With LBFH, i feel more of “how can i give the best to the people that i love and care about” instead of wanting to take for myself. which works well for your goal because the focus is not on how deserving you are, but how much said thing can help you give to others.
on top of that, self love itself can help you feel deserving of something.
Most of us struggle with this in some form. This is one of the reasons I like the themes in the Bible of abundance and deservedness. Even if you only look at it as a useful philosophy… it’s really chockfull of great internal beliefs if you can adopt them. Neville helped me here:) I find myself using passages as mantras through the day. Unless we were very fortunate, most of us received faulty programming from home or outside via media or education into believing that the world is one of lack and limitation. And this is propagated by those who directly profit and/or create policies where they will profit.
Thank you for your thoughtful reply. I don’t think my blockage is from external programming. Rather, from life experiences and/or family programming. I’m not looking for a spiritual solution at this time. I could consider that later.
I have the same. I know better but they are ingrained. You can catch yourself by your thoughts and speech. Is it empowering or limiting? Both are valid in the world: but we choose what we will express.
@Sinusoid, I wanted to share some of my experience at SC, because that wondering is very familiar to me. I speak to a man who’s been here a while too.
The short version: I’ve built and maintained my own dysfunctional lifestyle. I didn’t think I had any choice over it. But traumas are now being disabled steadily, and with it, a desire to grow and move beyond my own self-imposed limits.
The longer version: I really, really get your question. I’ve been here over 5 years now, and it wasn’t until this year that I could really see what I’ve been circling around for years.
I was on the most freeing sub (to me)-- Genesis. Loaded fully with confidence, drive, true curiosity and courage to explore, light healing, business planning… it is my dream sub.
However, I kept hitting a wall. A true blockage tied to success. I knew it was linked to some childhood trauma, and it was very familiar, as I’ve been eyeing sustainable home businesses for over a decade. I’ve joined some, but I’d routinely start, freeze, and drop out quietly.
While on Genesis, I restarted a trading business I’ve owned. I also froze and pulled out quietly, again.
So, I chose to tackle this sob which has knee-capped me multiple times. I did DR St.1 for 2 cycles (my 3rd try with DR btw). And that memory, that trauma, wasn’t touched. DR touched me deeply on many levels, but that specific trauma wasn’t touched.
I contacted support about this. How could I move beyond this trauma? I grew up thinking stuff like this never leaves you.
Support responded saying Regeneration would remove this. And I wavered since DR seems to be the strongest sub for healing. I began Regeneration over 2 weeks back, and I’m definitely experiencing a loss of my old identity. It’s definitely clearing out junk.
All that you desire is built into the subs here. As a fellow struggler, I ask:
Can you sense what your blockages are yet?
Sensing them and the discontent they produce might help guide your future subliminal choices.
It has for me, and I’m grateful I saw this. Otherwise, I’d still be circling this major hang-up.
Hmm. Wouldn’t have thought of Emperor. I’m looking to remove a blockage, which seems more like healing. I thought Emperor was a hard hitting alpha male title with a very broad mandate.
Not sure why you’d recommend it for me. Can you explain further?