The Burden of an Old Soul

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#1

Recon Warning

For whatever reason, I’m the guy with an old soul. It should be a good thing, but instead I feel pain. Pain of not meeting the social expectations of my age. When many would say, fuck expectations… I still embrace traditions, regardless.

I go to a party to have fun and let go and I can’t. I can’t just be free and be myself for a few hours, and it sucks. I don’t want to be serious all the time. I don’t want to be responsible all the fucking time. Sometimes I just want to be carefree and party. I play these subs wanting to be different than myself. I want to be wild and free, but I can’t. Damned if I do, damned if I don’t.

I’m in an overall good mental state, but this has been a lifelong pain for me… and isn’t really new. I hope things get better, but :man_shrugging:t5:

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#2

I’m gonna say something that’s kind of controversial but “old soul” lines up way too much with “mature for their age” which points to a lack of fundamental needs being met in childhood and being forced to mature too fast that has repercussions down the line. Unless you believe in reincarnation, but far too often I think these terms are adopted to explain away things that have more nuance to them.

Point being, it’s good you see it. But don’t hang onto that label. Try to unpack it more and you’ll see it’s far more complex. The pain is a good indication something isn’t sitting right with you about it.

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#3

WB+DR:LD - says the doctor. :blush:

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#4

I love the irony in your name :laughing:

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#5

While it’s important to not over identify with terms like old soul, I think you’ll be interested in reading ‘The Michael Teachings’ channelings on soul age and old souls. You can find the website on Google. Reading about the different maturation levels of souls on this planet was resonant to me, particularly the sections on young souls (my parents fit this description aptly, and it explains our difference in perspective and temperament on many matters quite well).

There are many gifts to being (or identifying with) an old soul. Wisdom and freedom to not care so much (once you allow yourself that luxury) are some of those gifts. The goal is to find other people with compatible outlooks to life to have fun with and enjoy your youth with. They’re out there and they likely crave to just relax now and again too.

Best wishes, and I hope you get what you want out of your (physical) youth.

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#6

Certain things are transient. The enduring structure have been style taste and charisma. Except tonight, which was paradoxical and ironic. I want a solution to this subtle madness, which heavily fuels my creativity as well unfortunately. I’m awesome and people know that, but the struggles inside to be awesome is madness.

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