigate) material substance.
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One development that I associate with my subs over the past 2 years is a real increase in just feeling love and care for people. I always loved people, but thereās just been this kind of change to it.
It is not sentimentality. Itās more like feeling more in touch with feelings or something.
There are various parts of me that I feel more in touch with. Sometimes it doesnāt even feel awesome. But it always feels real.
I often have the thought, āI really like that personā or āI love that personā after meeting with someone.
I noticed an uptick in this after running Dragon Reborn. I felt more connected with people who arenāt physically present. It also enhances my motivation sometimes though because I find helping people to be one of the sources of motivation or reward. Iām speaking quite generally and vaguely here. I donāt just want to do anything simply because it may help someone. Itās more specific than that. I also really love solitude, and Iāll sweep people away when I need my introversion time. But once Iāve replenished my energy again, Iāll start thinking about it again.
Another angle thatās related is that when it comes to my sense of what is true and real, one of the central streams of this for me is an awareness of othersā experiences. Expanded boundaries or borders of consciousness. This feels almost like the next frontier to me.
Sort of an alternate version of Remote Viewing or Astral Travel, like what the guy used to do in the show Quantum Leap. āJumping intoā the phenomenological frame and process of āanotherā person or entity.
okay.
end of braindump.
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The CHOICE of what to do AFTER a āfailureā or a blow defines in large part the course and quality of your life and the life of your family.
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The Revelation of Spirit
The Revelation of Mind
These are the two programs at the core of my entire stack.
This is it.
Everything proceeds from that foundation and that functional center. That earth and that soil.
People say all kinds of things about spirit and spirituality.
To me, spirit is the evolving response to the question: āWhat Is Truly Real?ā
Thatās what spirit is and what spirit means to me.
Itās the asking of the question
Itās the actual answer(s) to the question (whatever those answer may be)
Itās my evolving understandings of the question
Itās my relationship and orientation to the question
Itās my embodiment and my enactment of the question
Itās the effects that the question and its responses have on the various domains and levels of my life
What Is Real?
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When making decisions about a partnership or cooperation with another person, do not only consider the personās nobility of intention, also consider their capability, their capacity, their habits. Then you can make an appropriate decision without blame or resentment.
Having good intentions is important and necessary, but it is not sufficient.
Admire and love someone who has good intentions. But donāt commit to working with them on a specific project unless, in addition to good intentions, they also have understanding and ability related to that project.
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Think creatively
Move creatively
You can do it
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What else is possible?
What can I try?
What can I do?
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Just had an intuitive hit that gave a bit more insight into the career strategy and orientation of the INFP.
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Yes, and?
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- An inward facing orientation to a discipline, view, or project that is more about oneself and oneās experience of the world than about a job, task, or external goal, or a service provided to others. This may be, for the INFP, the foundation of true vocation. The job or the work emanates from this, but is neither the core nor the purpose of it. I thought of the great astrologer, Steven Forrest. He has been on a decades-long project to deepen and align his own understanding. The consultations that he offers to others are secondary to that. Another image would be the oracle at Delphi. The main orientation of that person is what they are doing at the temple, day after day: devotions, meditations, ritual practices, etc. Then at particular times, they open up that space for visitors to enter, and drawing from that fund or fountain of inner engagement, they offer a singular perspective or consultation to the visitor. And the visitor pays in some way. So this is similar to the conventional job. But after the visitors leave, the oracle returns to the primary work.
An extraverted society frames and defines you in term of what you do, the deals you make, the goals you meet, the works you perform. This will never satisy Introverted Feeling. It is primarily directed towards an establishment and expansion of coherence and integration. The elaboration of a lived worldview or ontology.
- Eugene Gendlinās āfelt senseā as the intellectual expression of introverted Feeling.
The great psychological philosopher Eugene Gendlin seems to me to have been describing and outlining exactly the process of how introverted Feeling grows, creates, explores, and establishes. The steps of his Focusing are a guide for the introverted Feeler. Both a guide to the āHowā and a guide to the āWhatā and āWhyā.
Those are my attempts to express some of that non-verbal intuition from yesterday.
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current mood: I have this strange hopeful feeling.
Hope is a kind of enthusiastic anticipation of positive developments.
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