Hmmm but my total loops so far with Mind’s Eye we’re just 2 (on different days) .
That was also something I concluded yesterday in my meditation during the workout; it’s both a gift and a curse if abused, just like any drug in the world.
Like many bodybuilders have insanely good response to steroids, to the point where they can only take one compound and win competitions easily (not something like Mr. Universe or Olympia though), but that curiosity and thirst to be even better often leads to a path of pain (I personally know a guy who did that, and ended up getting humbled).
Well the other day I mentioned on the forum about how I dropped out of the previous degree before getting my business degree, then brought it up to my mom, and even though she didn’t say anything, I realized that somewhere deep within, I still had disappointment inside, that it was one of the things I gave up on.
Another thing could be League of Legends, while I’m good, I’m not that good, and whenever I lose, I feel like I sometimes let it effect how I see myself, as well as judge my self-worth, which is wrong because at the end of the day, it’s just a video game.
Both of those “issues” are (in a way) related to my cognitive capabilities.
Well you know how in the dream my subconscious “me” said that he’d mess up my reality?
Yesterday was my anniversary with my girl, she barely goes out ever, and hasn’t been out since we met on my birthday (24th December), but somehow caught Covid, then there’s the League stuff, so there’s powerlessness and vulnerability that I feel here and there, but it mostly ends up being a result of things I can’t control regardless, so I don’t know why they’d cause those feelings of vulnerability in the first place.
Washouts don’t really seem to do a lot for me most times. Past about 2-3 days. I’ve been having interesting results with BV3 lately. So I’m dialing in a nice balance (?) between intent/guidance and following my intuition as for actions to take.
I was actually having similar experience with mind’s eye terminus². Anxiety, vivid dreams that when I woke up I could still feel the effect of the dreams. E.g if someone slapped me in the dream, I woke up with a kind of similar pain.
Also I wanted to say this earlier but I had to go do something, I hinted at it in my PM to @SaintSovereign, but I got a much better dream earlier.
Basically, I first had my “meditation” during my workout, then drank the tea before bed, with the intent to meet the other “me” again, to have a more civil conversation with him, and I did, which now makes me feel like I have a much better control of this other side, but we did reach an agreement, and I know for a fact that it’s also what Saint would tell me to do anyways.
The agreement is as follows;
no more testing.
only doing things (including subs and types of workouts) that I personally like, feel good from, and for my benefit ONLY.
reducing exposure this week (I’ll alternate between one day for WZP and the next listening day for Emperor).
@SaintSovereign have you looked into precognitive dreams? I talked with Invictus privately today and it seems like one major thing we have in common are our dreams, indicating that we are having a closer connection with our subconscious minds. However, he is also the ONLY one I know besides myself who has regularly precognitive dreams…
So I know I said I’ll ease into it and do one day EZP and one day WZP, but I just felt like it wasn’t okay, so I asked for a sign for if I should do both or not, well… 2 things happened;
My friend (who gave me WANTED by Azzaro on my bday) texted me, telling me about making plans with me, my girl and this guy she’s interested in (wants me to be her wingman ).
my uncle visited us, asked me how’s life and how did the interviews go, I told him and then he said “seems like you’re gonna become a sheikh soon”.
Now that might seem normal or silly, but the first day I played emperor ZP, that’s what I was getting called when I went out, so yeah, got signs to listen both.
Which I already did, but updates will come later after gym
was getting extra good treatment from an employee at a grocery shop, they don’t usually do things for you other than answer questions about where something is, but when I asked today about where were the vegetables, the guy didn’t just take me there, but started putting them in those clear bags and kept asking what else I need. If Chosen’s aura makes others feel warm around you, then I’d say Emperor ZP’s makes others a bit more obedient (in a way).
higher endurance in the gym, while drinking less water while working out. This has translated to a bigger appetite, making it easier for me to consume more.
this one is a weird one; I started training abs after almost never training them
I honestly can’t seem to point out what it is, but I have this hypnotic and almost “devilish” look to me now, it’s like that module “edge of danger” but in my eyes and face . My jawline is also much sharper than ever before, and my face looks more masculine while shaved (I used to look somewhat androgynous without facial hair).
I know I don’t talk about WZP’s results as much, because let’s face it, after using a sub for so long, the results become “normal”, as in, my life is like the sales page’s description, so when I see girls staring, checking me out, flirty in interactions, or even sliding in my DMs, it just feels “normal”, because to me, that’s how my reality is, and has been since I’ve been using WZP during the test, and the Qv2 version before it. I guess I could probably even kick it out of my stack and it won’t make a difference (in terms of attention, girls and cockiness), but the only reason it’s still there is because of the physical shifting.
cognitive function is also much better, however, there’s this deep interest in learning more about anything (had this already, but now it’s on steroids) to the point where I stopped listening to music as much while driving, and instead turn on videos on any new info. Example; during the drive after my workout, I was listening to a video about the most unbalanced or “broken” champions in the game I play, just for fun .
finally, I’m becoming more responsible, similar to Chosen, but without the feeling of selflessness, which I prefer more. I wonder how it would be like to mix both though , but nah, not bothered to find out right now .