I had some chamomile tea before yesterday, and for those who have read my previous journal, you probably know what happened.
I’ll write about the dream in a bit, but just know that my other self talked to me again.
@Melior you like the dreams I get right?
This one is a crazy one.
Did you see yourself but in a group of yoursel"ves" ahahah ? Instead of only one this time
I’ll wait in my chair and read your post with eager in a pause XD
Okay so I’m still feeling a bit scared, like my hands are still trembling a bit writing this, not because it was a nightmare or a bad dream, but because my “other” self went far and beyond with what he was telling me this time.
I don’t normally get scared of anything, not even the hallucinations of “demons” during a sleep paralysis, but this time, I’ve been scared in a humbling way.
So the dream;
It started with me being in a white room, tied to a chair, unable to move, then the whole room went dark and someone called out my name (my real name), I wanted to ask who it was, but I already knew who it was, and then I see a throne appear out of nowhere, with the other “me” sitting on it like a king, looking an enhanced version of myself, with white wings on his back.
I asked him “what’s all this”, and he replied with “welcome to my reality”. He started scolding me, telling me I’m taking him for granted with my experiments (I’m certain he was referring to the subs I’m experimenting with), that just because he helps me shape my reality the way I want it, doesn’t mean that I can just keep adding more things and “order him around”.
I replied saying that I was doing it for the sake of experimentation and the community, since it could help a lot of people, and he shouted “shut up”…
He blew up on me, saying “who the fuck cares about what you listen to?! I’m the one shaping your reality”, At this point I wanted to go lucid and try to control the dream, but felt unable to and heard him tell me “no no no, this is my reality, not yours”, after that he said that if I kept going out of bounds, then he’ll teach me a lesson from within, so I asked him “what would you rather me do then?”, and while he didn’t answer that, he said “I guided you enough, and this will be the last”, and then the dream ended with me falling in a white void, but this time it was going black…
When I woke up, I felt my eyes being itchy, so I rubbed them and I could see 2 letters in front of my eyes “W E”, and I think I got the message, but there’s also a thought that popped up in my head that I will PM @SaintSovereign about, but yeah, I think I should stop with my experiments and tests.
@Melior there you go man.
Yeah Sauvage was a good smell for me at first (the dry down is what I love especially) but I got so tired of smelling it not just on myself but others, that I got fed up and gave it away to a cousin.
I’m surprised you haven’t smelled Eros before, I come across it all the time. I also gave Eros away.
Right now it’s very cold where I am, so I’ve been using a lot of my Tom Ford Tobacco Vanille, it’s a little pricey but definitely worth it. Super unique scent, like all of Tom Ford’s collection, you won’t find another brand that makes scents that are more different than anyone else’s.
You should try mixing perfumes as well, that takes it up a notch, however, you need to really know which mixes well, because let’s say if you mixed something like 212 VIP black with something like DG the one, it won’t smell good, but 212 VIP black with Invictus Victory smells something that I could only describe as “Soft VIP vanilla”.
DG the one and Dior Fahrenheit also mix really well for times when you wanna smell like a warm bonfire that makes girls wanna hug you to get a sense of warmth 
100% agreed, I use molecular compositions as a tool to mix certain scents. Molecule 01, Molecule 02 and Not A Perfume are scents that can be mixed with a wide range of perfumes. You can also buy the raw chemicals if you want to save money because that’s basically what those scents are composed of: iso e super, ambroxan and cetalox.
Iso E Super/Molecule 01 mixes amazingly with summer/spring/citrus/fresh scents, Ambroxan/Molecule 02 is excellent with warm/spicy/winter scents and Not a Perfume/Cetalox is a woody scent that can be mixed with a wide range. You can also wear the scents by themselves as something light.
I forgot you are using minds eye.
Could be a trick or not.
I thought about that, but something tells me it’s not.
The only effect of ME ZP here is the increased vividness of the dream, in my opinion.
You never disappoint omfg
I’m pretty sure that ZP (even old Qv2 to a lesser extend, from a personnal spiritual experience on APx) really enhance your connections with higher forms, entity, cousciousness,etc … Call it whatever you want
Because on APx Qv2 I had 2 experience near eachothers of a connections that feel similars to yours but still quite different (I had the voice talking to me too ahahah), and those two experience was linked to the same “entity” that I’m still not yet able to grasp
That’s another reason why I want so bad APzp because it gave me some big spiritual connection I struggled to experience in months (and did not get since stopping the sub)
so @SaintSovereign, that’s another reason why I hold APx so dearly and wanna see him get zeeepeed
Calling other testers
@Lion @Ice @SubliminalUser @AlexanderGraves @Sub.Zero @Malkuth @Trader
And @Simon
What do you guys think about the dream?
I can’t even begin to know. Sounds intense. I would’ve also tried going lucid. So good on you.
If you view it as “just” a dream and don’t add any esoteric meaning to it, I’d say that some part of you has concerns that need to be addressed.
I’d meditate, ask it again. And again. Get the answer to the question you’re asking. You’re the one in charge overall, not this dream figure.
As I read your description of “King Invictus,” I was mentally reminded of the movie “The Cell” when the girl (Jennifer Lopez’s character) was stuck in Carl Starcher’s mind and he was tormenting her.
What is APx?
It stand for Astral projection X
You think it might have to do with the fact that I’ve been trying to do subs just to give feedback to help others make choices?
Only you can say that. Everybody’s dream symbols are personal to them. That’s why dream symbol dictionaries are bullshit.
Ask King Invictus. Nobody else can give you an accurate answer.
Definitely a message from your higher self. Your subconscious, superconcious, Zero Point Self.
There’s a lot of reluctance from within about certain things I’m currently doing.
Like I’ve been feeling it for a while but chose to ignore it. These things include; doing all these subs instead of just the 2 I want to do and be happy with, doing the type of training I personally like instead of mainstream kind, hopping on a steroids cycle instead of just waiting to build my body with subs, wanting to get high more often instead of being sober and wasting my “holidays”, etc.
Ultimately, you’re here for you and nobody else. Everyone else can run their own tests.
I think it might want me to stop testing things for the sake of pushing the limits, and just stick with what I really want to do (WANTED QZP4 and Emperor ZP).