It’s that time of week again when I write and begin to forge a story, I guess it’s time I threw my thoughts out a bit.
Stack: Emperor fitness, Khan, Libertine.
I’ve noticed I’ve become a bit of a different animal, something more comfortable in it’s skin than ever before, whilst it isn’t as chill as the phases I went through as a teen, it’s insanely more intense.
Well because I am starting to understand women. Actually…I understand femininity a bit more, In a wordless…Powerful protector kind of way.
I show empathy and kindness unlike I did ever before, including men…
I’ve now created a map in my mind, pathways towards all the why’s how’s and what’s of attracting FEMININITY.
Libertine seemed at first like an expensive steroid that’s one of a kind but that’s all it is…A steroid.
I’m starting to see that it’s doing as much work as Khan in the polarity of sexuality aspect.
Blending gentleness whilst sub communicating that you will ravage them.
AS CRINGY AS THAT SOUNDS.
If anything I’m starting to see why it’s so rare and desirable, most men cringe at their most primal state of genuine--------ness
I’m less dependent on validation and I think I can confidently say that I’m entirely independent now.
Men fuck up.
Men say dumb shit.
Men tunnel vision too hard to be the awkward weirdo that isn’t just putting his balls on the table and saying: “This is me, I’m sorry if you don’t like it”
Of course I don’t want to try to say dumb shit or fuck up. But if it happens, I know I am a flawed being that will trip up, it DOES not matter.
Where am I going with this?
I’ve finally found a good outside open circle that holds events and has beautiful young girls, and they love me.
This is the second time on Khan I have been out to a new social atmosphere and new group.
This is the second time I’ve done this since I moved to this war zone.
So you can say the times I did it were me on Khan.
I was pretty cool, I won’t sit here and try to say I’m amazing because you will never truly know how people see through their glasses.
But in my eyes to be perfectly honest I was a god.
They want to see me again and I was so doped up on 2 loops of libertine that I was getting stares unlike anything I’ve seen before.
Yeah a lot of it is my body, My life has been the gym and I have never gone out with people to hang out outside of my Khan listenings.
HOW DID I DO IT?
long story it’s boring but I manifested some, balls’d through some, and charisma’d some.
Anyway, this journal is now my home.
Ask for coffee or tea anytime.