Yes, this! This was what I meant @Invictus
You said that the girl you dissed would be thinking about you. I hope you turned it around for your benefit. 
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oh, when I said that I meant that she’d be thinking about me as the man she couldn’t have, so it’s an ego boost 
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I know that’s what you meant, but that girl is going to be sending you some 
Unless she enjoys being mistreated then you’re a lucky man 
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In that case Aegis Initiative SI or Sanguine Ultima could be of help
By the way, why those that report prevalent heavy recon don’t include Sanguine U in their stacks.
Shouldn’t it be a must for hardgainers and recon sensitive users?
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One huge thing is that energy goes where attention flows.
There’s a guy I follow on social media. A ghost hunter guy. That’s his whole thing right. So he just moved into a new house and wouldn’t you know it he was woken up this morning between 3-5am by some ghost tickle action!
From the Neville perspective he says all that is required to undo a manifestation is to remove your attention from it. It’s true!
I know as things clear up for me say unwanted situations don’t come up because they don’t come up in mind! Say a typical annoyance out in public if you remain aware, the thoughts may still come up that it’s a problem or blah blah blah, but because you’re aware you stop the train, you don’t put any thought into it and so it just drops away.
It’s that simple but the way we identify with our personal minds, it takes us a sort of happy accident, or not to wake us up so we can see clearly that yea I don’t know how or why I was creating that for myself but now I’m not and I don’t even know why. It’s just not in my experience anymore.
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3rd day of washout:
Yesterday was amazing, but then I stayed up too late playing and ended up sleeping till like 4pm, but it’s not like I had much to do today anyways 
Since I’ve been awake, I’ve been feeling extremely calm, with what I would call “emotional neutrality”, basically being in a state of neutrality emotionally, no extremes (happiness or sadness), but just being me and feeling balanced.
I would have called it “emptiness” in the past, especially when I had too many things that would surface, but after all this time on ZP, the neutrality feels good in its own way, like taking a break from everything and just enjoying the now.
So probably starting my 3rd cycle of ZP tomorrow, unless I get any signs not to (I already feel the voice telling me I took enough rest).
Also @SaintSovereign gaming has improved on Stark ZP more than GMX and ME ZP, and it’s apparent enough that my gaming buddy and my girlfriend have both commented on it 
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Man this really spoke to me, that empty feeling has often haunted me in the past. Being able to actually appreciate something that ive always associated with things that are extremely negative and painfull, thats definitely a real mindfuck for me, and i freaking love that.
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And that my friend, is the clearest indication of growth 
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I’m working out rn and the voice is here, saying:
“tell them your story, they don’t fully understand you”
All the ways you wish you could be, that’s me. I look like you wanna look, I fuck like you wanna fuck, I am smart, capable, and most importantly, I am free in all the ways that you are not.
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So the decision to end my washout at 3 days has been made, and I’ll listen to my stack in a bit.
Current stack is still EmZP and StZP, however, I have this call inside to use a 3rd subs, and I feel like the voice already gave me some choices, with reasonings on why, but I’m still unsure of which to choose;
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chosen, since the only resistance it had was with WZP, in terms of humility vs cockiness.
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chosen from within, the extra love and healing scripting wouldn’t hurt.
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RICH ZP, maximizing everything related to wealth.
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ME ZP, give it another go
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love bomb ZP, increase the amount of love from everyone around me.
What do you guys think ?
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Man given what youre already getting from emperor and stark, adding love bomb/chosen from within to it will really bring that even more over the top lol. Youll have people actually chasing you down in the street to try and get to talk to you. It may be a bit redundant, but man am i curious wtf kinda things youll experience when you try it.
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(people chasing u)
Wouldn’t LB take the edge off from W and E ?
Like…you will become lovable like an empathetic leader instead of The One that got away?
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May be. Just intuitive guess… LB may be helpful
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Wanted isn’t staying in my stack anymore.
As much as I love it, I honestly feel like I got everything out of it, like even though I haven’t played it since before the wash out, I can still feel the aura radiating when I went to get food earlier, as the car next to me had a girl in it and she started talking to me when I pulled my window down to smoke
Plus, even with all the attention from chicks, it kinda gets boring after a while, because honestly, I’d rather get recognized by successful people for the impact I make/can make, instead of just some chicks staring at me like I’m a supermodel or an actor.
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What if I went back to OG chosen ?
I mean, it did land me the job at the Olympics Committee, and it made me feel like I was doing something great, instead of just boosting my ego with girls.
Also, even when it comes to Chosen, there are 2 choices;
Either public preview version, or the testing version.
Anyway, it is just a possibility.
It could enhance the attraction from women as well.
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You know, as much as I would love to, keeping WZP in my stack doesn’t make sense to me anymore, however, now that I think about it, adding something like LB ZP could help me in other ways too.
As in, more of that Halo effect that I got from WZP, without anything else that WZP would give
Chosen from within would give you both at the same time, although im not sure you neccessairly need the healing, it cant hurt either.
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