Hi guys.
I hope this discussion is allowed as this is hittingt he border of medical advice.
I have been suffering from developmental trauma, CPTSD, ADHD my whole life. Worked a lot on it the last 4 years. Theraphy, medication, work with psychedelics, yoga.
While I feel like I have a firm grip on the pure psychological aspects of the healing thats going on, a whole other story is the “neurodivergence” caused by developmental disorder: a not sufficiently connected frontal lobe to the remaining brain. Resulting in whats called ADHD. I am more and more realizing how far the rabbit hole goes…
I am working with a conjunction of medication and neurofeedback to rewire my brain. So to say to create those connections between limbic system and frontal lobe…to get to a point where subliminal properly work. Where my thoughts actually have power over me. Where I can stop thoughts. Stop intrusive memories. And I wonder about how far subliminals can help here and if someone has got an idea which modules or subs to use.
I am not really looking for productivity but long term development. Productivity subs in the past have highjacked my trauma and got me into this functioning mode again that led me to burnout. Things that create drive is also not what I am looking for.
I am talking about deeper stuff. Like how to create positive body chemicals from your own mind. Anhedonia is a thing. Like subs work on the frontal lobe. But the connection between frontal lobe and the emotional system is missing. I can run as many subs as I want that teach me emotional regulation…when its installed on a external harddrive and as soon as I am in a group of people, my limbic system takes over and disconnects my frontal lobe…aka unplugs the extrenal harddrive.Thats no help.
Then I take some ritalin…and suddenly subs that I didnt listen for months start to execute.
When I am regulated and alone. Subs work like wonder. But put me into a stressful sitation (liek a group of people or crowded place)…and nervous system is taking over. No chance to conciously overwrite those patterns…when the concious part of your brain is disconnected. Same as riunning positiveity stuff…yes, I think positive. But positive thoiughts dont create positive bodychemicals and feelings in my body. There is a split between.
I am approaching these things with somatic theraphies and the mentioned means. But maybe someone has an idea. Gonna go with the modules for Nervous system and hormonal healing with my next custom. Maybe someone got an idea.