Idk dudes things have been worse than ever. Everything is annoying, everything is unbearable. And I mean everything. I get hints of me being jealous at mundane things. This effort of trying to live in the moment and the literal nowhere it has led to infuriates me.
Socially, although i have the most phenomenal eye contact ever and interacted with the most people and locked eyes with the most women ever today, It still didnt “feel” right. I am aware emperor is not at all a social sub but know that I wasnt planning to interact, it all just happened. Although body language, vocal tonality were fine but the content was not at all at the level I usually have. Theres no humour, things get awkwardly weird sometimes. I feel interested in conversating people but my mind doesnt. Things end up being a disappointment usually.
I have been using these subs from quite awhile and I even have ran emperor v2 for sometime but never have I ever felt this crazy levels of reconciliation.
I am getting extremely pissed at the mistakes i make and even CRAzy pissed at the lack of freedom I have in my life.
basically, i am acting like a complete manchild
Can this even be reconciliation? Or am I just thinking too much?