The Fire Road 🔥 (Primal Seduction/Paragon)

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#1

Purpose:
"I break free from all chains and crown my own worth, living life bold and untamed”.

Core Beliefs:
My time is valuable
I stand my own ground
I set healthy boundaries
I’m willing to walk away from anything and anyone thats not aligned with my purpose.

Core Values:
Freedom
Authenticity
Heartfelt Connection.

Current Stack:
Primal Seduction
Paragon

I started this path around late january, early february. I was listening to AoH at the time.
The hardcore part of the work was done while listening to Wanted Black and Love Bomb, later I changed LB for Paragon cause of intense joint pain.

Today I started Primal Seduction with Paragon.
I will keep or change a sub according to what I need to focus on at the time, being my Purpose, Core Beliefs and Values, what guides me through what I call the Fire Road.

WB was a great self exploratory tool and helped me have great connection, intimacy and sex with a couple of women, but thats over now, they were not the kind of woman I can vibe with for a longer time.
WB showed me the man I really am, that was hidden below years of sorrow, fears, lack mentality and negative conditioning.

Now I want to focus on developing other skills and PS is by far the best tool for the job.
I dont want to define myself over what things or behaviours I feel I can do or not. I define myself as a man that can do what I want to do. I want to live life being and moving unapologetically confident.

Paragon will have a place in my stack while I recover from my joints and muscles. Im doing a 30 minutes Yoga routine everyday, specially designed for my needs, in a month or 2, I will move into the next phase.

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#2

To decide how long my loops are Im using a purely intuitive take. I asked my unconscious mind to generate a strong, warmth sensation growing from the center of my chest and to spread it through my whole body.
When I felt it, I communicated my intention that this is the signal to use when Ive reached the optimal amount of exposure for each title.

Taking the end of the feeling as the moment to hit stop, not the beginning.

Today results:

PS: 2:33
Paragon: 6:00

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#3

Thank you @Jouissance and @Viktor for spreading some inspiration around :pray:

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#4

Besides the Yoga routine, I contacted an acupuncturist that I know, she lives in another country, but she recommended me someone who can help me. Turns out this guy works like a 5 minutes walk away from where I live. Gotta love those “meaningless coincidences”

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#5

Leaving the physical pain aside (today has been much better btw) I feel exquisitely good.
A sense of comfortable pleasure of inhabiting my own skin.

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#6

I woke up and the pain is significantly lower, the mobility increased. Seems like the intuitive dose of Paragon worked super fine.
I also change one medication last night, but I doubt thats the reason, Ive taken the same thing many times before, even after surgery last year and never really killed much pain… but who knows, I will keep doing both things for a while.

Its worth noticing that Ive been doing a LOT of inner work to ressolve the triggers and the emotional landscape associated with the pain.

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#7

On the PS side of things, the thing I noticed since yesterday is an increase in confidence, a more relaxed attitude and thoughts that are aligned with it. Kind of “This is me” and I love it… feeling and filling my space in the world.

Ive been using some tools to deepen the changes I want from PS, like Deep Trance Identification and other forms of Hypnotic Installation.

For DTI I chose some role models who represents the attributes and attitudes I want to develop, chunk those attitudes down into pieces, ordered them into a logical path and Ive been doing daily sessions.

Wednesday I did an Hypnotic Installation of my version of the Orgazmorator (from the movie Orgazmo) basically a device for transferring feelings into someone else. I didnt stop at just pleasure, it also transfers other feelings that are pre requisites for the more intense ones :wink:

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#8

“Your authenticity will shine as you live fully untamed, embracing every moment with a beginner’s mind”.

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#9

Same approach for todays listening session

Paragon 2:40
PS 4:07

The signal its pretty obvious and strong, Im curious to see how this approach works in terms of results, for now the only report is a deep sense of well being.

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#10

Very awesome that you set up that messaging system from the SubC!

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#11

Yeah I was using something similar a while ago, but decided to formalize it.
Im gonna give it a cycle to test how it works.

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#12

I used to do a pendulum (really just an old key on a string or a wet tea bag).

Any time I was going to ask a question, tell the SubC to swing whatever way it chooses for yes, then for now.

I would do that each time in case it “decided” to change it.

Kinda limiting having only responses of “yes”, “no”, and “maybe” of course.

What you set up sounds even better.

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#13

Pendulum never really worked for me, I used ideomotor signals for a long time, but beyond some exceptions, I was never really sure I wasnt making it up, controlling the responses. Of course theres also the limitation in the scope of the answers (yes/no/maybe).

For a while Ive been using emotions as signals a lot, when doing self hypnosis/nlp and its what works best for me.

Give it a go, maybe you will find it useful. Be sure to be able to get the emotional response from your Unconscious mind on a consistent bases, before you specify whats going to be its use.

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#14

If you can find it, Bob Burns also has a cool one he sells on DVD called “The Swan”.

