I have decided to journal everything now. I am going to run a very crazy stack that will probably overwhelm me a bit at first but change me for the better.
Starting today i will be running EmpQ with Alchemist Q st1 and Khan st1. The reason I want to run Alchemist stage one is I feel like there is a lot of energy imbalance and negativity so this should help to clear that out. Eventually probably after a few weeks to a month that will be better and I can slim this down a bit. EmpQ is obviously a kind of all in one sub turned up to 100 lol. Khan total breakdown I feel will destroy everything that has been holding me back and what not. Also EmpQ will help me rebuild that foundation to make it 10x stronger that it was before.
Once I am done with total breakdown and alchemist st1, they will most likely be replaced with StarkQ and Ultimate Artist or khan stage 2 and UA.
I will be listening to this as much as possible probably 14-18 hours. I am just trying to figure out how I should stack them and how many loops each should get.
I will be updating this journal every few days.
My goals for the new few months would be:
Improve my mindset, lately i have been very depressed with everything going on in the world and my life. Me and my gf broke up a month ago, it hit me really hard and has eaten away at me. We have been trying to make things work since then and talking but keep fighting over miniscule retarded shit. I feel like my life is at a standstill and I’m going nowhere in life.
Work on the financial side of my life with my job that is barely hanging in there since business is terrible. Also looking into other forms of income and other ways i can make money, maybe learn some new trade and start a business.
Relationships: While my love life is a pile of dog shit and my gf wants to work things out but expects me to do all the heavy lifting lol. I don’t know if i should see what else is out there or keep trying even though i feel as if i should just figure myself out first before i jump back into anything. I am also afraid which is rare for me of getting back together to just end up at the same place i am with her. I would like to see what else is out there if things don’t workout with me and her. Or possibly just date around for awhile and just get laid while i work on myself by making myself a better person and figuring out where i want to go in life.
Writing: I would love getting back into writing again. The hard part is getting back into it and finding the drive to keep at it. i was doing really good with it for a few months planning it out and then writing a few chapters. Then i just hit a wall and couldn’t break through it. Maybe total breakdown will help me tear down that writers block I have. I also want to write multiple series in different genres.
Health and Wellness: This has always been important to me but at some point i fell off the wagon and stopped working out and getting fit, I used to be really fit, physically healthy, and made a lot better choices with what i ate. I certainly would like to get back to that, that could also help me with stress. And eventually i would like to get into some form of martial arts.
Spiritual: I would certainly like to work on getting more spiritually aligned with life and the universe experience more of what is out there. I am a christian but i have way different beliefs then most christians do which probably puts me in my own little bubble lol.
Knowledge: I want to learn way more about writing. Also would like to learn another language and a few more skills that can help me out in life. I would like to learn more about running a business and becoming a successful entrepreneur. I would love to learn more about publishing books and drawing. Something i would really like to accomplish after i make a name for myself with writing is opening a publishing company that is fair to writers since most are not.
Dreams and Goals: All of the stuff i named leads me to here which everything will eventually come together. My biggest dream ever since i was a little kid was to open up a wildlife sanctuary and build something kind of business or idea that i could leave to my kids and grand kids when ever i get around to that lol. I have alway wanted to give back to the world and find someway to make the world a better place even just a tiny bit. I think it’s important that everyone strives to leave something behind that will better the world in some way even just a tiny bit for future generations.
Another dream/goal of mine is to become a best selling author and also make a shit ton of money so I can live life the way i see fit and give back as much as possible.
Well hope everyone has a positive, productive, and wonderful day