Dude I was just reading your journal, the long post you made was just wow
I think you’re going through some deep self realizations from the ZP script, because something similar was happening to me when I was in the private test during the ZP development. I like what you wrote mate, your insights is opening up your eyes.
Also, just to make sure, you’re running ME ZP in your stack, right ?
Life isn’t as easy to master my man, we all master parts of life that we are personally interested in, but even then, total mastery of anything in life isn’t as easy, why? Because there will ALWAYS be someone better than you at what you do, and if it wasn’t someone alive at the moment, then either there was someone before you, or someone will be there after you.
As for me personally, if I had all the knowledge I have right now, and I got put to point 1 tomorrow, then I can safely say that I can get back to where I am today quicker.
Remember, life went on before subs, life can go on after subs too .