Subs coming online and offline

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#1

Hi guys.
I am currently looking deeper into my neurodivergence and was wondering if some of you were encountering the same things.
Subs coming online and offline.
There are timeslots when I am completly in subliminal mode. I have access to all the progress I made on multiple subs. All those subs I worked with being online. Me feeling like I am in charge of my life. ANd then there are those times when I lose access…when my prefrontal cortex shuts off. And its like I am “bare me” again with my limited mindset even forgetting the progress I made with subs. Basically losing the self image I built with subs. The whole beliefe set, everything. Its like I never used any sublinals.

I was wondering if this is coming from my adhd/developmental trauma or if this is the “natural” process of sublininal integration and if others are encountering the same.

#2

One of the things about ADHD that’s easy to overlook, it’s not a consistent thing. So it makes sense sometimes you’re in a flow state with subs and sometimes you’re not. Lots of factors to consider

If I had to guess, you’re overly harsh about yourself when ADHD ramps up. Most people with ADHD have trauma associated with it. The expectation to just perform well and not make excuses as children. When you hit a slump it’s very easy to default to the older stuff. It’s happened many times for me. I’m sure you’re aware but ADHD also effects emotional regulation so it’s harder to pull yourself out of that stuff too which can add to feelings of guilt. It’s def a lot.

#3

Be a good scientist here and try and answer the question for yourself.

Here’s the test.

Do a full washout (unless you have already) and wait until things fully, fully stabilize, then look very objectively at yourself and your life and try and work out if it’s true that’s you’ve reverted to “bare you” again.

Because it’s possible that your experience is real, that you’re effectively just not integrating the subs and there fore not actually changing in a permanent way.

My guess is that experience of “bare you” has more to do with “normalization” of what used to be “new experiences”.

It’s very easy to see when things have changed (for good or bad) because there is something different about you, your reality, etc.

However, it’s actually pretty damn tough to be able to tell when something has “become” you because you no longer flag it as different.

Does this make any sense?

When the changes become real, normalized, and permanent, you won’t notice them because they aren’t “changes” any more, they are just you.

#4

Maybe this will help