The following post(s) is meant to be a tribute as well as a cathartic process for myself. Please no disrespectful comments regarding any of the topics and results that I am about to speak about in this very short journal.
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Emperor Reforged and Genesis ST1 results Btw
If any of you were to know me in real life something that most of you would pick up on is that I am a huge animal lover, always have been and my parents are the same way, that said I think most of you can understand when I say that pets are more than just animals, but they are family to me. That is why when the time comes for them to pass on it is genuinely a devastating experience for people like me and my parents.
Wednesday May 20th I had to make one of the shittiest but necessary calls in my life and that was to put my cat of 8 years down due to a cancer that rapidly spread to his liver. Nothing was able to be done, treatment wasn’t guaranteed to succeed (less than 20% chance), and quality of life was just gonna go down…as painful as it is I couldn’t allow his suffering to continue.
A little backstory but 8 years ago my parents were looking into getting a cat, now I have always been a dog person (had 2 that passed away) but they wanted my opinion on one of the cats and I went along, just for a kitten to basically pick me…Even though I wasn’t a cat person it didn’t take long for him to become my best friend. The unconditional love that he always gave me got me through so much shit, and some really dark paths that I walked…One of the strongest bonds that I have ever formed, ended up being with a cat that I didn’t really care for or wanted in the beginning. That’s why in this situation I had to return the favor for all the good years and moments he had given me and make a call out of the same unconditional love, and end his suffering.
Emperor Reforged, and Genesis ST1 came into play because I know even though I had to make that call I wouldn’t have been able to have held his head in his final moments to help ease his anxiety and confusion while also comforting my mother. This result might not mean much to some but to me this result will always be a top 3 for me. @SaintSovereign @Fire, these two products made me emotionally grounded enough to fight through the pain and help made one of the shittiest days of my life a little bit more bearable. With tears in my eyes I wanna say…Thank you.
Also fuck cancer.
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Now to explain the “Farewell for Now” part of the title. A few of you know but these past 14 months I have went through a lot of pain.
Lost a friend to suicide, cousin gets killed, almost lost my grandmother to a stroke and now slowly watching her mind go due to dementia, mother started going through medical issues, almost lost my father a week ago in a medical emergency and exactly one week later I had to put my cat down, and more that I have not mentioned
The pain of losing my cat caused a huge release, and I feel like I am just finally processing and letting go of all that has been happening and bottling up. Emotionally I am just drained, and for the first time I am admitting to myself that I should speak to a professional, and I am going to utilize a free resource from my job and speak to a counselor/therapist. Also with me getting diagnosed with ADHD and started taking meds for it in early may of this year, from what I have been told therapy and counseling is generally a good idea anyways especially if its diagnosed later on in life. Which btw the medication has been doing a lot of good for me.
To give my meds some time to stabilize and for me to go to counseling to work through some shit, I believe it is an appropriate time for me to take a step back from subliminals and go on a very long washout while I focus on healing, picking up the pieces, and planning my next move in life. To prove to myself on how far the subs have helped me grow, the best test is to see what I can do without them.
To @SaintSovereign and @Fire, in the years that I have been here your products has helped me change for the better, while it did take me a while cause I am notoriously stubborn and it took a lot of internal work I am a much better man now than I have ever been. Your products helped me realize my capabilities to bring positive change in my life. So once again…Thank you.
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My deep attitude and understanding to you @Uber_Elysium. I cannot imagine how tough and stressful it is if I put myself into your situation. I don’t think I can handle the stress and sadness.
True hope and wish you can stand strong, find good support and overcome the situation.
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I greatly appreciate the kind words, thank you.
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Our condolences for everything you’re going through right now, and thank you for sticking with us and providing such good feedback over these years. Your presence will be missed. We appreciate you, and we sincerely hope that you can find healing, restoration and peace. You are always welcome back when you’re ready – and I do hope we cross paths again.
Many blessings on your journey.
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Thank you so much man, I greatly appreciate the condolences, and I’m happy to know that I have made good contributions and feedback over the years. I can’t wait to try out new products and tech in the near future.
When I am in a better place both emotionally and mentally and at least have a system in place I will be back for sure.
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I can’t even imagine the amount of pain you must be going through right now and all I can do is wish you much strength and the absolute best for the future, Per aspera ad astra 
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