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#15

I know this feeling. What really helped me was keeping my mind occupied right after asking the question. Like doing some random calculations (375-17-16-15-14-13-12… 132/32/3*2/3…)
And when I check after some time I notice my subconscious moved my hand most of the time.
Reciting poems also works.

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#16

Paragon 3:16
PS 3:50

Boy, quite a weekend I had… It would take too long to write all thats necessary to put a frame around what happened on saturday and be truly understood… Since Im still processing it, I dont know how to express it quite yet, or even if I want to.

It just feels important, transforming. A test of character or the opportunity to forge myself in the way I want to.

Absolutely an adventure that just began unfolding.

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#17

Whats being unfolded its pretty clear to me at this moment… I love freedom always been one of my core values in life…Yet at the same time Ive always been afraid of it, of what it represents, of the responsibility of being really free, letting go of all the chains.

Thats has been a constant struggle, a source of inner conflict throughout my whole life, a source of misunderstood rebellion and power struggle.
I made a lot of shitty decisions in the name of being free, but ultimately I was just doing the opposite of what I perceived was being imposed on me.

This is not directly relate to what happened on saturday… Ok maybe it is, but it wasnt the only thing. In a sense saturday was a shock that showed me the importance of feeling really free to be myself and how I trapped myself in fears and repressed my own essence.

This is PS at work… since Im developing my freedom using seduction as one of the paths.

rambling off

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#18

Im deepening my understanding of my main life struggle, the fight within.

Deep connections, feeling heard, seen and understood without judgment, is as important to me as freedom. This is something that only became obvious earlier this year, even though its been a force burning inside since like forever.

Now whats the problem? Or what was it?

In my mind I saw establishing a deep connection with someone, like a girlfriend, as losing freedom.
I saw freedom as something that could only be attained fully and completely by being on my own, a loner.

That means never being fully happy when alone, because I had an enormous longing for being connected emotionally, sexually, physically, with a woman. But always felt trapped and doomed when in a relationship, the deeper the relationship went, the more I wanted/fantasized about breking free.

This all translates into family relationships, friendship and work.

Can you imagine craving something so much and at the same time being deeply afraid of it, believing its gonna trap you, in a way you might not be able to escape.
On the other hand pursuing freedom as your goal in life… only to end up feeling lonelier and secluded, disconnected from the world.

I engaged in some parts integration work from NLP this morning. I realized that Im free to connect with who I want, as deeply as I want, for as long as I want. I realized that real freedom is being free of (self) imposed limitations and to live on my owm terms.

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#19

Day#7 16/5
Paragon 3:37
PS 2:20

One week into the stack already…

I keep going into introspection and healing, but in a way thats very enlightening and helps me understand and move on.

The thing is Im heavily questioning whether or not PS is a title I really want to use. Thats nothing new, if I remember correctly, Ive always had that reaction with PS in the past and stopped, maybe this time is for me to stick with it and go through whatever it is thats generating this feeling.

It doesnt feel as a sound, sensible reason to change it, it feels like escaping. Thats the important bit in me deciding to stick with it regardless.

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#20

So last saturday I invited some friends over for lunch and out of the blue I decided to invite this girl, we havent talked in months, we know each other going decades back, but never really had any kind of relationship besides that.
I just had the weird and intense impulse to invite her over… She said yes enthusiastically.

We had a really good time and ended up in bed and this is when things got “weird” we really connected before bed, but when we where both naked, I just couldn’t feel the chemistry, so after fooling around a bit we fell asleep.

The morning after she initiated again and the same thing happend, I could not perform… but it didnt felt bad, it felt weird, like there was a barrier. I told her “can I be honest with you? We had a great time last night, you are attractive and funny, but I dont feel the chemistry and for me its essential”.
She took it pretty well, well she actually took it as a challenge, to get me to like her that way… I can comment further on that, but is beside the point now.

What I realized is that before I used my sexual knowledge as a way to get women to like me, this time is different. I feel that if a woman doesnt like me as I am and I dont feel the connection, then for me its not worth the effort, I no longer need to prove myself by rocking her world sexually speaking. Thats a gift for the right kind of woman.
Also getting to know each other to the degree I want, takes a bit longer and requires a different context, one on one basically.

Things are funny that way… in the past my ego would have been devastated, but now I feel kind of indiferent.
I gotta say that she still seems like an interesting woman to me, we can talk about deep stuff, but sexually, she doesnt make it for me.
In the past I would have had sex with her… boring, mechanical sex. Now it doesnt fulfill me, I need more.

I told her that we could go out, have a drink and talk… and see where things go, maybe they dont go anywhere, maybe they do, but at least its worth finding out.

I read this again and thought… Did I just wrote that? Im in that phase when I can feel as a different person, but there still the memory of how things were, the shift is already developing… Im adapting to the results as they manifest.

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