first off I love the subliminal club, I have been using the subs for a long time and they were the only ones out of all I have tried that seemed to stick.
So I did a whole year + on subs it built me up and gave me some solid skills that I feel have stayed with me for a long time, It also forced me to deal with a lot of things that were going on inside me, that I knew was there but didn’t know how to access or fix. Something happened that kind of pushed me off Subs for a while and it has been 5-6 months now since I have used subs, although I feel a lot has stayed with me I have started to slip. First Im a man and it’s hard for me to say this publically but I have been dealing with the fact of being a survivor sexually abused as a child and as a teenager, it has been a lot for me to mentally process. I realised the stacks I had was building me up to be strong and tough but on a bad foundation, but in the last few months, I noticed a lot of what made me strong has been collapsing due to unfixed cracks of the trauma.
I have gone back to my reclusive ways of locking myself away from family and people I would consider friends, having nightmares of the abuse, waking up in fear, drinking, gaining weight, being scared and overthinking everything and go through every stage of the trauma leader daily to the point it feels like its getting to much. Even to the point a couple of weeks ago I considered ending things and had it fully planned out until I was talked down by someone online. it has not been fun
Would it please be possible for someone to suggest subs or even a stack that would help in the healing process of the past trauma, so I can get back don’t track rebuilding myself to being the bed man I can be.
My stack for over a year was this
- Emperor Q
- Emperor - House of Medici
- Primal Seduction Iron Throne Q (I bought the wrong one I mean to get the one with healing)
- Stark Q
I also currently own these, that I would add in at different times to see effects:
- Power Can Corrupt
- Aegis Initiative: Survival Instinct
- Wanted
as you can tell I was very focused on building myself to be the best version of myself, but I wasn’t healing. I am open to suggestions, my budget is limited right now but I will get what I can, I can’t go on living like this I need to fix this, I need help and I dont know where to start or what tools I can use to heal